One of my bigger regrets (in my so far short life)
My older cousin had 'problems' so to speak. He wanted a game console and I promised to get him an Xbox 360. Which would have been a big deal since he hadn't gotten to play a more modern console. Although I already had the console, I couldn't find the correct plugs for him and I began to procrastinate.
One day he overdosed and died. Just like that. And I never got him the console because I put it off.
I didn't keep the promise and it was my fault because I took for granted how fragile and temporary life can be. It still pops into my head occasionally. I was thinking of him today.
Goblet squats are the devil. My legs ache like hell.
Busy day. Got home an hour late. I wish tomorrow was Saturday. Or Sunday, as I've social plans Saturday I can't get out of.
Still firm in my decision that if I'm ever made to pick between Sebastian or my partner/home, I'm getting us out of here. My baby boy comes first. I really hope it doesn't come to that.
Time to pour a glass of wine, shut off from the world, and cuddle a cat.
My hip hurts so bad today that I can't walk, it's my sister's birthday and I want to go out and do stuff with her plus have museum plans tomorrow. I hope it gets better soon. ):
Edit: took it easy today and it's feeling a lot better now!
Vros idk I got a good amount of sleep last night after actually getting tired at a decent hour than i wake up stay up for a lil while and then take a long nap and have a horrible nightmare and then wake up and eat and now i feel like i’m gonna crash again what is wrong with me,,,,
Isabelle doesn't want to give me my 5 stars because there are too many items on the ground but won't tell me what are they:
There are no drop items, no fruits, no tools, no stones, iron, wood etc What it is Isabelle!?
My mom said that I have zero friends, which tbh is really getting to me. She says that nobody wants to be around me because I’m an ungrateful *****. I’m sick of being told that I have no friends, that there’s something wrong with me, and crying myself to sleep half the week because of her.
Not to mention she says I’m a ****ty worker, but that’s the least of it.
I am absolutely fuming right now. NONE of my doctors ever freaking listen to me! NONE OF THEIR STAFF EVER LISTEN TO ME! They charge me for a cancelled meeting despite me doing it BEFORE the 24 hours and they still charge me... EVEN THOUGH THEY SAID THEY WOULDN'T CHARGE ME! I want to call them and give them a piece of my mind but I can't because it's the middle of the night. Now I have all this steam I need to blow off. Lovely.
worried that i’m not going to get into some of the classes that i selected. my college gives me an enrollment date for when i can register for classes and i think i got one of the latest times. i have two online classes that i want to get into but it only has 9 seats left, hopefully by this afternoon when i register it wont be all taken. a few online classes would just be easier on me tbh. this sounds dumb but classrooms make me anxious.
I have Thanksgiving break soon. I don't care that it's supposed to be a good thing and I can rest, all that matters is that I'm going to spend the whole week doing chores and catching up on homework. Yay
I'm tired of being promised more day offs and then being asked to work on those days. I just want a ****ing break, man.
And my brother keeps asking me for money even though he can't pay me back. I don't say no either, even though I should learn to put my foot down. Of all the people to take advantage of the fact I'm a pushover, I never expected it to be my own brother. **** him.