Ghost Soda
(he him or they them)
Ok, so here's the thing. I had a friend from years ago. Met her through RPing on ACC and we've gotten closer and closer since then. We've mostly RPed together but we'd often talk outside of that and eventually I came to think of her as my closest friend. I could tell her practically anything and trusted her deeply. And a part of me grown to even care for her romantically even though I knew she would never like me that way. I never told her about this.
But that all was cut off suddenly when she PMed me telling me she couldn't stick around for religious reasons. It was a long post but I deleted it because just seeing it made me upset. As soon as I saw this I PMed back. I was livid and tried to talk her out of throwing our friendship.But it didn't matter because she never responded. I was angry and sad at the same time. And remember how I said I never told her about my crush? Well I lied. I told her in my response but I doubt she saw it.
A few months or so later I decide to call her just to talk to her again but no response. I figure I'll just wait because maybe she's busy or something. But I wait a month and nothing. I don't know if she just couldn't get it or if it's something else. Like if she saw my crush admission and she thinks I'm a weirdo and never wants to speak to me again.
So uhh yeah. Half venting and half wanting to know what the fap I should do. I don't think I'm ready to give up on it just yet though...
But that all was cut off suddenly when she PMed me telling me she couldn't stick around for religious reasons. It was a long post but I deleted it because just seeing it made me upset. As soon as I saw this I PMed back. I was livid and tried to talk her out of throwing our friendship.But it didn't matter because she never responded. I was angry and sad at the same time. And remember how I said I never told her about my crush? Well I lied. I told her in my response but I doubt she saw it.
A few months or so later I decide to call her just to talk to her again but no response. I figure I'll just wait because maybe she's busy or something. But I wait a month and nothing. I don't know if she just couldn't get it or if it's something else. Like if she saw my crush admission and she thinks I'm a weirdo and never wants to speak to me again.
So uhh yeah. Half venting and half wanting to know what the fap I should do. I don't think I'm ready to give up on it just yet though...