What's Bothering You?

My whole life is just hopeless. I don't want to write a paragraph of why (Please don't try to tell me it isn't.) but I am just tired of being reminded this to the point I am extremely stressed out. I can't block out these reminders. Literally unavoidable situations that remind me it's terrible here. Should I guess this is about to be another one of those nights I get stressed over feeling physically uncomfortable? I would be way better off right now if I wasn't stuck in this stupid house, but nope.
 
Feeling bad for something dumb I did and still anxious about something. I though I was feeling better about something but, now Idk. Aside from this, I’m okay.

Lost my internet again. I hope it stays this time 🤞

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This has happened to my bf more than once recently. I imagine the only reason people say stuff like that is because they assume all white people are horrible. My bf has a strong personality so he always tells them off severely 😂
😆 good for him! I am less confrontational, opting for nodding with no real acknowledgement to see how far they will go in what they say. I should probably learn from your bf though, as I am always feeling upset and disturbed after! By the way, yes I am white (so that makes me "horrible" in their eyes, if you are correct) but literally people of any skin color or background will talk to me this way. I want to know what's going through their minds when they first see me. "GAAAH!!! NOW THERE'S A FELLA I CAN HATE WITH!!!"
 
night after night I wake up feeling cold and uncomfortable, and I'm reminded of my heated blanket 💔

I wish a new one wasn't so expensive to buy. I also wish I could just buy the same one I have, but it's from 2022 and I cannot for the life of me find it ANYWHERE online. the replacement I found looks a little sketchy to me. this wouldn't have been a problem if I just washed the blanket properly...
 
night after night I wake up feeling cold and uncomfortable, and I'm reminded of my heated blanket 💔

I wish a new one wasn't so expensive to buy. I also wish I could just buy the same one I have, but it's from 2022 and I cannot for the life of me find it ANYWHERE online. the replacement I found looks a little sketchy to me. this wouldn't have been a problem if I just washed the blanket properly...
I don't know anything about heated blankets, but I do know about sleeping in the cold. You might do better with multiple layers of blankets. You don't need electricity to stay warm! Although it must be nice!
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P.S. socks... get warm socks

And layers... so many to sleep well.
 
nothing serious, i just need to vent. i’m seriously considering changing my college major for many reasons. i’m a graphic design major and i think maybe these feelings are arising from that fact that i hate my general courses lmao which are foundational traditional art courses that have little to do with actual graphic design. but aside from that, i’m also reconsidering because i’ve been reading posts from online communities (reddit) and that the people in this type of work say they regret their career choice 😭

but anyway, i’m unsure what to do at the moment. i will probably wait another semester because i’ll have an actual graphic design class then and i can kind of get a view into if the major is worth sticking with because so far, i am not enjoying it. sometimes i can’t see myself having a future in this career because maybe i wont enjoy it and realistically, because of the current job market.

on the brighter side, i have another major in mind; it has a design discipline but it‘s lot more technical.
 
I also wish I could just buy the same one I have, but it's from 2022 and I cannot for the life of me find it ANYWHERE online.
Is there a way to check if its been discontinued, better to find that out rather than search for something that won't be advertised as being able to buy it.
I wouldn't have expected something from 2022 to disappear but if you need any help, with a lil more info, I could search also!
 
I just quit my job. I should be feeling relieved but I'm crying my eyes out instead. I let everybody and myself down because I couldn't stay strong. I just want to be happy, but it's ****ing impossible in this world.
Nothing is worth your peace of mind. Good for you quitting! No one else matters either so you didn't let anyone down.

You're looking at this backwards. You realizing this is bad for you and being STRONG ENOUGH to leave is proof you found your strength. Staying somewhere bad for you is weakness. Weakness because you'd rather get "beat up on" than start over.

Please congratulate yourself for knowing you deserve much, much better than what you've been enduring. May the next job be a million times better! You're amazing and 100% shouldn't tolerate anything less. Things can only go up from here.
 
Apparently there’s a situation going on involving someone in theatre that’s really similar to mine, but she’s handling hers in all the wrong ways. That’d be all fine and dandy, except this person is one of the main people who made me look like scum of the earth when my situation happened. I’ve TRIED everything I can to repair my relationship, because I know I hurt the sweetest man ever because I was scared and stuck in a relationship that was hurting me. I’ve apologized, and I would’ve resolved it earlier if it wasn’t for me having a panic attack both times I tried.

I understand being upset for the person when it happened, but don’t be a ****ing hypocrite. I feel like that shouldn’t be too much to ask.
 
I did a lot of work around the house today. My partner's response was, "could you also vacuum?"

I guess the look I gave her was enough, as she immediately said she'd do it when she got home tonight.

The housework is very imbalanced. We both work full-time and I do the majority of the housework in addition to almost all the animal care even though it was meant to be a joint effort.

She says she appreciates how much I do at home, but I have to question, does she really? Basically every task falls on me to do. If I ask her to empty the dishwasher (a chore we previously agreed is hers) she'll say, "I'll get to it tomorrow or the day after." Not good enough. If I don't do it myself dishes pile in the sink.

The only housework she has done in weeks is take out the occasional bin bag, and only if I ask her to as she is leaving the house.

The annoying part is whenever I raise this to her, her solution isn't to pitch in - it is to suggest we hire a cleaner that I'd be expected to cover 50%. Why pay a cleaner for what I can do myself very quickly?

I'm running a three-bedroom household and maintaining four animals care on top of working full-time. I also have CFS which limits how much I can do. Her help now and then would be nice.
 
Just saw someone gatekeeping a ****ing SANRIO character on pinterest. “Glad yo see Someone who likes the show and not just for the aesthetic” at least someone told them off, but imagine wasting your time typing that ****.
 
My mom is making banana bread and my dad just stops the timer she had and now she doesn’t know how long it was in for because she was busy. this isn’t the first time he did this; he did this a couple weeks ago too. He is really going downhill 😬
 
guys... I am completely frozen. I cannot for the life of me get myself to write this paper. I'm leaning toward a mindset of "I don't care if I get a zero on this", which is not a good mindset for me to have obviously. but I am so exhausted, so mentally drained, that I can't really afford to care. I need to do this, but I'm struggling so hard right now. maybe I should send my professor an email after all.



I just quit my job. I should be feeling relieved but I'm crying my eyes out instead. I let everybody and myself down because I couldn't stay strong. I just want to be happy, but it's ****ing impossible in this world.
oh Char 🫂 I know it's hard to see right now, but I'm honestly so proud of you. merely getting a glimpse of what you dealt with through your posts was enough for us to understand that it's been stressful for you, but I can't imagine how truly difficult you had it. it takes a lot of strength and courage to stand up for yourself and do what you think is right.

I'm sure you'll want to find another job soon, but please try to take it easy for now. get as much rest as you need. and I'm here if you ever want to chat 🫶💜
 
Customers are so insufferable dude, every store that sells clothing has a "undergarments/swimwear are final sale" rule and you wanna argue with me that it's stupid that I'm not accepting your gooch sweat back? Be serious
 
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