2017 itself hasn't been super bad so far but it has been disappointing. About 3 months ago, this guy that I had feelings for was making all these plans with me to come visit me (he lives in another state) and we had planned it so he would fly in on New Year's Day. That all went to hell when a month ago he basically told me that I'm too much stress on him and he can't deal with long distance. It sucked because I was already at rock bottom and during our whole weird "relationship" I was always the logical one that knew how unrealistic our relationship was. He was the one that convinced me it could work, so for him to all of a sudden tell me that it would never work when I had just finally convinced myself it could was the most devastating blow possible at the time. He suggested that we stay friends which I desperately grasped onto as it felt like everything was trying to knock me down. I missed weeks of school and was the most depressed I had ever been at that point. Then on my birthday last week, he couldn't even be bothered to say anything to me so I just gave up and blocked him on just about everything, which in retrospect I should've done months ago instead of letting my feelings go too far. This whole week now has been pretty darn rough because we had all these fun plans for the week if he had actually visited. We were gonna go to the zoo, play video games, go out on a really nice date... The whole works. It all just feels really numb now and as I'm writing this I'm realizing that I was naive and far too optimistic from the start. I dunno, I was hoping for all these amazing things to happen as soon as 2017 started and maybe turn around my rut but it's all kind of felt like absolute crap, ya know?
Been sick, on NYE I broke a nail and then while trimming my others broke two more of them... been trying and failing to get through my room with my boyfriend but idk when or if we're going to finish. It's not been awful but it's been meh for sure.
well i started off the new year sick in the first week of school so i'm already backed up with tons of quizzes and homework to make up lol i desire death!!
i'm trying to stay positive though. i've been in such a good mood as of late, i hope that sticks with me..
Not really bad stuff, just stress for school, I guess. I have homework to finish for tomorrow and maybe some tests and writing in my history class, as well as an essay and a presentation in English, not to mention I have the SAT coming up this month.
Had a cracked windshield toward the bottom half of my windshiled. Doesn't at all hinder my vision so I barely look at it. Teaching started back up and classes for this semester start this week so meh.
Yeah, I'm not having the best start to the year either. My health has been on a decline, both mental and physical. I'm always in pain, so my doctor and I have been talking about possibly having fibromyalgia. My depression meds aren't working and my anxiety has been through the roof. Oh yeah, and I got let go from my job.
I'm sure it'll be fine though. Stuff always works out somehow.