What's Bothering You?

I am very hard on myself and I recently had an awkward interaction at work that I've been beating myself up about since Monday. I try to minimize it as much as possible, but sometimes it just gets to ya. I really need to like, go on a walk or something.
 
I consider myself to be a calm and rational person but it's now when my Rheumatology Nurse should be available to contact with a one hour slot and it's still the same answerphone message with 'Do not leave a message.' Honestly, I've had enough of this now. I'm sick of this pain, hardly any sleep and I'm crying because I can't hardly do anything. I just want some help from them. Is that too much to ask? No pain injections since July and I was supposed to be contacted in September to arrange new medication. Going to try and phone again and again and again ... am I just wasting my time? 😢

EDIT: Newsflash! I've actually managed to leave a message!!!!! Let's hope I can get a reply now...🫣
2nd edit: She phoned me back! Just got to wait on another phone call now...🙄
 
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I can’t decide between Au Ra and Miqo’te in FFXIV and I get interrupted whenever I finally sit down to actually think about it 🤔
 
why has literally nobody ever once told me that crippling self-doubt is actually a very common symptom of OCD??

I've been over here journaling obsessively for the last month and a half, feeling like I need constant reassurance, always forgetting things and struggling with emotional permanence. I've been finding relief through journaling, because it helps me look back at my thoughts and things I've experienced in the past, and reminds me that these things are true and that my self-doubt is lying to me and that everything is okay. and now I'm seeing that the reason why I have this incessant desire to journal about literally everything is because of my OCD???

it would've been really helpful to know that earlier!! I've been over here thinking that I'm just some crazy, desperate, obsessive person who probably comes across as creepy because of that obsessiveness. but I've actually been doing it to be reassuring to myself, and to keep those symptoms of OCD at bay! I hate that I keep having to discover these things 20+ years down the road, when it would've been incredibly helpful to be aware of them earlier so I could be more mindful and gentle with myself 😭 better late than never I suppose...



I'll just say, dealing with mental health issues sucks. like, it suuuucks. 😞
 
I am reaching a point of not caring anymore. No matter how hard I try to be reasonable and try to be fair its always the same thing.
 
I am reaching a point of not caring anymore. No matter how hard I try to be reasonable and try to be fair its always the same thing.
Some people can’t be reasoned with, even if you have the high ground. People like SJWs, MAGA cultists, Antifa, and the Proud Boys, their biases are too incurable that there’s no reasoning with them. These people aren’t just worth it.
 
I have an absolute migraine from the underworld and I am beyond miserable. I hate feeling like this. 😭🤕
Coping but exhausted. Nightmares are the worst 😞
I know I usually say mom friend in an endearing and light-hearted way, but you two really are like the moms I never had, you both mean so much to me. I hope you feel better soon, but either way I'm only a message away if you want or need me for anything 🥺💗
 
I know I usually say mom friend in an endearing and light-hearted way, but you two really are like the moms I never had, you both mean so much to me. I hope you feel better soon, but either way I'm only a message away if you want or need me for anything 🥺💗
Thank you dearest bug ❤️ You are just the sweetest 💖 Love and hugs from one of your moms 💗
 
I know I usually say mom friend in an endearing and light-hearted way, but you two really are like the moms I never had, you both mean so much to me. I hope you feel better soon, but either way I'm only a message away if you want or need me for anything 🥺💗
Thank you, bug, that means a lot, and you mean a lot to me too 💞 I just need a good nights sleep and probably a lot more water than I’ve been drinking. Thankfully I think the three cups of tea I just drank will help with that.
 
tried to grab a cat that ran into my mom's room before she slipped behind a piece of furniture and out of my reach, so I quickly reached down aaaaand I absolutely slammed my right eye into the handle of my mom's stationary bike 🙃

luckily I can still see okay, and it doesn't really hurt (though it scared me and threw me into a mini panic attack when it happened), but I'm afraid I might wake up tomorrow morning with a black eye 😅
 
my doctor is really nice but I think I might have to find a new one because I have such a hard time understanding what she's saying because of her accent 😭 I have a hard enough time understanding what people (mainly people I don't know) are saying in general.. like even if they speak perfect english. idk what it is.
 
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