What's Bothering You?

[Mimi Cheems]

Me, having both a bipolar + BPD diagnosis: Yeah, I can see the BPD. Where's the bipo--

*has been up for an uncertain amount of hours, did several things that should make me tired but could DEFINITELY do them all over again if I wanted, impulsive behaviors, intrusive thoughts, talking very fast, isolating from friends and most social media to indulge in new plans that I will never do later*

Me: Oh. There it is.

UGHHH. This only happens once every few months-- so maybe 3-4 maybe 5 times in an entire year. I hate this feeling.. but like.. I've gotten a lot done so I guess I'm proud of myself ?

 

[nightglow]

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[SkyKnight03]

I forgot people are doing work on the roof today and i didn’t realize it’d start at 9am that’s too earlu i cannot sleeep and there’s this horrible high pitched drill

I internally related so strongly to this.

Me, being an anxious bean, never liked strangers around the house to begin with. I'm not comfortable doing morning chores while squeezing around maintenance workers. Or waking up to several strangers already in the house.

We had a new room installed recently by our landlord. It was two weeks straight of those loud drill noises at 7:00 AM.

 

[Giddy]

I tried using Krita art program today, but annoyingly when I imported my image (I drew something by hand and planned to use it as a reference) it wouldnt let me draw on the image (using different layer) and each time i tried drawing advance drawing colour palette would pop up :/ but i can draw fine with my drawing tablet when i had a different file with no added image :/

 

[Suguri]

NVM!! Feeling better now :)

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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I hope you don't mind a response, apologies in advance. I definitely understand this feeling, manic episodes are very stressful and overwhelming to deal with. I only just recently started being treated for manic episodes, and I've lived with bipolar for at least seven years now (maybe longer but I'm not sure). if you ever need to vent about it you can send me a message anytime, please don't hesitate

 

[Dunquixote]

I feel kinda dumb; I had no idea the sweet balloon was not new and now even though I’m happy I didn’t have it, at the same time I’m a bit bummed that it wasn’t a new balloon, not to mention pink is one of my least favorite colors. I’m hoping I’ll be able to get a couple more balloons and that I have better luck then .

I’m a bit upset about some stuff.

Also frustrated with my slow progress on my magnificent memories entry. I’m still stumped on what to put in one part of my drawing. I did have an idea, but with the colored pencils and pencils smearing, I don’t think it’d look good once I finish coloring that part especially since what I wanted to draw were going to be really small.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler

I'm feeling emotional, so apologies if my post seems... Erratic, or something. My dad decided we're going to the clinic instead of the hospital, and I had to do the phone call. It went okay, but I couldn't help but feel like some of the receptionist's responses were condescending. ("Why would you leave your [health issue] untreated if it's been going on for months?") I also got nervous and I think it showed because they asked me if I was crying... I wasn't, but I think I was on the verge because I was in pain.

My stepmom made an insensitive comment and I'm still mad about it. My parents asked my brother and I to go to the store (again). I wasn't necessarily happy about it because the pain was getting unbearable, but I didn't complain. I come back downstairs a few minutes later and start crying in my dad's arms because I couldn't ****ing handle the pain. Of course, my stepmom has to say, "I think you're crying because you don't wanna go to the store. You were fine 10 minutes ago." You also asked me why I was shaking 10 minutes ago... Ugh.

I'm still really bummed about getting a sweet balloon in the confetti event, but that's the least of my worries at this point. I want to continue working on one of my entries, but my motivation just dropped and I'm too tired/unwell to do anything anyways. I'm supposed to be eating dinner, but I just wanna sleep away my pain. My appointment isn't till next week, but I just wanna get this **** treated. I'm tired of this.

 

[VernalLapin]

I’ve just been a rock these past few days. A tired hungry lazy rock that can barely bother to get up and do the most basic tasks.

 

[Seastar]

I'm tired of being asked the wrong question. Maybe I should stop venting in certain places. (I'm not talking about here.) I can't even answer said question because it stresses me out and reminds me of how many problems I have.

Anyway, I'm still trying to get my wrist to hurt less. Been trying ice and taking medicine (which I cannot tell if it's doing anything). I also had to cut a bunch of browser game dailies out of my schedule so I use my wrist less.
It's slightly better (I think??) but I still can't really use that wrist or it hurts a lot. I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I'm asleep, too.

 

[Midoriya]

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[LordSheep78]

I'm sick. oh my gosh i feel awful. I always say that id rather be sick and at home than go to school because school is miserable torture for me but now that i am sick i feel awful on so many levels. i dont like it. why cant i just be happy
like cmon i finally get a break from school being the most stressful thing ever but now i want to go back because it would mean im not sick ughhhh whyyyy

 

[Midoriya]

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[VernalLapin]

I’m looking through old drawings and I found my cringy comics that I drew when I was 14 and I tried to brace myself for the cringe but one of them is just the cringiest thing ever and I had to fight the urge to rip it up because I’d probably get curious about the ripped up part…

 

[daisyflowers]

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[xSuperMario64x]

feeling loopy this morning lol


also I HATE political ads.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

feeling loopy this morning lol

update, it got worse.

Spoiler

I feel awful right now. I still feel loopy but now I also have a headache, and I've been in the restroom multiple times, and I just generally feel weak. I had my dentist appt today so my gums hurt from where they poked me a few times. I'm also hungry but of course no one can take care of me, I always do most everything myself so if I can't help myself then I'm just screwed. prob couldn't help anyway bc I honestly have no appetite.

and then ofc my mum accused me of making her feel like she's a burden, without even asking me if I was okay or if I had enough money to buy her what she wants (no, I don't). both of my parents do this manipulative bull**** and I'm so tired of it.

I feel kinda miserable right now, I'm tearing up a bit. I just want to go back to sleep.

 

[Seastar]

Feeling like I am doomed to never feel healthy. My life is just getting worse. It's been going in that direction for the past few years. I can't even count how many problems there are.
I had more typed but I changed my mind about posting it.

 

[Dunquixote]

I took my medicine earlier but I’m still extremely depressed even though my mood is a much more stable than it was before I took it. My best friend’s birthday is coming up and I’m so sad. Sad because he never wished me even a belated birthday and because he never talks to me anymore.

 

[Doo]

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I think magnificent memories is due on the 25th, just not the invitation. Sending hugs Dun