What's Bothering You?

^ being normal is terrifying tbh



I still have two more days of this after today and I'm so tired, I wish I could just lie down and take a nap 😭
 
When you get used to spending most days with someone...you just feel that much more alone when this is no longer happening. This is the hardest feeling I am struggling with right now. It's hard to not feel entirely rejected and unwanted. - Prior to this relationship, I was fairly confident in my self and had no problem with spending every single day alone. Now I just think about how much I wish she was by my side. - A feeling that is made worse by knowing that she literally doesn't want me by hers. - Also made worse that she still messages me daily, and talks to me when she sees me as if nothing has changed. - Does she just not feel any pain at all? It feels like she just moved on a long time ago without telling me.
 
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Niantic being total dip****s. Instead of working towards encouragement with adding friends worldwide and playing together remotely, and maybe add remote trading for best friends, they keep on punish spoofers even more. Guess why people spoof? Most of us don't have friends living close-by that we can trade rares with or such therefore they have to spoof in order to trade/complete goals. And those stupid pushes towards more local plays are even more idiotic.
 
All of a sudden I'm astronomically terrible in Wii Sports tennis. I already restarted 10 times and only won 1 game, and from that I only got 30 experience points. At this rate it's gonna take me forever to reach PRO status, let alone Elisa.

I almost threw my Wii remote, but I had to stop myself. Maybe I should take a break before I actually do throw it, but I don't wanna stop playing either because I feel like I haven't done enough. It doesn't make much sense, but I just don't wanna give up so quickly.

If I were to be a CPU Mii in Wii Sports, I'd have 400s all across the board in terms of skill levels because I'm so crap at the game. 3 out of 5 sports I've played sit around ~400 points, with tennis and bowling having at least a sliver of hope.

Edit: I forgot to mention this earlier, BUT WHY THE **** DID THE GAME PAIR ME WITH SHOUTA, ONE OF THE WORST TENNIS PLAYERS. THAT'S SO STUPID. 😡
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I'm sorry but the last part about shouta is so hilarious to me, like everyone is level 600-700 and he's level 4 I can't even 🤣🤣


I'm highkey dreading tomorrow bc each day I have to get up at 6:30am and work 10 hours makes me feel even worse. I can't believe there are people out there who work like this for a living. it's insane. luckily this is only a one week gig, if this was my actual job I would likely become very physically ill due to my degrading mental health.
 
I'm sorry but the last part about shouta is so hilarious to me, like everyone is level 600-700 and he's level 4 I can't even 🤣🤣
Now that you mention it, I guess it is pretty funny. I freaked when I got Ren as my partner (who's at 23 points), and you should've seen my reaction when I got Shouta. XP

I should be happy that I got to PRO level in tennis, but it's just... I don't know. Right now I'm tired and frustrated, so looks like I'll have to face Elisa another day... 😭
 
If I don’t like you in that way, why do I care? Am I just in denial? My dad always asks me, “why do you care?” Yes. Why do I care? After saying “oh, (her friend) probably has his tongue down her throat.” That friend is close with her, and one I’m not particularly fond of. I don’t know if it’s due to jealousy or other reasons? Am I finding excuses to dislike him so it’s not seen as jealousy? He is a manager at work. He doesn’t do much. He just sits around and doesn’t really help. He says he’s just really close to the girl at work I am referring to. I think they are both close, but she tells me she finds him annoying sometimes. Even so, they still talk. And when they work together, he’s following her around like a puppy dog. But why? He has a girlfriend. He seems to really like his girlfriend. It seems like he’s emotionally cheating.

What am I thinking here? Do I actually like her in that way? Am I jealous of the close bond and wish I had someone like that?

A few coworkers including them are going to see a movie as a group. I’m going too, but I’m sitting with a different group in the same movie. She’s likely sitting with two of her close friends. I’m sitting with my group of friends. Don’t get me wrong, I like my friends. But after today, I’m unsure of my actual motives. I said things like “oh, she can sit with y’all and her friends, I’m sitting with MY group.”

On a different note, I do wish I had close friendships. I think not getting invited to basically anything when I was in school really sucked. I’ve never actually been to any sort of group setting before. I do talk to people, but it’s more, I’ll talk to each person in the group, but when it’s the group of people, things change. The group talks, and I’m just there. I feel confused.

All this taught me was that I really should buy a journal because it may be beneficial to jot my thought down rather than posting in this thread.
 
The concept of consumers haggling. It drives me up a wall along with the make me an offer seller approach.
I was just reminded of it today and I just hate it. It's such a waste of everyone's time. It is manipulative.
Just state the price that is wanted, the consumer needs to just pay without complaining or move on to somewhere else.

When I worked retail, I would have customers try to haggle and then get mad at me. That isn't how corporate America works... The people weren't foreigners who didn't realize or something, they were citizens.

Yeah...I don't know why anyone would expect to get a better price in a retail chain or a corporate business. I mean...the only time I would ever try this would be if the item was damaged and I still wanted it. Sometimes it doesn't hurt to ask in that case. But, a perfectly new item? Nope. That doesn't make sense. People are crazy. I guess it's the same type of people who eat their entire meal at a restaurant and then complain that it wasn't good and ask for a full refund...
 
I just realized that I am no longer comfortable being around my dad. he never apologized for what he said to me last weekend. I truly get the feeling that he hates me even if he or others say otherwise. actions speak louder than words and he has shown me that he hates what I'm doing with my life and how I'm embracing my gender identity and lgbt+ status. he hates me. I can't even be within 15ft of him without shuddering and feeling like something terrible might happen. no child should be so terrified of their parent that the sound of their steps in the hallway triggers major anxiety.

it must be nice to have a dad who actually cares for and respects his kids.
 
I really need a new Wii remote, 'cause I only have one that works and it's a little sucky. I'm thinking a Toad Wii remote with Wii Motion Plus inside. But then again, I wanted to use my money to buy a Beef Boss hoodie... I don't know what to choose. :,)
 
I don't understand how I can be a literal god in the training mode for Wii Sports, then be absolute **** in the actual games. Seriously, where is the logic in that? I'm not gonna gain any experience points if I keep restarting. But I guess it's better than the alternative, which is losing experience points for being bad at the game...

Also, my dumb *** not realizing strategy is needed for the game, lmao. Maybe if I didn't wing it all the time, I'd be a lot better.

People are probably sick of my Wii Sports talk already, so I'll have to tone it down a bit for the sake of people in general.
 
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