What's Bothering You?

I'm getting SO frustrated with my therapist. She says she'll do thing but doesn't hold up her promise. She never listens me. She never even seems to communicate with her staff members. It's getting so ridiculous now. I'm about to just drop her altogether.
 
This is very minor. I’m a bit bummed; Idk i’ll have enough time to do as many stocking stuffers as I’d like or the mythical creature drawing. I’m glad I had spent as much time as I had with my other entries since I’m really happy how they turned out. I feel like I lost some valuable time and energy because of a couple of things. I am happy though that I was able to do anything since it looked like I wasn’t going to participate because of how I’m feeling.

Right now I’m feeling emotionally tired and generally tired. I took my medicine for sure and while my mood isn’t the worst, it isn’t the best right now either. I’m hoping I can get at least one stocking stuffer done in time.

I’m anxious too about something still. I kinda regret something even though I really do need help and advice on something; I wasn’t in the right mindset and am worried about so much on so many levels.

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I tried actively dating for a bit and matched with someone. They seemed nice and friendly at first, and then, suddenly, they stopped responding to me. I checked, and they were unmatched without saying anything. I unfriended them because I was upset they couldn't reject me directly, and they blocked me. I honestly expected something like this. I feel like I was treated like I was disposable. I'm hurt they couldn't just tell me directly and acted immature. "I'm sorry, but I don't think this will work" is not that hard to type. I didn't even say anything to warrant being blocked.
 
Hate waking up to a headache, my cat trying to wake me up so he can force his way into my bed, and then my sister calling up; still annoyed and asking why we didn't want to visit her for Christmas (lives in a different country, 11 - 14 hours flight) when we continue to tell her the reasons and she I dunno. doesnt believe them? And then says we never said why or wont take into consideration the reasons we said we can't.

Won't believe my mum doesn't have any holiday to take (she wanted us for three weeks, and even if my mum didn't take ANY holiday off for the year, she doesn't have nor will ever have three weeks holiday), and I never get holiday pay if I took any off. I don't even get sick pay.
Dunno how well UC would take if they knew I was away for so long either.
Always saying, we dont need money, they will pay for everything, and we are never talking about money to spend or for the flight; we're talking about money to pay bills, pay for cat food.

I've told her many times, that months ago when she kept asking; my ginger cat Taishi was not doing okay mentally. Would stay in one spot and not move. My youngest would always go over and bother her and I didn't want to leave them in that state incase anything happens.
And when I say bother her, I mean he goes to attack her.
She never seems to realise how important this reason is, or doesn't acknowledge it and it fustrates me.
 
Woke-up with a headache and awful stomach ache. Got up early, took care of the animals, got dressed, and now nursing a can of Sprite until I need to leave for work. Thank god it is a quiet day. I'm the only person working in the department.
 
Got to work to find someone has smashed the shop window door with a brick. Let my bosses ex know but also refused to go inside. Ain't ricking nothing.
So I think my boss is on her way.

They think someone was breaking in yo look for money fir drugs, if that's the case why was this shop the only target.
 
I have to host a party this weekend. Don't really have the energy but its for family so...yeah I am sort of obligated to do it.
 
Ughhhhh. Stupid AT&T!!!!! So yday, my oldest and I went to go start the process of upgrading our phones. (And my husbands as well). They didn’t have ANY of the specific phones we were looking to get so while my oldest was contemplating which one he was going to upgrade to by looking at the ones that they have, but knowing we would have to order online for the bigger storage, I went ahead and ordered my husband’s new one online. We decided we would go eat lunch afterward and discuss which phones we were going to do if we were for sure going to do them at all. we had not planned to get the newest ones when we got there but that’s what we ended up doing, but we ended up ordering them online through the AT&T app instead because we wanted the bigger storage. We finally decided what to do and I went ahead and went to the process of ordering online, which we’re going to do the monthly thing and pay the taxes upfront when we ordered and everything went according as planned……. SO WE THOUGHT.

So later on that night, I went to work and I got a text saying that one of the phones had been shipped and a couple hours later I got a text saying they had some kind of an issue with payment and I needed to update. So the thing is is I know how much money is in the bank and I realize it’s Christmas. I’m spending a lot, but I still knew how much money was in the bank so I knew the right amount had been in there to cover it without a doubt in my mind, I couldn’t call yet because I was at work. so the next morning I looked it up on the computer and sure enough the payment I had sent it and had gone through with no problems so I had to call AT&T after being on hold for 52 minutes, I finally got a person. so apparently when we had ordered the phones, my son‘s phone was not in the warehouse so when they only shipped my phone and then later on when they were going to ship his they tried to charge my card again or something which of course is not gonna go through because my bank I hadn’t authorized another payment. And they literally made me pay the tax again on that phone with the promise that they would reimburse my payment from the day before which I thought was absolutely ridiculous. So now, I basically got charged twice for the same phone and they have to refund my money in 3 to 5 business days.
 
So, six days before Christmas, I discover that one of my favorite shows is at risk of being cancelled!!

Basically, a guy was butthurt the show didn’t like his animation and absence, and he was fired… As a result, he reported a false copyright claim and they believed him. It’s really ****ed up, I’m heartbroken that this could happen.

This show has helped and done so much for me, and it would suck for it to end on this note. It’s just delayed for now, and all I can do is continue to support them along with the other fans.
 
I feel embarrassed about something and stupid too :/. It is very minor yet kinda don’t feel like working on my entry now. I kinda feel like I got in trouble even though I didn’t.

Not feeling good all of a sudden. I’m having doubts, triggered by some things, bothered by a bit. I’m hoping this mood will pass.

Tomorrow I have to call a doctor to answer some questions; my mom will help me but I’m still nervous about yhat.
 
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