What's Bothering You?

so, apparently the pill just doesn't work? either for me in general or this type specifically. not only did i have three periods in one month, with this last one lasting a whole month on its own and just being gross old brown blood for the most part, but it's now rolled into a new period with cramps to boot -- the thing i literally started the pill to avoid. yeah, they're milder, but they still hurt like hell. i'm starting to wish i'd just stuck with the one day a month of total agony instead of this mess. jesus.
 
My mom thinking Asperger traits can just be changed like that because I told her to chill with her dramatic ****. Like no it's not changeable for me to be that way nor does she need to be a ***** about it.
yeah I hate when people say that traits of aspergers/autism are "bad traits" that need to be worked out, as if they can be lmao 🙄
 
so, apparently the pill just doesn't work? either for me in general or this type specifically. not only did i have three periods in one month, with this last one lasting a whole month on its own and just being gross old brown blood for the most part, but it's now rolled into a new period with cramps to boot -- the thing i literally started the pill to avoid. yeah, they're milder, but they still hurt like hell. i'm starting to wish i'd just stuck with the one day a month of total agony instead of this mess. jesus.
I feel this. I've been having one like every 2 weeks for a couple of months now and it royally sucks. Mine were so irregular before, so I switched types of hormones, and now they're...sort of regular? but also frequent. My cramps last night were awful.
 
I feel this. I've been having one like every 2 weeks for a couple of months now and it royally sucks. Mine were so irregular before, so I switched types of hormones, and now they're...sort of regular? but also frequent. My cramps last night were awful.

yeah, when i next see the doctor, i'm going to ask to switch to a different kind and see if that helps, but i'm terrible at taking it around the same time everyday. in the meantime, i'm going to invest in some period underwear since constantly wearing pads is aggravating me 😔
 
yeah I hate when people say that traits of aspergers/autism are "bad traits" that need to be worked out, as if they can be lmao 🙄
Yeah exactly and the person who says it use lame excuses why THEY can do it...like okay bro that's not how it works...
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so, apparently the pill just doesn't work? either for me in general or this type specifically. not only did i have three periods in one month, with this last one lasting a whole month on its own and just being gross old brown blood for the most part, but it's now rolled into a new period with cramps to boot -- the thing i literally started the pill to avoid. yeah, they're milder, but they still hurt like hell. i'm starting to wish i'd just stuck with the one day a month of total agony instead of this mess. jesus.
I don't know if you use combined or the non-combined ones etc. But yeah have a talk with your ob/gyn and maybe there are options. I used the combined ones when I had a bf...for yeah another reason besides not wanting cramps but later on I switched to non-combined and they worked better cause the combined ones stopped working as they should for me.

The non-combined/gestagene only ones mostly works different for most people so yeah next time you go to renew or talk with them, ask if there is anything else they can provide.
 
Yeah exactly and the person who says it use lame excuses why THEY can do it...like okay bro that's not how it works...
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I don't know if you use combined or the non-combined ones etc. But yeah have a talk with your ob/gyn and maybe there are options. I used the combined ones when I had a bf...for yeah another reason besides not wanting cramps but later on I switched to non-combined and they worked better cause the combined ones stopped working as they should for me.

The non-combined/gestagene only ones mostly works different for most people so yeah next time you go to renew or talk with them, ask if there is anything else they can provide.

i'm currently on a progesterone-only brand, so the alternative is either a different progesterone-only brand or switching to a combined pill. i might have to start setting alarms and trying to take it at the same time everyday, but that might be tricky with my abysmal sleep schedule we'll see. every time i try to google the issue, i always get the same unhelpful response about how spotting and/or prolonged periods are common for the first three months. not something they warned me about lmao.
 
see this is the problem when i start reading long, slow-burn fanfics (that are at least 30k words long)
i quite literally cannot stop until i finish it, whenever i put my phone down it's like an itch scratching at the back of my throat asking me what's gonna happen next and it's gonna bother me and of course i pick up my phone to continue reading
man fanfics are a rabbit hole and i should stop falling into them so often

edit: prof gave us 20 mins break and i was initially planning on reading fanfics but then i thought i should start on those liaison responsibilities WOW the world is healing maybe
 
