What's Bothering You?

It’s bothering me that I am thinking way too much. I can’t enjoy the moment when I am with friends because all I can think about is what the future with them is gonna be like and if they will still be there then. I always think it might be the last time I am doing stuff with them. It’s so weird because there is no reason to think that. I’ve made bad experiences in the past, but my new friends are nothing like the old ones. Also, I always feel bad after doing something with anyone because I think I behaved weirdly. I don’t know how to explain this. In short it’s just that I am thinking too much about things that are unnecessary to think about at all.
 
You're very young, it's natural you'd be uncomfortable writing that type of content. A lack of personal experience to draw from is likely also playing a role here. Upside, the majority of the time it isn't even necessary to describe it. In fact gratuitous sexual content actually annoys many people! Unless there is something within the act that absolutely needs to be shown then it's often more effective to either summarise it in a single paragraph or fade to black. Sometimes what is left unsaid is more powerful than what you do say because it allows the reader to fill in those gaps with a mental image that personally appeals to them. Putting detail into sexual scenes is better in works where you are actively trying to turn on the reader.
I never thought of it like that. This has given me a ton of new insights, thanks! This legit feels like an awakening for me.

Anyway, last night I had this really screwed-up fanfic idea and I hate myself so much for even thinking of it. :/ Which I will not describe for obvious reasons.
 
Some parents..maybe shouldn't be parents. Like I don't get why they had to snap at their kids big time in front of people just because there was a tiny bit of animal fur/hair on their pants and one of the kids apparently had the "wrong" jacket. Also the fact the mom basically taught their kids it's okay to sit with their noses in their smartphones like everyone else... lol.
 
I'm trying my hardest to at least look decent, but the greasiness of my hair is ruining it. I should've washed it yesterday, but alas I am paying the price for my incompetence.
 
i genuinely cringe at people who say "animal crossing isnt a proper game" like........ why are you gatekeeping games 😬 just bc animal crossing doesn't need the same skillset as your games doesn't mean it's any less of a game? creating art is still a skill and it's insulting to think any less of it just bc you can't minmax stats or strategies in creative games.
 
I think I forgot to hide my sketchbook this morning. :oops: I have pages of the most lewd embarrassing drawings, and if my parents find it I am SO screwed.

Right now I'm supposed to be working on a project for ethics class, but it's super boring and I don't understand what to do.
 
You're very young, it's natural you'd be uncomfortable writing that type of content.
me, an almost 23 year old ace: ig I'm young at heart lol 😭😭😭
fr though if I tried to write something like that I would likely become physically ill, not even joking. just thinking about it is making my stomach churn.



I'm so close to 19k tbt yet nobody wants to sell me their final boss feather, what do I have to doooo 😔💔
 
nvm I angry-scooped up more tiles off the floor and I'm good now lol



(for context, we're replacing the flooring in our living room and my dad is having me tear up the cheap 1950s industrial tile)
 
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me, an almost 23 year old ace: ig I'm young at heart lol 😭😭😭
fr though if I tried to write something like that I would likely become physically ill, not even joking. just thinking about it is making my stomach churn.
Many people aren't comfortable with it at any age for a variety of reasons - especially when there are graphic scenes in a book where it just seems out of place or forced.
 
Dentist. Again. Went there for some problems, they didn't find what was wrong with the teeth that was hurting but found other problems on teeth that was not hurting, I had to pay $200 today and will pay $400 later for the teeth that I thought were alright, but my problems, the main reason why I was going there today, are still there....😩
 
I really wish Neopets had some sort of blocking button cause this idiot comes back on newbie accounts now and then and basically goes on to harass people and/or just talking to some and passive leaving out others. Like come on, we know it's same guy no need to make 35 accounts for drama.
 
I waited all day today anticipating going home to continue my art from yesterday, but now I'm really tired and don't feel like doing it. I also did a French test and I probably failed it. :(
 
Yesterday I went to target excitedly because the website said my nearest one had the series 5 acnh amiibo in stock... only for them to be out of stock at the store 😭😭 curse you target all i want is shino
 
I have way too many Doctor appointments. I know I am trying my best to get the help I need but I feel like this is getting a bit too much. Doctors and Nurses will tell me different things and telling me the same lecture of "Keep monitoring your Blood Pressure and Blood Sugar" As if I needed to be reminded for like the 50th time.
 
I've recently learned that I experience abandonment issues and since realizing this it's like I can suddenly notice when it's acting up. Which at the moment is a lot due to some friend group struggles. I feel horrible bc of it and also ashamed of myself. I know I'm not always going to feel this way but the realization that I do and the way I've hurt others in the past due to this... that hurts.
 
Troubled by some stuff that happened a couple months or so ago. 😔 Also, upset about someone coming to our house even after my dad was exposed to covid to let us know the value of our house. i still don’t want to move so honestly part of me wants to destroy something so we don’t have to move :/. i’m not ready; don’t think i can mentally take it since i’m still not over losing my cat from last month, october and my general situation


Edit: i’m eating in the kitchen and he doesn’t have his mask on to go to the bathroom. my mom asked him where his mask is and he said he’s just going to the bathroom. unbelievable. i doubt that even if i get sick and die he’d change his behavior. probably didn’t wash his hands with soap either 🤢.
 
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