What's Bothering You?
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i'm not gonna pretend i've read up on the entire situation but at one point he seems to send her about 10-12 messages in a row with zero response which is pretty harassing, he can tell himself he wasn't sexualising the situation but you don't gift a near stranger shoes and ask her to take multiple pictures if not for that reason in my opinion, i also might be missing some wider context tho and i can't say i watch his videos lol
Goldi Locks
Hot Porridge
How did he get the address to send the shoes though? I assume he was given it? Why accept gifts and give out your address to a stranger you allegedly already find creepy? Something doesn't quite add up.
well i assume she just thought it was an innocent gift, it was only after he'd sent it that he told her about his "special interest", if he'd told her before that then i'd get you but he used her to kind of act out his fantasy and she wasn't even aware really and that seems to be the point where she felt uncomfortable
SleepyAmaurotine
Mutable Memory
love the unnecessary arguments that happen almost daily in my family
yesterday I was talking to my dad about my birthday plans and he was saying yes to everything (invite relatives during the weekend, do our own thing tomorrow), but today my mom told me that she invited them for tomorrow to go to the restaurant???? I said we would just get fast food (restaurant #1 has become boring because my parents always force us to order a specific dish, restaurant #2 doesn’t really have food I’d want and I just like the desserts) and then my dad was acting like the conversation from yesterday never happened and I’m crazy
why is the communication so bad, I don’t want to go out to the restaurants my parents like for my birthday, I just want to stay home and have cake
why is the communication so bad, I don’t want to go out to the restaurants my parents like for my birthday, I just want to stay home and have cake
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
my dear lovely friend @/kiwikenobi has left 
Goldi Locks
Hot Porridge
I don't know the people involved, as I said. But I don't think it's wise to presume any gift from a stranger to be innocent and I definitely wouldn't give out my address. Both these people seem stupid and it just seems like yet another youtuber drama, the more I read about it.
awww i hope they’re ok!my dear lovely friend @/kiwikenobi has left
I started typing up paragraphs then decided things were getting way too personal. I'm starting that over.
Anyway, my bedroom floor is absolutely terrifying and this is the only room I get the amount of peace I want in. I am so upset as I don't want to sleep somewhere else for possibly years. Being stuck in the living room for a few days (due to the weather) really showed me how much I value my alone time, especially when under stress. I don't know what I'm going to do...
Anyway, my bedroom floor is absolutely terrifying and this is the only room I get the amount of peace I want in. I am so upset as I don't want to sleep somewhere else for possibly years. Being stuck in the living room for a few days (due to the weather) really showed me how much I value my alone time, especially when under stress. I don't know what I'm going to do...
I seem to be receiving random bursts of thoughts that make me think that I’m unwanted or have no say in things outside this forum. It’s been happening more frequently with my job as of late, but more importantly, it’s an issue with my existing friend group whom I’m assuming everyone has gone their separate ways by now.
Shortly after the year began, I made the difficult decision to log out of my Snapchat account and let it go dormant. I still have friends that added me, but when I posted a message to my followers that I would be quitting Snapchat within 24 hours and to follow me on Instagram if they wanted to, no one bothered to reply, and no one added me on Insta. I also posted a status message on Insta telling those followers what was going on, and of course, no one bothered to read my wall of text and reach out to see what’s wrong. That was basically the final straw of me trying to maintain friendships with the remainder of my friends from high school. If they’re not going to reach out, then why bother. The few times I’ve tried, I’ve always been unsuccessful because they say things like “can’t do it, busy”, “I don’t feel like it”, or a few times “why should we say yes when you always say no to us?” Like, come on. I’m bored and wanting to do things for once. The last time I truly got invited to something from my friends was over the summer. The few times I went out since then, I was the one asking to join. And now? Nothing for over three months.
I’m now just working a job, currently feeling miserable because the chain-in-command are giving me hints that they don’t need my input on anything, and it’s all just “we know what we’re doing, we’re always right, leave us be”. Okay, you think you know everything? Fine. I won’t spontaneously help you anymore. I’ll only help when you ask me to do something that you approved. Sorry for trying to go above and beyond; I didn’t know going the extra mile wasn’t allowed. Who knew getting turned down from a promotion would lead to them shoving extra things down my throat without proper discussion and refusing to accept my help.
Most of the other co-workers are now giving me hints that I’m annoying, which is unusual as there are a few who have been on my side for a while. I’ve even tried reaching out to my mental therapist and they haven’t replied or checked on me either. I’m seriously beginning to wonder if most of the people I interact with in real life are turning on me. First it was my friends, then my sister, and now my co-workers. I deal with this frustration in my room by playing music, my video games, and coming to this forum.
I really don’t want to find another therapist to shell my money out to, but it may have to come to that if things don’t improve soon.
