What's Bothering You?
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daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
a lot.
i have a blood test on tuesday. i stopped taking my vitamins yesterday, so they wouldn't affect the results, but i read that some can stay in your body for weeks/months/etc. so i think i'm going to get skewed results no matter what. i'm not sure if i should write down what i take and the amounts so it can be factored in, or if that looks stupid. (and if it's even able to be deducted from the result.) my girlfriend also can't visit and be there for support anymore because her work needs her for some operation.
then just general garbage-ness. wishing i was normal so i could get a job and have money to buy things i want. instead i've got three mental illnesses, one of which is completely debilitating and not responding to any treatment so far, and have to be referred for an autism assessment when i next see my doctor. starting to wonder what's going to be wrong with me next.
i have a blood test on tuesday. i stopped taking my vitamins yesterday, so they wouldn't affect the results, but i read that some can stay in your body for weeks/months/etc. so i think i'm going to get skewed results no matter what. i'm not sure if i should write down what i take and the amounts so it can be factored in, or if that looks stupid. (and if it's even able to be deducted from the result.) my girlfriend also can't visit and be there for support anymore because her work needs her for some operation.
then just general garbage-ness. wishing i was normal so i could get a job and have money to buy things i want. instead i've got three mental illnesses, one of which is completely debilitating and not responding to any treatment so far, and have to be referred for an autism assessment when i next see my doctor. starting to wonder what's going to be wrong with me next.
Firesquids
☆ Roxie of Avalar ☆
Making friends as an adult is so hard, why does no one want to just chill, play video games, watch movies/cartoons and smoke weed with me? I feel like I've set the bar pretty low here. Sometimes I wish I could meet myself at least then we'd be of the same mind.
Mr_Keroppi
Senior Member
My parents called me dumb & girly again... They say I need to find other interests and stop being a baby.... They also said everything I like is sick and I interpreted this as them calling me an idiot basically 
you sure can love my brother because he likes normal boy stuff but you have got to hate me because I am not as mature and I like girly things... way to parent 
great job.... I guess the millions of things I do are not enough. I literally do everything a parent could want from their child...... your excuse about not letting me do things and taking my stuff away because "its helping you out socially and emotionally" is literally the opposite 
Good thing I am always positive because I would be a lot more hurt if I didnt love myself. I cry way to often and they dont even notice most of the time 
Atleast they love me on the inside! They are wonderful parents but sometimes dont understand me very well 
you sure can love my brother because he likes normal boy stuff but you have got to hate me because I am not as mature and I like girly things... way to parent great job.... I guess the millions of things I do are not enough. I literally do everything a parent could want from their child...... your excuse about not letting me do things and taking my stuff away because "its helping you out socially and emotionally" is literally the opposite Good thing I am always positive because I would be a lot more hurt if I didnt love myself. I cry way to often and they dont even notice most of the time Atleast they love me on the inside! They are wonderful parents but sometimes dont understand me very well
Firesquids
☆ Roxie of Avalar ☆
I feel the same way Koopa, it's hard to make close and meaningful relationships. My old "friends" have all let me down when it really counts. I've been engaged for almost three years now and I have no one to invite to my wedding part of me wants to put it off until I have at least a couple worthy people.
Sending you a virtual hug.
I'd join you if we lived in the same country bro.
But yeah I agree, I've pretty special/niche interests and most people are totally uninterested or they are double my age and probs don't care for younger friends lol.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
my mom loves to stir up drama w people and she's arguing over the phone w someone she plays an online game with and I'm already so tired of hearing it. I hate when people argue and yell, it lowkey triggers PTSD in me and makes me feel really anxious and scared. I wish she would stop. /.\
DarkDesertFox
Your Typical Trickster
This has to be one of the worst weeks of my life. Not only because of a breakup with someone I loved more than anything, but because my cat is sick and parents are fighting too. I'm just really depressed at this point. I didn't want things to turn out like this. This week was supposed to be amazing...
Late to update this, But now she tried reaching our to my brother to tell me to call her
(this was Friday).Mom, how many times do I have to discuss this with you?! Talking on the phone is extremely awkward, boring, and uncomfortable for me.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s a different story if it’s brief and for something important, but just to chitchat and bull**** (which is exactly what my mom wants to do)! UGH I HATE IT!
I swear I can never get a break. I was quietly reading a book in my apartment building’s lobby when a guy walked up and said “We’re holding a meeting that was planned on FaceBook until 10. People who didn’t sign up can’t be here.” I said okay. “So that’s a no,” he said. Then he walked out of the building. The other person who was there for the meeting was complaining on the phone that I was taking up “their” space even though there wasn’t a single sign saying as much. As I was getting up to leave the person had a smug smile on their face. This is a hangout lobby for everyone that lives in the building. It’s not a place for snobby people to kick others out of.
This isn’t even the first time this has happened. Last time I tried to read down there several people were calling the front desk because I was supposedly breaking the rules. I wasn’t. I was wearing a mask and socially distancing just like the signs said.
This isn’t even the first time this has happened. Last time I tried to read down there several people were calling the front desk because I was supposedly breaking the rules. I wasn’t. I was wearing a mask and socially distancing just like the signs said.
