What's Bothering You?

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: TW

I had a pretty gruesome and notably bloody part in my dream, which I'm not gonna describe for the sake of anyone having to imagine it. But let's just say that it happened right near the end before I woke up, so now I can't stop thinking about it. I don't understand why I dreamed about it in the first place, because it had no correlation to what I was dreaming about before it happened. So yeah, that's a great start to my morning...

 

[moonbyu]

nvm im ok now

 

[Beanz]

@Shawna (sorry i can’t quote you, i messed it up somehow when trying to)

no it’s not, well i don’t go to public school so that’s probably why they’re forcing us. whenever i’ve had summer reading it’s always been required to do. the only time i didn’t have summer reading was last year, that was probably bc of covid and they were trying to figure out other stuff. plus im in honors english but even my brother, who goes to the same school as me, has to do reading and he’s not in it.

 

[moonbyu]

every time i decide to take responsibility for myself and plan something out to a freakin T, something ALWAYS comes up and RUINS IT! am i cursed or something? why do i even bother anymore?

 

[oddbear]

my nose will not stop running :,)
also, my dad accidentally called me it yesterday and it made me upset for a while. i know he supports me but it kinda hurts that the first person who said something like that to me was my dad.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

why are the people who proudly wear "let's go brandon" hats/shirts also the most repulsive lol

edit: to clarify I'm not trying to be rude or generalize but I've never seen/met a pleasant person who supported this kinda stuff.

 

[-Raven-]

I spoke with my psychologist yesterday. I really really really need friends irl huh? Online isn’t cutting it so much. But I really really never get opportunity to go out.

Waiting two weeks to see her again. She holds the best conversations with me. I don’t know how I can explain ny intellectual approach to anyone, I don’t feel I have conversations where I share IDEAS with people. What does the art we consume mean to us? What do pieces of that art represent and what did we learn from it? If we made art what would its theme be and what would we do? What are our stories in life and what are we really learning? Bouncing ideas and philosophy off one another. I don’t have it in my life after that one guy cut me out and I thought he got it (which was a farce, and he was awful to me in the end, but it feels like I lost part of myself then). I give but not receive it.

I tried to lead by example with my closer friends but I can’t deal anymore. I don’t feel anyone picked up what I was putting down and I was pretty open about feeling it was missing. Took a break from my main server.

And anyone I “grew up with” they‘re all gone except for one guy I honestly never even hear from anymore. Nobody from even four years ago is still around in my life so I always have to recount and explain and I know people won’t be as invested and we don’t have that mutual bond from time or going through certain hardship together. I have trauma over things nobody was there for, hell, this “friend” I keep missing and mentioning my other friends knew, but none of them realise how it hits me. Nobody knows what to do with me even when they try to give advice, when I just want vindication that some things suck I always get “have you tried this or that” like nobody can even see how hard I’ve tried. That feels awful. I know I made mistakes but I want off this ride, this lack of positive affirmation and finding what I want in life makes me not want to do anything. When I do something “good” it’s just meaningful to other people instead and I feel lonely doing the things I actually care about.

Saying this on a public forum is a lot but I wonder if I should even be in a relationship. But since that “friend” gave me a taste of that intellectual conversation and I used to be attracted and feel passionate toward him (absolutely before he revealed his age/how he really was, now it’s like that person never actually existed, another imaginary friend) I feel unsatisfied knowing I’m missing something so important to me, even though my partner very strongly feels for me. Some people say they get sad when their crush doesn‘t feel the same and things y’know, but for me it’s just been the opposite way in my relationships where they liked me disproportionately more. I never truly developed and understood my feelings before this “friend” and that turned out to be a mess.

 

[Soigne]

The director at work is really pushing all of her employees into the ground. Not a single person at work is happy anymore. Three of us are looking for new jobs. I can't take being treated like I'm nothing anymore.

 

[Bluelady]

Monkeypox has officially landed in my county. A small rural county with nothing going on.

Be careful everyone.

 

[Croconaw]

I need to sleep, for real. It’s a little late, but at least I am relaxed.

