Ugh got my shower done at least but school isn’t worth it today.
What's Bothering You?
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Just feeling a little bleh. My friendship officially ended with my friend who detransitioned after 10 plus year of living as male. We all tried to keep the friend group together but she no longer supports trans people or non binary identities. She's also actively online trying to convince others they are not actually trans, but rather just mentally ill lmao. If we went back in time and you told me my ftm bro was gonna become an enemy of the lgbt+ community I would not have believed you. She was the biggest advocate. She was also my partners best friend so it hurts. They had matching bff shirts like any reasonable adult friends would. Also for her 1 year on testosterone (many years ago) we threw her a party and I got a bunch of helium balloons that said "ITS A BOY" and now thinking back to that memory hurts. Everyone else seems to be moving on okay but I miss all of us being 20 and just partying and not worrying about how time never stops
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
I haven't had the chance to really explain it here, but I've been catching up on schoolwork non-stop for the past two weeks. I'm so close to finishing all my work, but I'm so physically and mentally exhausted from cramming months of schoolwork into a couple weeks. I don't think I have the words to properly emphasize how much this has affected me, but in short, I've been spending my free time either sleeping or crying.
Tuesday was especially bad. My dad and I got into an argument and he yelled at me because I missed the bus and he couldn't drive me to school (our car is broken at the moment), and I ended up sitting at the computer just crying for an hour straight. I ended up doing approximately 10 hours of work that day. Holy ****, no wonder I'm so tired.
I have a science exam tomorrow (repeater course since I failed Secondary IV science...) and despite studying and going over topics I had trouble with, I still feel nervous and unprepared. I'm seriously hoping that I memorize enough info to pass the exam and be done with science for the rest of the year because I just hate it.
I probably shouldn't be this overly pessimistic, but I have not been doing well the past few weeks. The only proper break I got was on my birthday last week, and every other day was filled with constant work. I'm ****ing tired and stressed, but I can't give up yet, even though I want to so badly.
Tuesday was especially bad. My dad and I got into an argument and he yelled at me because I missed the bus and he couldn't drive me to school (our car is broken at the moment), and I ended up sitting at the computer just crying for an hour straight. I ended up doing approximately 10 hours of work that day. Holy ****, no wonder I'm so tired.
I have a science exam tomorrow (repeater course since I failed Secondary IV science...) and despite studying and going over topics I had trouble with, I still feel nervous and unprepared. I'm seriously hoping that I memorize enough info to pass the exam and be done with science for the rest of the year because I just hate it.
I probably shouldn't be this overly pessimistic, but I have not been doing well the past few weeks. The only proper break I got was on my birthday last week, and every other day was filled with constant work. I'm ****ing tired and stressed, but I can't give up yet, even though I want to so badly.
SleepyAmaurotine
Mutable Memory
why does my dad say the most insane things sometimes
Any time I want to buy something local/from fb marketplace he has to interrogate me on the resell value, I’m not a flipper I’m just buying things because they make me happy (usually I always order online to avoid dealing with him, but occasionally I’ll find something I want locally)
And today he came up with a new excuse: “where is all of your stuff going to go after you get married because you’re not keeping anything” (you mean the stuff I paid for with money that I worked for???), my bad I didn’t realize that after marriage you become a newborn who has nothing to their name! guess I’m just supposed to become a blank slate with zero interests/hobbies lmao
god forbid a woman has hobbies
Any time I want to buy something local/from fb marketplace he has to interrogate me on the resell value, I’m not a flipper I’m just buying things because they make me happy (usually I always order online to avoid dealing with him, but occasionally I’ll find something I want locally)
And today he came up with a new excuse: “where is all of your stuff going to go after you get married because you’re not keeping anything” (you mean the stuff I paid for with money that I worked for???), my bad I didn’t realize that after marriage you become a newborn who has nothing to their name! guess I’m just supposed to become a blank slate with zero interests/hobbies lmao
god forbid a woman has hobbies
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Everything. Everything has been bothering me. Just constant bad luck. 
Twitter wants you to have an account to view any posts.
Also Twitter: Has a very long and unnecessary process to make an account.
So I had to either solve a bunch of simple math problems I had no time for, or listen to a bunch of different audios to prove I'm a human.
What happened to the simple "type exactly what you see on the screen?"
Can robots do that now?
Soon, they will be able to do math or listen to animal sounds.
Will the new human verification be sending a picture of yourself holding up your left index finger AND a picture of your ID?
All of this for a throw-away account.
Also Twitter: Has a very long and unnecessary process to make an account.
So I had to either solve a bunch of simple math problems I had no time for, or listen to a bunch of different audios to prove I'm a human.
What happened to the simple "type exactly what you see on the screen?"
Can robots do that now?
Soon, they will be able to do math or listen to animal sounds.
Will the new human verification be sending a picture of yourself holding up your left index finger AND a picture of your ID?
All of this for a throw-away account.
Shellzilla_515
Senior Member
I haven't been on here for quite a long while now. College has been hitting me hard being assigned with chapter readings, assignments, and quizzes from left, right and centre. I'm always feeling tired no matter how much sleep I get (if I can even get a decent amount at all), and I'm tired of this feeling of being half awake all the time. Heck, there have been a few times where I fell asleep for a few minutes despite my best efforts to stay awake and focus on the content I have to learn. I'm doing my best to try and get by, but it's hard trying to retain the information that I'm learning. Why? Because...
