What's Bothering You?

I keep seeing people close to me accomplish things that I've wanted for so long, I keep working hard but I'm staring to think I might not make it, at least not in time. I know I know I'm young and I have time apparently, but I also want remaining time to enjoy the stuff I want to accomplish, and seeing people younger than me living the life I want makes me so sad and a bit ashamed of myself...
 

I thought I'd respond to this, but I wouldn't worry about comparing yourself to others. Success isn't a one size fits all thing. For some people it may come later, but that same success may end up being more than the people who were successful first (if that makes sense). It took me an entire two years after graduating from university to find a job that fits me well, and I'm still not really where I want to be yet (don't have a house or apartment of my own yet), but I keep working at it cause I know that in a couple years I will.

Basically, comparing yourself to others just distracts you from opportunities and things you could be working on. I'll tell you right now that I'm never worried about others accomplishing things faster than me, and the lack of worry there allows me to make as much improvement as possible for me over time. It allows me to make as many shots as I can, and for me to put my all into everything. It's not for a lack of skill or anything else, because everyone has at least one thing they excel at. Even one of my best online friends, who doesn't believe he's good at anything, does have some things he is good at.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy response, but just wanted to chime in because I care. Keep your head up. Life is a long, long journey. 💜
 
I thought I'd respond to this, but I wouldn't worry about comparing yourself to others. Success isn't a one size fits all thing. For some people it may come later, but that same success may end up being more than the people who were successful first (if that makes sense). It took me an entire two years after graduating from university to find a job that fits me well, and I'm still not really where I want to be yet (don't have a house or apartment of my own yet), but I keep working at it cause I know that in a couple years I will.

Basically, comparing yourself to others just distracts you from opportunities and things you could be working on. I'll tell you right now that I'm never worried about others accomplishing things faster than me, and the lack of worry there allows me to make as much improvement as possible for me over time. It allows me to make as many shots as I can, and for me to put my all into everything. It's not for a lack of skill or anything else, because everyone has at least one thing they excel at. Even one of my best online friends, who doesn't believe he's good at anything, does have some things he is good at.

Anyway, sorry for the lengthy response, but just wanted to chime in because I care. Keep your head up. Life is a long, long journey. 💜
This actually helped me a lot, thank you. I guess I just have to learn to tell the part of my brain that thinks everybody is making fun of me for not doing all the things I want yet to shut up. Again thanks
 
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I hate people who lie, unless it's something e.g. a surprise party, etc. I knew someone was lying to me as I had proof. They've never been trustworthy as I and others have had issues before with them. The subject came up today about the current issue. The other person told me a lie straight to my face. I challenged them. They said 'No, I'm not lying.' I gave them another opportunity to tell the truth, still nothing. So, I told them why I know they've lied. I said, 'Just tell the truth.' Eventually, they admitted they were lying. I cannot stand liars. 😠
 
It sucks how drinking and substance use is so normalized in society. It also sucks that people are just now understanding why I vow to never drink/take drugs... After my mom died of an overdose. I've had this set in stone for years, and you're only seeing it when something tragic happens? Ugh.

I'm honestly worried about what the future holds when I'm presented with a scenario involving alcohol or drugs. I don't want to be judged or condemned for my choices. Addiction has hurt and even killed the ones close to me, so you really think I want that for myself?

This is pretty personal, so I apologize if it bothers anyone. I just have some stuff on my mind at the moment.
 
I’m so stressed right now. I’m still trying to destress from how worked up I got about my switch lite, I had/been having a panic attack earlier when I was trying to find some of my ds/3ds games to play and they were in their cases or the cartridge case that I thought they’d be. I was hoping to look through some of my totes today but I have my niece’s concert to go to. I found out it is going to be a pretty long one too. 😭 I love my niece but as mentioned before, going out is so stressful for me. I didn’t sleep much either so I’m really tired too. My foot and leg gets aggravated when sitting long at these concerts too (been having an issue with my leg/foot/scoliosis) too. My mom had a month ago asked if i wanted to go, but she was like i’d really like you to go or it’d be very nice if you went. she never gave me a choice.Even it wasn’t stressful for me, as selfish as it is, I still wouldn’t want to go. I just am not really comfortable going to family events; my depression doesn’t help either. Also going anywhere with my dad is a challenge because he doesn’t treat his anxiety so he has panic attacks, lashes out at us (already he’s freaking out; I’m in the car right now). Over the years it has gotten worse. I’m anxious about something else too.
 