The washer still isn’t fixed. I don’t know what’s wrong with it or why it’s taking so long to get fixed.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

woke up at 4am to a bad toothache yet again

 

[xSuperMario64x]

woke up at 4am to a bad toothache yet again

update on this, so I went back to the dentist today bc I was feeling something stuck in my teeth that would not come out. apparently it's an extra part of the filling, it's one of the teeth I had done about a week ago. I think that's what's been causing my pain.

so now I have to get poked again so they can go in and fix it

edit: i didn't have to get poked thank goodness, and they fixed it. hopefully the pain stops now.

 

[Mr_Keroppi]

I hate how my brother criticizes me for what and how much I eat. My Docter literally told me that all of my life I have been in the healthy weight so unless I gain an extra 35 pounds some how...... I am a perfectly healthy person. Just let me eat my Marshmallows
(he always makes me feel so sad and self conscious. I miss how we used to be so close, now all he does it criticize everything about me and I cry all the time because of it. He KNOWS 100% that I feel like im fatter yet everyone in my life and doctor says I am fine but he makes me sad)

 

[xSuperMario64x]

so I'm feeling conflicted abt my friendship w the person I met about a month ago. I really like him and I've already expressed that but now I'm second guessing myself bc he doesn't ever message me first or just message me out of the blue. I get that he's busy but I think abt him a lot and I get the impression that he doesn't think about me much.

idk I definitely want to stay friends but I want to be in a relationship w someone who's gonna put the same amount of effort in. maybe I should talk to him idk. maybe there's something about him I'm not aware of.

 

[Croconaw]

so I'm feeling conflicted abt my friendship w the person I met about a month ago. I really like him and I've already expressed that but now I'm second guessing myself bc he doesn't ever message me first or just message me out of the blue. I get that he's busy but I think abt him a lot and I get the impression that he doesn't think about me much.

idk I definitely want to stay friends but I want to be in a relationship w someone who's gonna put the same amount of effort in. maybe I should talk to him idk. maybe there's something about him I'm not aware of.

Communication is very important in any friendship or relationship, and in general. My first impression was that maybe he’s aware that you like him and he doesn’t want to give you the wrong idea. Another scenario is that he is unsure of his feelings for you so he’s pulling back to give him time to think. Those are just my thoughts. It could be anything, but it’s not good to jump to conclusions. I think you should talk to him, but maybe not mention your feelings. It might be a lot all at once.

 

[Stella-Io]

A dog bit me at work right at the end of my day.

This wouldn't have happened if the groomer walked their own damn dog instead of me. She could have atleast warned me that the dog bites. When I told my second boss she just said 'yeah the dogs a *****' like gee thanks! Don't ask if I'm okay or somethin. When someone gets bit I don't say some jerk thing like 'well yeah that's bound to happen', I ask if they're okay and go get the povine to put on the bite if the dog broke skin. Not a single person warned me that the dog bites! Not the bather, groomer or anyone else who had to deal with the dog today. And it's not like they don't know. If the second boss knew then so did others. She didn't bite me when I was drying her off, nor did she bite me the FIRST time I put her in the crate, so I had no reason to think she would clamp down on me.

The groomers have really been ****in me off lately with not walking their dogs or not putting the diaper on one who can't control his bladder and pees whenever. Like yesterday, the groomer, who I already had a problem with her not walking a dog, didn't put the diaper on one old man who's incontinent. When his mom came to pick him up, we saw he was COVERED in pee. ALL over his stomach, all legs and the chuck was soaked. I have never picked up a chuck so soaking wet with so much pee before. And ofcourse, I'M the one who has to rebathe and re-dry him! All while the mom is waiting for him. Then, the damn groomer didn't put his gear (collar and leash) on the crate, so the mom had to ask me for his gear, I look like an idiot asking who even groomed the dog and someone else went in the back to get his stuff off his number. Yet every Saturday meeting we keep having to say somethin about the gear being near the dog, cause for some reason people consistently can't do somethin simple.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

having that problem again where I feel kinda hungry but I really don't want to eat anything. just thinking about eating makes me feel sick for some reason.

 

[KittenNoir]

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[Dim]

Ofc I’m sick on my vacation. I knew it would happen because just my ****ing luck, huh???

 

[skarmoury]

Forgot to alarm. I was supposed to study for the driving test later, but I guess nevermind then. I haven't had breakfast either.

I know this is all necessary for a driver's license, but I can't believe this all costs upwards $160. I wish I registered before they changed the requirements for a DL.