Shortly after the year began, I made the difficult decision to log out of my Snapchat account and let it go dormant. I still have friends that added me, but when I posted a message to my followers that I would be quitting Snapchat within 24 hours and to follow me on Instagram if they wanted to, no one bothered to reply, and no one added me on Insta. I also posted a status message on Insta telling those followers what was going on, and of course, no one bothered to read my wall of text and reach out to see what’s wrong. That was basically the final straw of me trying to maintain friendships with the remainder of my friends from high school. If they’re not going to reach out, then why bother. The few times I’ve tried, I’ve always been unsuccessful because they say things like “can’t do it, busy”, “I don’t feel like it”, or a few times “why should we say yes when you always say no to us?” Like, come on. I’m bored and wanting to do things for once. The last time I truly got invited to something from my friends was over the summer. The few times I went out since then, I was the one asking to join. And now? Nothing for over three months.
I’m now just working a job, currently feeling miserable because the chain-in-command are giving me hints that they don’t need my input on anything, and it’s all just “we know what we’re doing, we’re always right, leave us be”. Okay, you think you know everything? Fine. I won’t spontaneously help you anymore. I’ll only help when you ask me to do something that you approved. Sorry for trying to go above and beyond; I didn’t know going the extra mile wasn’t allowed. Who knew getting turned down from a promotion would lead to them shoving extra things down my throat without proper discussion and refusing to accept my help.
Most of the other co-workers are now giving me hints that I’m annoying, which is unusual as there are a few who have been on my side for a while. I’ve even tried reaching out to my mental therapist and they haven’t replied or checked on me either. I’m seriously beginning to wonder if most of the people I interact with in real life are turning on me. First it was my friends, then my sister, and now my co-workers. I deal with this frustration in my room by playing music, my video games, and coming to this forum.
I really don’t want to find another therapist to shell my money out to, but it may have to come to that if things don’t improve soon.
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
I just realized today that next month is Valentine’s day :/. It means nothing to me yet at the same time I’ve always hated it and now more than ever. I’m still waiting to hear back from my best friend and for once not be yelled at or scolded. He hasn’t checked on me once to see if I’m still safe :/. when this stuff first happened, he said I should be happy for him… he had a lot of nerve for saying that after dropping the news about meeting someone when I was hurting about something minor, and before Christmas. he knew I was waiting for him to let me know when I could visit him & how much I wanted to be his gf… At the same time, when I said anything he said he didn’t want to hear it or that I knew. i didn’t know he would drop me so tactlessly & yes I did know he didn’t have the same feelings, but he doesn’t seem to understand the whole thing with “love is blind”. Yet i still can’t help hoping even through all of this, that he takes everything back and tells me he was testing me or something. I really wish we never met or I was more likable and normal not to mention his type 
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I noticed ;-;my dear lovely friend @/kiwikenobi has left
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I can relate. I remember my dad taking us (him, me, my brother, and my mom) to hotels a lot in our old town because of the bad weather conditions we would sometimes get. It wasn't a big deal to my family, but for me, I was practically miserable during those situations. I hate extended moments of no alone time. It's one of the main reasons why I am not fond of vacations either.
Oh yeah, I've been there before. That stuff sucks.I just realized today that next month is Valentine’s day :/. It means nothing to me yet at the same time I’ve always hated it and now more than ever. I’m still waiting to hear back from my best friend and for once not be yelled at or scolded. He hasn’t checked on me once to see if I’m still safe :/. when this stuff first happened, he said I should be happy for him… he had a lot of nerve for saying that after dropping the news about meeting someone when I was hurting about something minor, and before Christmas. he knew I was waiting for him to let me know when I could visit him & how much I wanted to be his gf… At the same time, when I said anything he said he didn’t want to hear it or that I knew. i didn’t know he would drop me so tactlessly & yes I did know he didn’t have the same feelings, but he doesn’t seem to understand the whole thing with “love is blind”. Yet i still can’t help hoping even through all of this, that he takes everything back and tells me he was testing me or something. I really wish we never met or I was more likable and normal not to mention his type
It was those experiences however, that have influenced the better person I've become and inspired me to express those heartbreaks in my games, art and music. 
After such personal growth from those pains, I almost feel silly having felt that in the first place, but I'm thankful for the positive that I was able to find from that. 
Interesting username, by the way. I read Don Quixote and it's incredible! Everyone always mentions the windmill part, but I find the part where they brick-off his library and cause him paranoia much funnier.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
my GP office is so unreliable it drives me insane. they send me a letter asking me to make an appointment (instead of just, y'know, giving me one like a hospital would) and then when someone finally gets through, they make it with the wrong doctor and a month away. so we called back today, and now apparently their system is ~playing up~ and we should call back monday or tuesday. what, exactly, is stopping them from making a note somewhere and then arranging me an appointment when their system pulls itself together? why do i have to keep wasting my time playing chase the appointment instead? you can't even make one online because any time you try, it's just phone call appointments, or -- like right now, until march 3rd -- empty. i hate to rag on the NHS because it's a lifesaver and not their fault the tory government is crippling them, but dear god.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
I'm so sorry you feel that way love
I know you've been struggling a lot, and I understand how you feel as I've experienced similar things myself. depression is awful and really sucks the life out of you. but please always remember that you have friends who love you and care about you. 
you know you can always reach out on Discord if you need some company or just want to chat for a while. 