I know this is a serious topic and a huge problem all across Canada, but I just wanted to tell you one thing. Please do not ever feel pressured to try any drugs even once. I know it's common and as you go through high school, people will offer it to you. It's common for adults to tell teens to not take drugs, but these aren't your average drugs anymore. Everything is laced. Everytime I've been offered drugs I have said no and stood my ground. The person who tries to pressure you is already being controlled by drugs and you don't wanna become them. You seem like a great kid though with a smart head on your shoulders so I don't think you need to worry. I also have family substance abuse issues so I just wanted you to know you're not alone.
 
Giving my police statement in 15 minutes for the crime I was a victim of a while ago. If anyone remembers my other posts about that situation then you might recall how the perp loudly denied it and has gone to some lengths to try and make me be quiet. Nonetheless, I refuse to let anyone else fall victim to their actions and I will do this statement even if it breaks me down.

As a side note my roommate has been totally disrespecting my PTSD and just doesn't care. He has had a stranger in the house for almost an entire month without telling anyone else the whole time, and he keeps telling us the guest is leaving and then they don't. I have PTSD with specifically strangers in my home from a crime that happened when I was a kid and they KNOW that but have still been so rude about it, not telling us who the guest is, how long they'll be here for, etc. We've had to essentially beg for information after continuously accidentally running into this stranger in our own home and now he's trying to force us to let that stranger move into his room when he moves out early... that means we'd be living with this stranger for another 5 weeks without the roommate who knows them. I dont have an issue with the stranger specifically, though, I have an issue with the principal that at NO point (bar a 1 sentence text sent... today) has my roommate made any attempt to discuss this with us or ask us if we're even okay with that person moving in..... because we're not. I just wish I could walk through my house and not be surprised by someone who makes my anxiety brain go 'yeah they could deffo overpower me' ): I just want to know whos in my house. I feel so overly dramatic but Ive been having so much paranoia and daily panic attacks even though I KNOW its just my anxiety and the stranger likely wont do anything. I think its just the disrespect of my boundaries that has pushed my anxiety to the breaking point..... I didn't actually realise how bad it had gotten until my boyfriend started begging me to go to the doctor and get help for anxiety again,,,, I haven't been like this in years and it only began with the stranger.

Perhaps the police interview is heightening my paranoia around the guest, but in any case I have to go. The interview is gonna begin any minute now.

Edit: That roommate just accused me of being a bigot called me petty and told me he won’t baby me bc it’s not his problem.
 
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I just bought a 72 pack of apple sauce yesterday and I'm realizing now that it's all expired. I guess I could have looked at the date before purchasing it but I'm annoyed the employees aren't up to date with their stock. Stuff wasn't cheap. Hopefully I still have the receipt so I can return it.
 
I just bought a 72 pack of apple sauce yesterday and I'm realizing now that it's all expired. I guess I could have looked at the date before purchasing it but I'm annoyed the employees aren't up to date with their stock. Stuff wasn't cheap. Hopefully I still have the receipt so I can return it.
72?! Wow, that’s a lot of expired apple sauce lol
 
I hate people who lie, unless it's something e.g. a surprise party, etc. I knew someone was lying to me as I had proof. They've never been trustworthy as I and others have had issues before with them. The subject came up today about the current issue. The other person told me a lie straight to my face. I challenged them. They said 'No, I'm not lying.' I gave them another opportunity to tell the truth, still nothing. So, I told them why I know they've lied. I said, 'Just tell the truth.' Eventually, they admitted they were lying. I cannot stand liars. 😠
I know someone who's a pathological liar and I know they can't control it but it's so frustrating seeing them lie constantly even for the smallest things and for no reason at all, other people we commonly know have stopped confronting them because "what's the harm" but I still do sometimes and they still double down.
Again I know that they can't help it and that it's not actually hurting anybody but I understand the frustration of it happening in your face
 
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