What's Bothering You?

I was feeling better earlier, but now I have a pin type rash on my face, neck and shoulders. Back to feeling weak, shaky and now I've got a terrible headache. If I phone my Rheumatology Nurse, I'm worried I'll get admitted to hospital as my immune system is low. Also, into the bargain my brother started giving me his nonsense again even after I tried to tell him how ill I feel. He never asks about my pain, any of my appointments, but if he needs to go for anything as such as a B12 injection, it's a major, major fuss and he isn't scared of needles, so it's not that. (I get them too, and it stings a little, but nothing the way he goes on about them and it's only 1 every 3 months.) If he was that bothered he could get B12 tablets prescribed instead. He really does act like a baby. I really don't need all this with him, I literally have done everything for him for about 10 years, my Mum did it before but her mobility suffered and I offered to do it on a temporary basis. But now I feel I'm going the same way as her health did. He's nearly 43 with no health issues, and he never appreciates what I do for him. He's been told he'll need to look for somewhere of his own, but he knows he's got it easy here. I know some of you will say don't do anything for him, but seriously you wouldn't want to use a bathroom/shower/kitchen after he had used it without a thorough clean. 🤢
 
I got really sick last night. Like, after my previous vent here. Ugh.

But actually I came to say I just accidentally overwrote the wrong save state for Link's Awakening DX and have to redo 2 entire dungeons now, hahaha. Oops! I was supposed to be going to the Wind Fish egg and I ruined everything.
 
i hate eating in the office, but i don’t have a car and there’s nothing nearby where i could go during lunch, and for some reason everyone is able to leave me alone/send emails all day except lunch when they suddenly decide to come in my office while i’m trying to eat 🥲 i also haven’t really been eating well ever since i got this job, i always bring a tiny/simple lunch because i don’t want something spicy or messy (rotating between like 3 similar things), i just have juice for breakfast, and dinner depends on how tired i’m feeling so i usually just end up grabbing a bagel or mexi-fries after work because sometimes i feel like the homemade food is too heavy/oily (i love my mom’s cooking! but after work i don’t want something that will make me feel sluggish)

also ruined my sleep schedule because i feel like i need to make up for lost time

i need a work from home job 🫠 i really do like my coworkers but i hate working in an office when everything i do could be done anywhere else
 
I can’t help but feel like my grandma secretly feels some type of way about me. She brought in an Uber card and gave it to me but she reiterated that it was for my dad and not me. She said “not you” a bunch of times as if I’d take it and not give it to my dad. Before this incident, she asked me if I really like my eyebrows like this. Yes, I like them masculine because I’m not trying to look like a ****ing girl. I’m not trying to look feminine. I look like a boy or not enough like a girl? That’s what I’m going for. I hate feeling like I’m a problem because I don’t identify as my birth gender. Why is that a problem?
 
Don't you just get annoyed when an armchair expert claims they know everything, when they don't? They also love to chime in with unsolicited advice when their comments aren't needed.
 
my mums threatening to throw my belongings in the trash, which shes done before. my belongings are with her because I have been homeless since July but tomorrow I move into my own place. Now shes telling me to 'man up' and come get my stuff myself because I asked my dad to get it. She wants to fight me I know it. Also my uncle kidnapped my cousin last night and the police said they wont do anything even though my uncle is dangerous
 
i don't understand fans sometimes.
me and my friend are going to go see the eras tour movie the day AFTER it comes out because the tickers for oct. 13 are already sold out. he's been texting me about what dress he's going to wear and asking what i'm going to wear. he literally told me it was ok to wear my suit and i just don't understand?? i'm not going to get all dressed up in my suit to go sit there for 3 hours. i how is that even appropriate to go see a movie in the mall...? i understand dressing up for movies (like dressing up in pink for the Barbie movie) but why are people getting THAT dressed up for this, it's not like you're going to go meet taylor swift or anything, you're just watching a recording of her eras tour concerts.

honestly, what i don't understand even MORE is why his parents are letting him buy a new dress just to see a taylor swift movie.
 
It’s my day off so guess who got woken up early by the beginnings of a migraine 🥸
 
i went to my school's orientation today. it was pretty fun and informative but we had to do icebreakers and i failed miserably at them 🤦‍♀️ i'm so socially stunted its actually embarrassing 😭😭
 
I don’t normally post but so grateful for my friends on here so here goes 🥺

I am still around and checking in as here is my happy place. I know my lineup post was a bit cryptic but ok breathe. My beautiful mum died yesterday and my heart is broken.

Thank you for all the love and support. I am so very grateful. You know who you are. Ily ❤️❤️❤️
 
I don’t normally post but so grateful for my friends on here so here goes 🥺

I am still around and checking in as here is my happy place. I know my lineup post was a bit cryptic but ok breathe. My beautiful mum died yesterday and my heart is broken.

Thank you for all the love and support. I am so very grateful. You know who you are. Ily ❤️❤️❤️
omg hun bless your heart, I can't imagine how you must feel 😭😭💔 I don't know if there's anything I can do to help but please do not hesitate to reach out to me or any of your other friends, we really care about you and we're so grateful that you're here 🥺💙💜💗✨
 
omg hun bless your heart, I can't imagine how you must feel 😭😭💔 I don't know if there's anything I can do to help but please do not hesitate to reach out to me or any of your other friends, we really care about you and we're so grateful that you're here 🥺💙💜💗✨
Thank you my beautiful bug. I am so grateful for you and I don’t deserve such kind words but honestly just struggling and knowing I have friends that care means so much ❤️
 

oh Roxxy i'm so incredibly sorry to hear this. we haven't really interacted much on tbt but you're in my thoughts and i hope the path to healing is a gentle one! i hope you continue to find strength and support from your loved ones!
 
oh Roxxy i'm so incredibly sorry to hear this. we haven't really interacted much on tbt but you're in my thoughts and i hope the path to healing is a gentle one! i hope you continue to find strength and support from your loved ones!
Thank you, honestly means more than you know 💜
 
I don’t normally post but so grateful for my friends on here so here goes 🥺

I am still around and checking in as here is my happy place. I know my lineup post was a bit cryptic but ok breathe. My beautiful mum died yesterday and my heart is broken.

Thank you for all the love and support. I am so very grateful. You know who you are. Ily ❤️❤️❤️
So sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts I pray for strength and healing.
 
I don’t normally post but so grateful for my friends on here so here goes 🥺

I am still around and checking in as here is my happy place. I know my lineup post was a bit cryptic but ok breathe. My beautiful mum died yesterday and my heart is broken.

Thank you for all the love and support. I am so very grateful. You know who you are. Ily ❤️❤️❤️

As someone who has lost their mom, I am deeply sorry for your loss. I'll always be here if you need anything, Roxxy. I treasure your friendship more than I can put into words. 💚
 
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