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I’m irritated
This feels awkward saying, but I’m aware that I’m attractive, but I also have body dysmorphia and I’m not comfortable in my own skin I think my nose is too big and my mouth is a bit crooked. That doesn’t mean I’m an insecure not confident person or that I don’t love myself. Also as an artist, I’m well aware of what photos do to your face in that they give you a flipped around version of yourself that you don’t recognize it just makes the flaws you don’t notice normally pop out better. When drawing you get used to the angle you draw in so when you flip your art around it allows you to see and fix mistakes that you missed. Being insecure of a photo and still post it is brave in my eyes and so is admitting your vulnerabilities to others.
 
the stress of finals mixed with trying to figure out my feelings towards multiple people is so tiring
 
I’m irritated
This feels awkward saying, but I’m aware that I’m attractive, but I also have body dysmorphia and I’m not comfortable in my own skin I think my nose is too big and my mouth is a bit crooked. That doesn’t mean I’m an insecure not confident person or that I don’t love myself. Also as an artist, I’m well aware of what photos do to your face in that they give you a flipped around version of yourself that you don’t recognize it just makes the flaws you don’t notice normally pop out better. When drawing you get used to the angle you draw in so when you flip your art around it allows you to see and fix mistakes that you missed. Being insecure of a photo and still post it is brave in my eyes and so is admitting your vulnerabilities to others.
Yes, to all of this. I applaud you for saying this and I 100% agree! You are soo pretty and such an amazing artist! 🥰 (I'm the same way, I think I'm pretty too, but my nose is crooked)
 
I was watching a YouTube video about stereotypes in each state and I started thinking about how unusually nasty people are in here in Oregon. They make comments while you walk down the street, get mad when you don’t hear them, laugh at you when you stutter in public, and ignore you when you ask for directions. It was so weird going to the Midwest and meeting strangers that were actually polite. I’m just so used to people in Oregon being nasty 24/7.

As much as I love the scenery and the bustling nature of Portland, it’s hard to recommend this state sometimes.
 
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me in my last email: hey, don't call me because i can't do phone calls, as you know. if you can't put this in an email, i will come by in person as you suggested.

the therapy lady: calls me unannounced several days later and tells me to answer when i unsurprisingly do not

why
would you do this? especially as someone who knows about mental health and i've told multiple times that phone calls are a huge anxiety trigger for me? oh my god. it woke me up and sent me into a panic attack so bad that i started to get stomach pain and nausea. jesus christ, i'm still struggling to breathe now.
 
Tomorrow is my last day of work before my vacation starts but I'm just riddled with anxiety. I keep worrying that I'm going to forget something I need or a problem will come up and it'll be difficult to solve once I leave. I'll have almost of month of vacation before I leave South Korea and move back home. Instead of feeling relieved that I'm going home and leaving a toxic work environment, I feel stressed about my future. Tomorrow I have to ask my co-worker for a favor because my supervisor won't do her job. I've already asked her for a letter of rec and I'm really sorry to add to her workload when I know she's busy enough as it is... I got her a thank-you gift but I think she would just prefer if she didn't have to do it at all. She's aware the supervisor won't do it so she'll be understanding. Still, I feel guilty for asking her at all.

There are a lot of things I need to figure out before leaving and when I talk to people about my concerns, they just accept the fact that I'm going through a hard time but offer no help and then talk about themselves. Some people can be so self-involved and selfish. This couple I know asked me to dinner but when I suggested meeting at a restaurant in the midpoint of our houses, the husband said no and if I could just meet them near their house which is an hour away... He picked a mall I have to meet them at even though I told them I'm vegetarian. I tried to find info on the food court but they only list the restaurant names and the type of food they serve. He wouldn't budge on the time either, which is way later than I usually eat dinner. It's the middle of winter and they want me to travel 2 hours????????? Literally snowed last week.
 
i'm currently on a progesterone-only brand, so the alternative is either a different progesterone-only brand or switching to a combined pill. i might have to start setting alarms and trying to take it at the same time everyday, but that might be tricky with my abysmal sleep schedule we'll see. every time i try to google the issue, i always get the same unhelpful response about how spotting and/or prolonged periods are common for the first three months. not something they warned me about lmao.
Yeah, setting alarms definitely help, or if you have a time you are consistently up and walking maybe settle for that time, as long as they are the same time every day.

Yeah spotting can be common but then again it's different for everyone how the body handles it.
 
I am so sleepy all the time 😴
I feel this on so many levels. I've been looking into vitamin deficiencies, and trying to drink more water. The only water I drink is filtered over coffee beans or tea bags 🙄. Hope you start to feel more rested soon 💖
 
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