I'm detaching from my favorite person to no fault of her own. I don't know. I used to have to see her every week. Now, I can go longer without seeing her. I still carry her work name tag with me in my bag, but I just can't be bothered to remove it. I haven't thought about it being in there. I'm not latching onto another person... It's just, I'm becoming more dependent on myself. The only significant thing that's changed in my life is my job over that amount of time. Was I really in that stressful of an environment I felt the need to keep that obviously unhealthy connection going? I don't know what prompted me to officially ask for a transfer, but something officially clicked in my brain at the other job; not the toxic one. That's when I knew it was probably the right decision. It wasn't something that upset me at my other job, but it was a situation at my other job that made me feel like I actually belonged.
It was different because over the past few years, I'd quit jobs based on one specific thing that happened that upset me. It was a rinse and repeat scenario. One year that I was doing my taxes, I had to wait for a record, NINE tax forms for the jobs I had over the course of that year. If you asked me about a negative aspect of my job, I'd have a hard time thinking of one. I truthfully can't think of a single person I dislike. I was letting my emotions control me over the past two years which prompted me to say things I didn't mean and develop into someone I'm not.
It feels normal not obsessing or thinking about my favorite person all the time. It just feels more lonely without that aspect of my life, but it's better than being forced into toxic groups I shouldn't be part of in the first place. There was a point in my life at the other job that I started vaping, but stopped after about a week after realizing it wasn't helping. I received it from someone I considered my friend at the other job because she said it would help my stress. I used to consider myself anti-smoking, but clearly I'm not as against it as I once thought. The vape was given to me by the same person responsible for my write-up - and there I go blaming someone else for my overreaction. Basically, she was one of two people that were serving. I was only helping the one person because while she was filming Tiktoks in the breakroom, the one person was actually doing their job. When the girl asked me to help her, I told her no because I'd rather help the person actually doing their job. I got written up for catering to one person and refusing to help anyone. So, basically, I received a vape to help reduce my stress from one of the people causing me stress. That was the job I transferred from.
I'm pretty sure I found a job I actually like, and that's a big deal for someone with BPD such as myself. I'm detached from my favorite person. We're definitely still friends. I'm just questioning some of the other friendships I have because the only meaningful connection I've had with someone up to this point has been with my favorite person.
It was different because over the past few years, I'd quit jobs based on one specific thing that happened that upset me. It was a rinse and repeat scenario. One year that I was doing my taxes, I had to wait for a record, NINE tax forms for the jobs I had over the course of that year. If you asked me about a negative aspect of my job, I'd have a hard time thinking of one. I truthfully can't think of a single person I dislike. I was letting my emotions control me over the past two years which prompted me to say things I didn't mean and develop into someone I'm not.
It feels normal not obsessing or thinking about my favorite person all the time. It just feels more lonely without that aspect of my life, but it's better than being forced into toxic groups I shouldn't be part of in the first place. There was a point in my life at the other job that I started vaping, but stopped after about a week after realizing it wasn't helping. I received it from someone I considered my friend at the other job because she said it would help my stress. I used to consider myself anti-smoking, but clearly I'm not as against it as I once thought. The vape was given to me by the same person responsible for my write-up - and there I go blaming someone else for my overreaction. Basically, she was one of two people that were serving. I was only helping the one person because while she was filming Tiktoks in the breakroom, the one person was actually doing their job. When the girl asked me to help her, I told her no because I'd rather help the person actually doing their job. I got written up for catering to one person and refusing to help anyone. So, basically, I received a vape to help reduce my stress from one of the people causing me stress. That was the job I transferred from.
I'm pretty sure I found a job I actually like, and that's a big deal for someone with BPD such as myself. I'm detached from my favorite person. We're definitely still friends. I'm just questioning some of the other friendships I have because the only meaningful connection I've had with someone up to this point has been with my favorite person.
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
I’m so sorry to hear this and that I’m late to see this.I’m here if you need to talk (no pressure ofc)
. Sending you hugs and good vibesJust woke up and just thinking of Valentine’s day makes me want to sleep the whole month away so I don’t have to see the advertisement. I don’t watch tv but I’m on the internet a lot. I need to eat but I just don’t want to or interact with anyone. :/ I know I’m acting childish in some ways but I don’t know how to cope anymore when everything I had put my hopes on and kept me going is now gone. He said give it time, but no it has been 8 years and he does this to me; he always took months to reply sometimes throughout the years but more frequently now with this new job :/ how can i be okay and when my best friend and only personal friend is never here for me anymore.
Edit: My sister’s birthday was a couple days ago and my mom picked out a starbucks card for me to give her (my situation is complicated; would pick it out myself if I could and also if i was in a better frame of mind). I am so mad; I told her before Christmas when I was reading about the BDS movement who not to buy from and she said she wouldn’t buy from them, Mcdonald’s or other companies on the list that i showed her before Christmas. I know she is getting old and forget, but she could just say she forgot. My mom feels the same about what is going on there, but when it comes to being dedicated to boycotting, it is questionable. My sister doesn’t know about anything going on, but I absolutely refuse to buy from anyone supporting the genocide. I feel bad for getting mad (didn’t take my anxiety medicine yet) but people have been dying and being forcibly displaced for 75 years and I don’t want to give a gift that is at the expense of people’s lives.
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