What's Bothering You?

[Paperboy012305]

Why do I always get the least amount of reactions for everything? What’s it gonna take to be like the rest of you who do get a lot of reactions?

 

[g u a v a]

it's gloomy outside and i'm tired of it i just want consistent sunshine and the ability to wear light layers like dresses.

 

[BungoTheElf]

I finally get the chance to go to mikuexpo this year, but for the first tour performance, she seems to be on a very small LED screen rather than a projection...? I'm hoping it was only for that location but regardless, it's disappointing for the people who paid so much money to see miku on a tiny screen. Hopefully it won't ruin the experience because I was really looking forward to it...

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: possible tw

just reflecting on all the hardship and emotional abuse and manipulation that I've dealt with in my life, and that I'm still living with to this very day. at this point I'm almost desensitized to it, but I know I don't deserve this. I really don't.

 

[Darkesque_]

My last package is getting delivered today, but it's almost 4:30 (I'm just impatient )

 

[trista]

Spoiler

i feel overwhelmed.

i’m in the process of writing an essay for a scholarship, and i find it super hard to talk about myself. what makes me so interesting? why should i be chosen over other candidates? the other applicants are better than me, so how am i supposed to compete?

i’m not ready to shoulder the responsibility of adulthood, and i’m not ready to leave my parents in september.

i’ll be working towards a BScN and i feel discouraged. i was proud of myself for getting into the program, but everyone complains about the difficulty. if everyone else is struggling, i won’t be any different. i just want to be a good student.

 

[Soigne]

i'm a fraud! i'm a fraud and somehow i've convinced the university that i'm competent enough to be a masters degree candidate and i've actually been fooling everyone this whole time and now i'm graduating in a few weeks and i feel so far behind my classmates

 

[rocketspruggs]

I seem to have a stomach bug...I'm dehydrated, and I have a loss of appetite. I woke up feeling dizzy, I feel even colder than usual, and in the middle of eating dinner, I had to go throw up in the toilet, and during that, my eyes were watering, not crying, and my nose was running.

I don't have a sore throat, or a runny nose, other than that fiasco, I just feel woozy.

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

I just woke up to a dream about one of my late kitties and she was dying again in my dream and other things going on in my dream that i’m trying not to remember. I miss her and my other late kitties so much .

still lonely too :/.

 

[-Raven-]

^ If you ever want to chat with someone here my doors are open for you.

This is another small thing compared to people here, but firstly I hate how normalised alcohol (a hard drug) is, and how smoking is so bad for your health. I’m not going to say more but I could totally use a vice.

 

[Xara]

having a uterus sucks

 

[ali.di.magix]

Spoiler: kinda personal but hey

bruh mistakes were made....why tf did i think it was a good idea to give someone my number to find out they're obsessed with me!! pls leave me alone lmao

 

[jiny]

Spoiler

im still so shook by the whole situation w the guy i was talking to i feel like im overreacting, but at the same time we were basically official, and he was telling me how much he loved me and he wanted a future with me, but he goes behind my back and calls another girl cute and constantly inviting her to go out with him to the clubs .. it’s such a horrible feeling to find that out, when i found out my heart was pounding so fast, i was shaking and i just wanted to scream i was risking my parents and i’s relationship to be with him, they were giving me the silent treatment and threatening to kick me out.. and he knew all of these yet still did all this behind my back :/

 

[Zane]

I wish I could just have a sit-down with my brain, a little 1 on 1, and just ask it why tf it’s so in love with obsessively stewing in the sludge of all the worst memories and feelings possible

 

[Dunquixote]

^ If you ever want to chat with someone here my doors are open for you.

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thank you! I appreciate it .

Spoiler

I just woke up and this time i had a dream about some of the people I used to hang with. I really wish I had friends over here but I don’t have a job and can’t get myself to leave the house. Not to mention, social anxiety and being bad at just starting conversations. At this point, I don’t think I’ll have any more personal friends. I like my alone time and staying at home but i still can’t help but feel lonely. I want a boyfriend too but same problem and I honestly find it hard to believe there is anyone out there for me.

 

[moonbyu]

twitter was already a cesspool but ever since elon took it over, it's just been downright deplorable. what an awful app. so glad i deleted my account and the app lol.

 

[-Raven-]

You know what just gets me with trying to socialise… people who you only get to hang out with if you’re doing THEIR thing. You bring up your thing and you’re lucky to get an hour, they never will on their own. This isn’t my universal experience, but hell man, it’s been too common.

Kinda sucks when everything I like is niche. Never seem good at proselytising (tongue-in-cheek) and hanging out in spaces for those niches… they don’t seem that social. I might suck at socialising, but I’ve accommodated for people often enough that can’t be all of it.

Not about anyone I met through here… just venting. Looking back and dreading the next time I need to deal with this. rarg.

 

[skarmoury]

Spoiler: ;lmdsf;

my workmates are so ****ty i absolutely hate it here, theyre so bad at communicating (e.g. they switched my sched to accommodate someone else WITHOUT TELLING ME so all my plans had to be cancelled today), theyre not present during zoom meetings when they have the bigger role than me (note that one guy is at the BEACH and literally did not tell anyone in the room, not even our seniors/boss, so I had to swoop in and do his work for him bc otherwise they would get mad at us interns), and they dont even know parts of their own job?? my workmate tried gaslighting & guilt tripping me today for calling them out on the sched change without my knowledge/permission (note I was very civil with them) so i just muted and hid their chat away bc i couldnt bother talking to them anymore. they are so bad at receiving criticism for their own faults and deflect the blame to literally anything else and try guilt tripping me to make me feel bad about calling them out. for the guy who was away and at the beach, he's responsible for making our schedule for the next two weeks and we have literally received no news from him. work starts tomorrow and we have absolutely no idea what we are doing because he cant bother to give us a heads up on anything at all. lmao ive had enough of my workmates i hate it here

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I usually read through here (and the Happy thread) to see what everyone is up to, but I dunno. I've been dealing with so much personal reflection lately, and learning to help myself, and trying to work through past trauma caused by manipulation. I understand now that I can't give from an empty bucket, and right now my bucket only has about a cm of water in it. and as much as I want everyone here to feel heard and validated... I'm just struggling to read some of this stuff right now. my heart is raw and this stuff hits me so hard, on top of what I'm dealing with.

I just want you guys to know that you are always loved and cared for by someone here, even if it doesn't seem like it. I'm happy to be part of such a welcoming community. I'm struggling to do my part right now, but I genuinely do care a lot about you guys. I'm just overwhelmed and trying to sort our my own life at the moment. I have faith that you guys will get through this and find your peace someday. you'll be in my heart.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

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