What's Bothering You?

Took too long trying to finish the fic and now everyone's downstairs - With the heavily mature theme of the fic, I don't want anyone in my family seeing it. Maybe I'll just write it on paper and transcribe it onto my online draft when I'm done.
Also not really happy with how little progress I made - Just a few small tweaks and an added sentence or two. I think the fic is pretty good, but very much incomplete. Having tons of trouble putting my thoughts and ideas into words as well.
 
My friends discord. I swear most everyone ignores what I say in there and I just feel so unliked tbh
This is why I don’t like Discord and I’m sad at so many forums dying off. I mean it can happen anywhere, but soooo many Discord servers nobody even replies to me. Happens even in small ones too. I also don’t like it when I get a response and I try to reply back and have a conversation and it fizzles out but that’s still something. I don’t understand why there are so many servers where people don’t even respond and it feels like they’re apathetic to even having conversation. All of this stuff has just made me more detached from trying to make friends online. Which sucks because I don’t know anyone around my age down here. My jobs have only been for people way older than me so they weren’t really a viable way to make friends. They had interesting stories and I think they liked the company but those were richer older people so we wouldn’t exactly hang out or anything.

I’d say I know some chill servers- but to be honest they’re really crass and have a lot of swearing and I don’t want to self-advertise anyway. But if you ever want a conversation hit me up really… I know it’s not a replacement though. I have one friend I’ve tried hanging out with often and they just… let me go at my own pace to the point they’re never hitting me up and we’ve dropped plans before and stuff, and they seem to think I’m doing fine no matter what I say. They’ve done cool stuff for me, they gotta care, we just don’t really hold actual conversation. But hey that friend has still been in my contacts and never held things against me even though I’ve gotten into a lot of mess over the years.
 
I need to eat this morning (I have to work soon) and I really dont feel like spending more money on fast food but we still haven't gone grocery shopping yet so there's really nothing to eat here 😔
 
I need to eat this morning (I have to work soon) and I really dont feel like spending more money on fast food but we still haven't gone grocery shopping yet so there's really nothing to eat here 😔
I was about to suggest supermarket meal deals, but a quick Google suggests that they might be more of a British thing(?) 🤔 I wasn't planning on staying in the city this weekend so hadn't bought food to last past Friday. I just bought lunch for £3.50 (approx $4.25). And yesterday I was able to get a chicken pasta, fruit, and water for about the same price.

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Worth checking if anywhere near you does a more affordable or healthier alternative to fast food.
 
Man I really love putting stuff up for sale on Facebook Marketplace!
In less than 5 minutes already 3+ people tried to scam me with the same lame text and one actually sent me a picture of a ahem, private part. Very interesting. Sad that Facebook is too braindead to actually do something against those people. Imagine I was underaged and get a picture sent like that, awesome.
 
i want to hang out with my friends and go eat out and stuff but it's kinda hard bc we have different food preferences.
 
I was about to suggest supermarket meal deals, but a quick Google suggests that they might be more of a British thing(?) 🤔 I wasn't planning on staying in the city this weekend so hadn't bought food to last past Friday. I just bought lunch for £3.50 (approx $4.25). And yesterday I was able to get a chicken pasta, fruit, and water for about the same price.


Worth checking if anywhere near you does a more affordable or healthier alternative to fast food.
ehhhhh some grocery stores here have things like that but they're usually not much cheaper than fast food. especially gas stations, their food is pretty much always overpriced. I'm able to buy so much more if I actually go and buy groceries, I just haven't had time lately.
 
I think the reason why I have no appetite even if I'm hungry is because I've come to associate feeling hungry with feeling guilt. so I subconsciously started suppressing my desire to eat when I'm hungry. like right now, I know I'm hungry but there's nothing that I feel like I could eat without feeling sick. maybe I really should talk to a doctor about this.

also still feeling nauseous/dizzy when I swing on my swing and it's so annoying. I can't even rock a little bit without feeling like I might pass out.
 
Something went wrong with the laptop when I was using it. Not really sure what the issue is because it's in French.

Edit: Something's really wrong with the laptop. It went from Windows blue error screen to... I don't even know. Like the laptop's menu? It looks like something from the 90's when computers were still in development. Whatever it is, literally none of the keys and buttons are working. My dad is gonna be so mad when he comes back.
 
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I honestly find it really disturbing how well Cult of the Lamb is doing sales wise. Even though it's fantasy, the game is really satanic. So many popular games these days, heck even TV shows, have really dark and creepy themes I just really don't think it's good for the brain or soul to be exposed to so much of it. I'm not someone who shys away from mature content, but sometimes I really think they take it too far. I know this will probably be an unpopular opinion here and I'm not trying to make anyone feel bad. I just wanted to rant.
 
I’ll never understand why people don’t lock the doors when they use public bathrooms. I try to clean the restrooms at work, and they’re lucky I knock each time. Customers have walked in on each other before. Are people that oblivious to the fact that locks exist?
 
I went to the dentist today and it went fine for the most part but I might have to get a crown put in.. AND I might have to see a specialist about maybe getting some wisdom teeth removed... aaaaaaæäãåa
 
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