What's Bothering You?

Being an extrovert with social anxiety basically sucks. Idk what it is. I was asked to hang out with a group of friends (maybe 4 or 5) and on one hand, I want to do it because I’ve never done anything like it before but on the other hand I’m not sure how I’d feel in a public setting hanging out with 5 people at a time. I don’t know what I’d do if it’s too much for me and I’d feel bad saying anything about it. Maybe I’d feel better if it was like 3 people but I think 4 or 5 could be overwhelming for the first time I hang out in a group.

I know I should probably do it because i need to get over myself and do it eventually. I can’t just not hang out with friends at all. It’s just new to me and i don’t even know what to expect. I feel like i’d just stand there or make things awkward and i’d be the person just tagging along. Idk. I’m probably looking too much into it.
 
Just like I predicted, I slept in class. All of them, actually. Luckily, my teachers didn't seem to mind too much.
I almost fell asleep in Math class! I guess the lesson was pretty boring... My teacher seemed to be in a good mood, because she just said a hearty, "Are you dozing off, [my name]?" She's usually very strict and would've blown a fuse if she caught me sleeping in her class.
I also drool in my sleep, so when I wake up at the end of class, I have a puddle of drool in my face mask. Gross.
I did an evaluation in French to test my French-speaking skills, I guess. I hate those evaluations, I get so fricking stressed about it. I don't think I did too bad, but my teacher said that I should talk louder next time.
I'm very worried about some of my online friends because they seem to be very down lately, they say I shouldn't worry about them but I can't help it...
This reminded me when I feel asleep in computer class. I was feeling so bored that I actually fell asleep because I had nothing else to do and I had to wait until the Bell rings for the next class. The teacher shook me and said "You're suppose to go to your next class" and I just said "Oh okay uh sorry I just feel asleep" and she didn't seem to mind that.
 
Being an extrovert with social anxiety basically sucks. Idk what it is. I was asked to hang out with a group of friends (maybe 4 or 5) and on one hand, I want to do it because I’ve never done anything like it before but on the other hand I’m not sure how I’d feel in a public setting hanging out with 5 people at a time. I don’t know what I’d do if it’s too much for me and I’d feel bad saying anything about it. Maybe I’d feel better if it was like 3 people but I think 4 or 5 could be overwhelming for the first time I hang out in a group.

I know I should probably do it because i need to get over myself and do it eventually. I can’t just not hang out with friends at all. It’s just new to me and i don’t even know what to expect. I feel like i’d just stand there or make things awkward and i’d be the person just tagging along. Idk. I’m probably looking too much into it.
I can relate to this. I am extremely chatty and outgoing but anxiety destroys me in the hours/days leading up to meetings with unfamiliar people and the bigger the group the worse it will be. Based on my experience, I would suggest just going for it. If you've any anti-anxiety medication or anything else that you use to manage physical symptoms, then take them before you go.

Social settings like this are often only scary the first time, or the first couple of times. Once you get used to the company it will become easier. Often the anticipation and the scenarios you imagine in your head are far worse than the reality.
 
I am so frustrated, angry and confused. I don’t get why they have to change things that work perfectly fine and change them to be so complicated. I basically had a panic attack this morning . I don’t handle change well especially such drastic change that had no warning .
 
my intrusive thoughts are getting worse. sometimes i just want to bash my head against a wall because of how bothering it is. i hate it. this always happens whenever a family member gets sick :(
 
my intrusive thoughts are getting worse. sometimes i just want to bash my head against a wall because of how bothering it is. i hate it. this always happens whenever a family member gets sick :(
that happens to me too, and i hope the your family member gets well soon
 
I have a really bad headache, it's honestly prob a migraine at this point. feels like someone is squeezing my head between their palms 😞
I should probably just go to bed, my headaches always feel better once I get some sleep.
 
I think one of my biggest peeves is when people associate cute/cartoon/etc things with being immature. like really bro. I think having that kind of mindset is immature tbh.
Enjoy what you like. I already said it before somewhere not too long ago, but I've been mocked for participating in Civil War reenactments. Things like that it's stupid/silly, pointless, that it's not the real thing so I'm pathetic, ect. And I bet none of them would be able to do the hardcore camping that it takes, carrying 30 pounds of gear and wool in summer heat, ect.

The people who get caught up on some random person's hobby and or likes is the one who should be questioning their own morals. Focus more on your own life and less on some stranger that does not impact you in the slightest lol. Bottom line, just forget them. You can't change their hardheaded opinion.
 
Somehow I ended up falling asleep and awoken to my brother yelling at me. He just wanted me to take the dog out, which I guess was a good enough reason to disturb my sleep. I wasted a bunch of time and probably don't have time to watch Poofesure like I wanted to. :(
My memory is so crap, I can't remember anything that happened before I fell asleep. Why did I sleep, when did I sleep, did I even eat supper? I guess no more all-nighters if this keeps happening...
 
I think one of my biggest peeves is when people associate cute/cartoon/etc things with being immature. like really bro. I think having that kind of mindset is immature tbh.
As long as it's not creepers loving outright baby cartoons and does NSFW stuff I agree with you. I've seen way too many NSFW diaper furry things for this lol.

And yeah love what cartoon you want! (y)
 
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Tomorrow will be "Mother's Day" and I don't have a mother. It means that she already passed away...
 
This dumb person in a discord server, basically pointing out everyone in public where/if they post wrong rather than telling it nicely and/or properly writing it out in rules/faq. Or at least send us in a DM, I think most people do wrong especially when it's not written out and just acting like a dumb parent is not the way you do... sorry just needed to get that out because they are really stupid even though the others there are nice.

(related to a pogo server i'm in btw so nothing tbt or other related)
 
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there was a really bad storm last night so i spent about an hour in the basement & our power has been off for like 12 hours now. :(
 
As long as it's not creepers loving outright baby cartoons and does NSFW stuff I agree with you. I've seen way too many NSFW diaper furry things for this lol.

And yeah love what cartoon you want! (y)
yeah NSFW stuff w kid themes is just gross. but I can't even count all the times that I've seen people be like "oh this one is aimed at kids and this one is more mature" and then claim that they are in fact an adult even though they like kid's stuff. nobody should have to defend what they like (unless ofc it's downright creepy/pedo-like).
 
yeah NSFW stuff w kid themes is just gross. but I can't even count all the times that I've seen people be like "oh this one is aimed at kids and this one is more mature" and then claim that they are in fact an adult even though they like kid's stuff. nobody should have to defend what they like (unless ofc it's downright creepy/pedo-like).
Yeah, I agree fully if you like a cartoon/comic etc and you're not acting creepy about it I don't see why someone should get judged at all and no need defending yourself either.

I definitely like "kids series" and stuff and I don't hide that.
 
adhd episode 5: the executive dysfunction strikes back!!

I want to take a shower and eat something but instead I'm just lying here on my bed doing nothing :,,,,,)
also hesitant to shower bc as usual it's cold in this room and I don't want to freeze lol
 
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