What's Bothering You?

these was an event this morning that I've been thinking about going to literally all week, and of course this morning comes and I totally forgot about it until just now. I don't know how long it's going on and my group left around 9am for it so I'm not sure if me rushing to get dressed and going now would be worth my time. I'm always worried about forgetting stuff like this, I really wanted to go 😭
 
still suffering from depression and am now getting bombarded by suicidal thoughts! Why me!
I don’t know if you wanted a reply, but I need to reply, so I hope it’s okay. I’m going to tell you the same thing I tell my son every night before bed:
❤️ you are kind
❤️ you are strong
❤️ you are brave and unique
❤️ the world is better because YOU are here
❤️ I. Love. You.

These are affirmations from a book that are actually to be said to yourself, so the last part technically says, “I like me” but since I say them to my son, I changed it to I love you.
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Please reach out for help if these thoughts continue. ❤️
 
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These days it seems I'm just having fights with people. I know several people who got endoctrined in far righ or left ideologies because of Internet, I even had to take my mom's phone and block stuff because she was starting to believe fake news. Where is their common sense? Now I'm the villain for calling out ppl misgendering another, I'm the one lacking empathy and hurting people feelings. Some people don't want to talk to me anymore because I'm the mean one. I'm also just jealous for spotting manipulators and warning people. Yes, I'm the bad guy.

Edit: sorry, I missed the rule about censored words I will change it.
 
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These days it seems I'm just having fights with people. I know several people who got endoctrined in far righ or left ideologies because of Internet, I even had to take my mom's phone and block stuff because she was starting to believe fake news. Where is their common sense? Now I'm the villain for calling out ppl misgendering another, I'm the one lacking empathy and hurting people feelings. Some people don't want to talk to me anymore because I'm the *******. I'm also just jealous for spotting manipulators and warning people. Yes, I'm the bad guy.
You’re not the bad guy. People these days are spoiled brats. Like those Mollycord admins. They believe that if you are neutral to a social issue, then you are evil (like evil as a murderer). To me, they are the evil ones (not just the Mollycord admins, but everyone with this mentality). People will eventually learn that not everything is going to go their way. I’m sorry that you have been bullied.
 
Keagan's been really lethargic lately. He sits in the same spot at the door and limps when he walks anywhere. A month ago, he was one hyper dog. I gave him a few treats today, and he ate them slowly instead of devouring them like he used to. He's 13 years old, and it's sad to think he doesn't have much time left. I got him another lamb chop toy. He usually jumps up onto me to grab it. This time, he sat in front of me and patiently waited for me to hand it to him.
 
There's quite a few people out there online whom I've seen write stuff such as 'I have no personality'.

We all have a personality. It's in how we respond to everyday things, in our interactions with other, even the smallest actions convey our personalities. Even if we can't see it in ourselves, it's there. Remember that our inward perception is not necessarily the perception of how others see us.

It seems to be a self esteem thing. I don't always have the best self esteem either nor do I really fit into places socially.

But we all have a personality. I've always felt bad when I see people telling themselves that.
 
So many things about my family members' behavior annoys and/or bothers the hell out of me, but I have absolutely no say in it. No one thinks they need to listen to me. There's no room for argument or improvement, I just have to shut up and take it.

Maybe it's truly like this in the real world/job market/whatever, so I shouldn't be complaining.

EDIT: I'm also very annoyed that both my cats left their excrements upstairs. My brother wouldn't even help me until my dad intervened even when I was in the middle of cleaning piss on my floor. Good riddance.
 
I still can't post art. I tried too again, but I can't. I want to post it so badly but my axiety acts up and I can't.

I'm sorry if you saw it once more. But I still can't do it. What it wrong with me. :( I used to happily share all my stuff but I can't even post this one picture.

I don't get it. 😭😭 I feel so wasteful just making a post and deleting it.
 
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I found out from my mom that a friend of ours from church passed away today. She was battling a disease that affects the brain and it took awhile before they could figure it out. Not sure the exact name of it since they kept that to close family only. As she declined so fast it’s hard to wrap my head around it. She was an amazing person always helping anyone . Thankfully she is no longer in pain. We just miss our friend. RIP my friend .
 
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