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Disneyfangirl23
Senior Member
I can’t find my Pokemon shield game cartridge. My mum is going to help me look but if we can’t find it I’m going to buy a new one 
I will always hate the innate feeling of comparing myself to others. Today I had an exam and I was so happy I got a 96, but I heard others got a 98 and even a 100 and I feel extremely bad now because I feel stupid. This wouldn't have happened had one of my friends just not talked about scores after the exam. I hate asking others about their scores because I don't want to feel bad, and I would've rejected the conversation completely, but my friend's literal opening statement was "Was I the only one who didn't get a 100? I only got a 98." I didn't want to know and I didn't ask and now that I know these, I just feel extremely terrible. It also doesn't help that I feel I studied way longer than these people yet still couldn't be on-par with them. I don't want the intrusive thoughts; I just don't. I find peace in the mindset that I just passed, but there will ALWAYS be that voice in my head telling me I'm not enough and I never will be.
It doesn't always have to be about scores and tests, too. Today I learned two of my close friends are achieving milestones today for their thesis: one is finishing their master's thesis, which I can assume is for publication, and another had her thesis recommended to the college for her to join the competition for best college thesis of that year. I am happy for them, I really am, but there's a part of me that's telling me I'm not doing as much as they are, like I'm not doing anything at all and I feel like absolute trash. I feel like I don't have any achievements in life, I don't have anything going on for me and I'm just idle. The fact is that I'm okay with being idle, I'm okay living a simple life and being a simple person who likes doing her creative hobbies, but there's always this pressure being around peers who seem to be achieving so much more that I can and probably ever will.
I don't know. I just want to find peace in the thought that living simply and comfortably is okay, too. I want to know if it's okay to feel like I don't need to overachieve. I to know if it's okay do things to the best of my abilities regardless of my peers' progress. I just need to hear from someone that this is okay, that it's alright to not want to be anything extremely more than who I am today.
Honestly, I just want to be a doctor. Maybe an interior designer too. And I just want to hone my creative skills (not necessarily for monetary purposes; I just love hobbies). Really that simple, I guess.
It doesn't always have to be about scores and tests, too. Today I learned two of my close friends are achieving milestones today for their thesis: one is finishing their master's thesis, which I can assume is for publication, and another had her thesis recommended to the college for her to join the competition for best college thesis of that year. I am happy for them, I really am, but there's a part of me that's telling me I'm not doing as much as they are, like I'm not doing anything at all and I feel like absolute trash. I feel like I don't have any achievements in life, I don't have anything going on for me and I'm just idle. The fact is that I'm okay with being idle, I'm okay living a simple life and being a simple person who likes doing her creative hobbies, but there's always this pressure being around peers who seem to be achieving so much more that I can and probably ever will.
I don't know. I just want to find peace in the thought that living simply and comfortably is okay, too. I want to know if it's okay to feel like I don't need to overachieve. I to know if it's okay do things to the best of my abilities regardless of my peers' progress. I just need to hear from someone that this is okay, that it's alright to not want to be anything extremely more than who I am today.
Honestly, I just want to be a doctor. Maybe an interior designer too. And I just want to hone my creative skills (not necessarily for monetary purposes; I just love hobbies). Really that simple, I guess.
Disneyfangirl23
Senior Member
me and mum looked and we can’t find it. so I’m going to buy a new one Tuesday if doesn’t turn up by then
so I’m going to buy a new one Tuesday if doesn’t turn up by then
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
I feel the same way. I am so sorry to hear that, your parents shouldn't be doing that. I say you're allowed to like whatever you want, and should still pursuit your hobbies/interests regardless of the judgement that surrounds it. I get judged for playing Nintendo when everyone else at school plays Xbox, but so what? What matters is that the person is happy.
And yes, taking away stuff is unhelpful and does the opposite effect. I'm not sure why parents always do that. I'm very sorry to hear that and I hope for the best for you.
And yes, taking away stuff is unhelpful and does the opposite effect. I'm not sure why parents always do that. I'm very sorry to hear that and I hope for the best for you.
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StarlitGlitch
Sweets Lover
My anxiety during work is affecting my ability to get things done. I also haven't felt up to working out all week...
Well I w.e going to type .nother eentence .bout thinge bothering me .e work but now my keye .re mixen up .g.in .nn I c.n't write it out propery.... gre.t
Well I w.e going to type .nother eentence .bout thinge bothering me .e work but now my keye .re mixen up .g.in .nn I c.n't write it out propery.... gre.t
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
My parents are making me overwork with so much chores. Its not one minute they ask me to do one thing its another thing. First my mom tells me to put the dishes to wash, then she tells me to sweep the floor, and then not even 3 minutes later she calls me asking me to help her pack some boxes. Then as if it couldn't get any worse she asks me of when am I going to setup her Cable Box TV. Feeling annoyed I do it for here which took me 30 minutes to do.
I thought I was done but then it gets worse. Now my dad asks me to make up his bed and then my mom tells me to make up her bed and then sweep the staircase. At this point I was feeling stressed because they were asking me to do more than one chore at a time. I figured that I would do all of it just so they won't bother me. After that I went into my room feeling angry and stressed that I had to put up with this.
I thought I was done but then it gets worse. Now my dad asks me to make up his bed and then my mom tells me to make up her bed and then sweep the staircase. At this point I was feeling stressed because they were asking me to do more than one chore at a time. I figured that I would do all of it just so they won't bother me. After that I went into my room feeling angry and stressed that I had to put up with this.
