What's Bothering You?


That’s exactly what I’m struggling with.

As for what you’re worried about, if you don’t mind me commenting (if you do, I apologize, and ignore this): I want to say if she is asking you to draw something that she will appreciate it no matter what as long as you put time and effort in it. I feel like a hypocrite saying this since recently I drew some artwork for some friends and they all liked my art but I felt really embarrassed with my quality of art since I don’t know drawing techniques and colored pencils are my tools for coloring 😅 while they’ve made me really adorable digital art. I think considering the fact that she’s picky, that she insisted on this gift because she wants to see what you can make for her and I am sure - being your friend, she is aware of how you feel and perhaps is maybe the reason she insists on that as a gift.

I could be completely wrong, but you and her both sound like amazing friends if she’s doing that for your birthday and seeing how much you’re worrying about it. Sorry for butting in. I just wanted to try to encourage you.
 
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Please don't apologize for commenting! This was actually, really lovely of you honestly, and I really appreciate it. I've just been sitting here rereading what you said, just being really touched by it and not knowing what to say. I was feeling really down because I had been trying to practice drawing some and it wasn't working like I wanted it to, and, I don't know but I think I just really needed to hear something like this so, thank you very much actually. You did actually encourage me a whole lot, and I really do appreciate it so, so much.
 
Please don't apologize for commenting! This was actually, really lovely of you honestly, and I really appreciate it. I've just been sitting here rereading what you said, just being really touched by it and not knowing what to say. I was feeling really down because I had been trying to practice drawing some and it wasn't working like I wanted it to, and, I don't know but I think I just really needed to hear something like this so, thank you very much actually. You did actually encourage me a whole lot, and I really do appreciate it so, so much.

I’m happy to hear that :). If you ever need to vent again, my dms are always open. 🙂
 
I’m happy to hear that :). If you ever need to vent again, my dms are always open. 🙂
Thank you so much. :) I might just take you up on that! And I'm also happy to listen if you ever want to talk about something too.
Or if you want someone to share in toyhouse troubles with. cx
 
This might be the weirdest and most intense medication withdrawal I’ve had. Instead of feeling more depressed I’m having a killer headache with some nausea. Not even painkillers are helping. Ugh.
 
Nope I wasn't ready for that episode. Sure it had some good stuff tucked in(especially that pudding and ham stuff loool) but yeah they also showed when my fave character died earlier on.. haaa :^^^) it was like a 300th celebration episode so it was basically a lot of stuff from earlier on

oh well i could pay customs last night ... would be nice if they drove it out tomorrow but no hopes tbf LOL.
 
Feels bad, knowing my whole family is at my brothers wedding right now and only I'm missing. And no, it's not my fault. My brother jsut organised extremelly bad, giving zero information, making the trip impossible for me. But it hurts, even my Mom came, she always dodged to come visit me and here she is, at my brothers wedding.
 
My neighbors ard at it agian with the fireworks!😡🙉 so loud. Someone outside even said "Shut up with the fireworks!" And I don't blame them. I've tried to call the cops but after they leave like a couple days later they go RIGHT back to it. Yeah, I get fireworks are pretty, but notice most people use them on the 4th of July and new years, not every day. Sometimes they do it in the morning too! Like bruh no one can see the fireworks why are you doing this 😒 😐 😑 I hate my neighborhood but I don't have new house money so i'm stuck here
 
I need to use my phone less. I've developed a callous on my little finger from where the case rests when I hold it. Alternatively I could continue my terrible habits and just buy a softer case.
 
i'm incredibly arachnophobic, and there's a fairly large spider in my bathroom that hides in a hole in the skirting board where a pipe goes in, meaning that nobody can catch it

the problem is that it only tends to come out when it's dark, so now i'm paranoid of going to the toilet during the night
 
second vaccine dose hasn't been as nice to me as the first was. I'm super tired, physically exhausted for no reason, and I even have a slight headache. I could barely pick up one of our big cats cause i just feel so weak. I also have no appetite though I should prob be drinking water (whoops!).

at least my funny doggo has made this day pretty enjoyable so far.
 
Feels bad, knowing my whole family is at my brothers wedding right now and only I'm missing. And no, it's not my fault. My brother jsut organised extremelly bad, giving zero information, making the trip impossible for me. But it hurts, even my Mom came, she always dodged to come visit me and here she is, at my brothers wedding.
Sorry you are going through that Mipha. Weirdly the same sort of thing happened to me, my sister decided to skip out on a big wedding and just had a small ceremony with immediate family only - except me. The wedding picture's showing the bride and groom with their families makes it look like I don't even exist. I will say though as more time passes it bothers me less, hopefully in time you'll feel less bad about it too. Sending you good vibes today ❤


I have had a horrible sleep for the last two nights due to the current heatwave. The temp is supposed to drop tomorrow and I can't wait for it, I really can not handle a third night of sleep like this so I'm really hoping I'll be able to get some real rest this time.
 
Sorry you are going through that Mipha. Weirdly the same sort of thing happened to me, my sister decided to skip out on a big wedding and just had a small ceremony with immediate family only - except me. The wedding picture's showing the bride and groom with their families makes it look like I don't even exist. I will say though as more time passes it bothers me less, hopefully in time you'll feel less bad about it too. Sending you good vibes today ❤

Oh wow, that's so mean. I'm sorry that you had to go through this.. I'm glad that you're able to be less bothered by it by now!
Sadly hormons of pregnancy are currently not helping the situation a lot - I hope tomorrow it will be better, but I fear that there
will be the flood of pictures coming, once the wedding itself is over. q-q
And thank you. ❤

Good luck with your sleep also, you can send some heat my way. I would prefer that over the rainy wheater!
 
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this. this is bothering me, whatever happened the last time l played l must been getting beaten up. My health is very low. And why am l playing this again, game feels sad because its old but not withTP? My brain is weird that's all
 
I found another artist who makes really beautiful and adorable Fire Emblem fan art and also some random Hubert artwork whom I have no idea who they belong to or if they belong to the same person (there were several I found on the website). It makes me happy and in aw and at the same time depressed when I look at what I can only create and the lack of quality. At the same time, maybe this is good since it can be seen as a way of testing my interest and how committed to improving I am (then again, having no money may make it impossible for now or at least trying other coloring and drawing tools or going digital. 🤔).
 
I've come to realize recently that most social situations are also a cause for my anxiety. I never thought I was one to be nervous in social situations yet here I am. I have quite the crippling fear of judgment or embarrassment, especially at work. Even a little bit around the flat as well. I feel uncomfortable in the work office and too anxious to ask questions. I don't like social gatherings at work as I haven't really made any friends and I feel like I can't blend in anywhere. I feel like I'm weird, don't act normal, quiet and an annoyance. I can't tell if what is in my head is true or not.

I broke down and cried last night, which is something I don't usually do. I think this medication changeover is still messing with my head as well as making me nauseous 24/7. I'm hoping once the old medication is out of my system and the new one is in that I won't be as anxious.
 
My email said my package was delivered even though it WASN'T! 'EXTREMELY. ****ING. PISSED NOW!! USPS BETTER have a good explanation for this!:mad:
 
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