I still have to work during weekends. Not only do I need to gain some income because absolutely everything is skyrocketing in prices (seriously, why the **** are large fries from McDonalds costing $5 CAD before taxes?!? Not that I want to buy their food in the first place but omg), but also because the owner of the workplace I'm working at would let me go and not give me more opportunities to gain more experience even after I finish my studies if I decided not to work part time. And the audacity they have telling me not to play video games... Like bro, I need to take a breather. I'm not a robot. What are you trying to teach me here?
This is utter garbage. I have to attend college for four days and sink additional two days at work when I could use that time to at least unwind and catch up on stuff when I need to. Because of this, I'm only left with one day each week to relax from everything and even then, I still have to use it to focus on my college studies. And I'm not even factoring into things where my family would occasionally ask me to do favours for them and drive to places, further eating into my time I could've used to truly relax from everything. My mental health is taking a huge hit, and I wouldn't be surprised if my physical health soon follows.
You see the problem here? I feel dead inside. I feel like I'm not getting to enjoy life at the moment. Sure, there will always be rocky paths, but still. Constantly being overworked is weighing me down a lot and it's making me feel depressed too. Some happiness I do get doesn't last very long. Oh, and the midterms are slowly creeping up, so that's fun.
Simply put, I'm NOT okay. Far from it. I'll go back to suffering and potentially cry in a corner.
I still have to work during weekends. Not only do I need to gain some income because absolutely everything is skyrocketing in prices (seriously, why the **** are large fries from McDonalds costing $5 CAD before taxes?!? Not that I want to buy their food in the first place but omg), but also because the owner of the workplace I'm working at would let me go and not give me more opportunities to gain more experience even after I finish my studies if I decided not to work part time. And the audacity they have telling me not to play video games... Like bro, I need to take a breather. I'm not a robot. What are you trying to teach me here?
This is utter garbage. I have to attend college for four days and sink additional two days at work when I could use that time to at least unwind and catch up on stuff when I need to. Because of this, I'm only left with one day each week to relax from everything and even then, I still have to use it to focus on my college studies. And I'm not even factoring into things where my family would occasionally ask me to do favours for them and drive to places, further eating into my time I could've used to truly relax from everything. My mental health is taking a huge hit, and I wouldn't be surprised if my physical health soon follows.
You see the problem here? I feel dead inside. I feel like I'm not getting to enjoy life at the moment. Sure, there will always be rocky paths, but still. Constantly being overworked is weighing me down a lot and it's making me feel depressed too. Some happiness I do get doesn't last very long. Oh, and the midterms are slowly creeping up, so that's fun.
Simply put, I'm NOT okay. Far from it. I'll go back to suffering and potentially cry in a corner.
KittenNoir
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Goldi Locks
Hot Porridge
The students from one of the local universities having the cheek to shout at people who actually live round here about "privilege". Bruh, have you seen this place? Sorry your middle-class sensibilities can't handle the working classes being a whole different culture, but to sneer about "privilege" to the genuinely poverty-stricken before trotting off back to their poncey uni that not a single person who has grown up here could afford to go themselves, nor will any of the kids currently growing up, is just ridiculous. Even the really smart kids here will never get scholarships due to our schools being so awful, so they can barely even grasp the basics.
Wasn't directed at me personally, but a small group of them came in my work and started gobbing off about something I won't go into here. The locals can and did handle it, but the fact they have that attitude in the first place is astonishing. Maybe they got lost on their way to Wetherspoons.
Wasn't directed at me personally, but a small group of them came in my work and started gobbing off about something I won't go into here. The locals can and did handle it, but the fact they have that attitude in the first place is astonishing. Maybe they got lost on their way to Wetherspoons.
whatisjello
vega
I was heavily neglected as a baby. my parents were substance users and I am autistic and forgetting how to speak slowly because of how isolated I was and still am. I try to be nice to myself but that is not something I am good at.
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I couldn't find anything I actually want to eat this morning just because nobody bought yogurt and there's nothing available that hasn't made my problems worse. This seems like a really dumb complaint but I actually feel stressed out about it.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
not to just show up out of absolutely nowhere for the first time in like a week, but I seriously feel like I'm suffering. I feel like I want someone or something to put me out of my misery. 
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I'm sorry love, message me anytime if you need someone to talk to
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
My mom was just sent to the hospital due to the fact these stupid pharmaceutical companies refuse to refill her medication called alprazolam that is supposed to calm her down. She was very shaky. This whole thing took 6 hours and I was able to bring her back home same and sound. My whole body hurts, my mental state is at a all time low, and I feel so tired and exahusted.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
mental health services in the uk bringing me down lol. (or i suppose medical care in general.) hearing about the wait times for an adhd diagnosis and getting on medication just makes me feel hopeless. my focus/motivation/fatigue are all so bad that even a part-time job seems impossible right now, and i genuinely think being medicated could change my life. y'know, if that possibility was even on the horizon. instead, i have to just hang in limbo because the clowns in government gutted our nhs, and there's nowhere near enough supply to meet demand. it took three weeks of phoning almost every day to finally get a doctor's appointment the other week, and it's not even until march 5th.
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