What's Bothering You?

I'm trying to eat and everything just feels wrong and uncomfortable. Even drinking water doesn't feel right.
I also ended up not sleeping because I was scared.
...And now I started coughing.

I just don't understand how I end up with so many problems. It just keeps getting worse. At what point is it too much?
Sorry you're dealing with that :( it could be physical trauma or swelling from the incident with almost choking, hoping it goes away with time! Lozenges/cough drops may also help to soothe ur mouth & throat if you have any.
 
I don't even know how to describe the horrible discomfort I currently have. I think I have an ear/tonsil infection, but that's not the main problem. There's something else along with it that I just cannot figure out how to describe. This worries me because I won't be able to accurately tell my parents what is wrong this time and they already have a hard time understanding me, especially my mom who makes frustrating assumptions.
I was also only able to get 4 hours of sleep which probably means my body is telling me something is wrong
 
my brother gets angry a LOT and i always am careful so i can talk it out with him and calm him down whereas the rest of my family does not and i feel happy with that, being there for him and all.

now i get mad once and i instead of me screaming/getting violent like he does i choose to reasonably talk to him but instead of doing the same he a) gets mad at me and yells at me, uses sarcastic remarks b) because i am right he instead starts saying i hate him and he will delete a site account if i keep saying this (so i have to now take it back) c) blocks me.

i feel like i’m carrying the emotional burden for my family and it’s tiring me out. i just want to leave they’re driving me insane
 
I think I ought to be able to complete all of my entries in time before the end of the Fair...except, no matter how much I think about it, I can't come up with a scenario for the Besting Blunders writing prompt. I don't worry about being able to produce something once I have an idea to run with (though I can't promise it'll be any good lol) but my brain just cannot come up with a scenario to write about.
 
I think I ought to be able to complete all of my entries in time before the end of the Fair...except, no matter how much I think about it, I can't come up with a scenario for the Besting Blunders writing prompt. I don't worry about being able to produce something once I have an idea to run with (though I can't promise it'll be any good lol) but my brain just cannot come up with a scenario to write about.
If it helps, it doesn't need to be good unless you're aiming to place. If a story meets the word count and loosely meets the theme it'll be accepted.
 
One of our cats basically used a clean pile of laundry on the couch as a litter box. It's bad enough as is, but my parents were arguing the whole time while I was cleaning everything and doing laundry. I was scared that my step-mom would yell/snap at me every time I walked past her because she was angry and tends to take it out on me. Even after changing the litter, putting the clothes in the washer, and spraying every room with Febreeze, it doesn't feel clean and I'm starting to have trouble breathing.

My dad said that we might as well put our cats outside because my parents "don't want to maintain/spend money on a bunch of animals". Our cats are pretty annoying, but they're just animals and it's heartless to just get rid of them. We had our cats for almost 6 years and didn't have them for 1 year after our neighbor took them in and refused to give them back. Caramel and Wookie mean so much to me, and I don't want them to be gone.

Otherwise, I'm just having a pretty crap day. Ugh.
 
I talked to a friend that I haven’t talked to in a few months; it was really nice to chat to them today. I got myself a little depressed though. I used to talk to them a bit about my friend; I kinda triggered myself when trying to think of what to say including that I can’t think about what happened that made me upset and that it was not as much of the wait to hear from him this time. I’m grateful they were concerned and understood; I just wish I could’ve avoided him as a topic no matter how brief for now.

Still anxious about something that I’m waiting for in the mail. Hopefully I get it this week.

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I'm struggling with eating. It feels uncomfortable to swallow and sometimes like I am almost going to choke. I'm forcing myself to anyway but just barely. Drinking water afterwards barely helps and I still feel uncomfortable. I also have this new pain that is probably related. I don't know what is happening but this is a horrible time to not be able to afford a doctor. What am I even supposed to do? Nobody is going to take me there. I did tell my dad how I feel but like I said, we can't afford the doctor.

I just finished eating something small and I feel a bit worse. Eating seems to only make me feel worse. It's definitely not heartburn. I know that much.
I'm also shaking right now and I don't know if it's the fear, the sleep deprivation, or the fact I have been eating much less than usual.
 
Just thinking about what my manager has been saying lately...his current fixation is "I'm secretly the engineer and you're (as in me) the manager". At first I thought it was a joke, but he's said it a few times now and I think he's being serious.

I'm now realizing that there really hasn't been any definitive lines between my role and his. I do things that a "manager" should do because I feel like I'm relieving all the crap they have to do, plus it fills in my time when I've run out of work to do. I don't really believe in the whole "managers should be doing [insert task here]" mantra when anyone can do it lol.

Maybe he just feels like he's lost control and his fingers not on the pulse anymore. But the sooner he realizes that he can let go of a lot of tasks, the better it will be for both of us.
 
As much as I hate talking politics, I just wanted to get it out there that I absolutely HATE presidential election season. The endless attack ads on TV that are mood killers, texts to phones sent from a different number every time (thank god for the blocker app I downloaded fully eliminating these), and receiving pamphlet cards in the mail, as if they really need to shove more crap down your face. Just today, I received three pamphlet cards in the mail from a specific political party attacking the other. All had different stuff on them. I immediately shredded them as soon as I got into the house.

November can't come any sooner. It's too bad I still have to endure over two months of this garbage.
 
Q1. How do you meet the essential creteria listed?
Q2. Why are you interested in undertaking the Level 3 Business Admin Apprenticeship in particular? What do yuo hope to gain from it?

Why are these questions so hard to answer when applying to things :/
I done all the other questions, in what way do they want this answered because omg.
 
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