What's Bothering You?

Dreading to call the vaccine jab booking phone line.... What does it matter if I'm not exactly 30 yet, I was in the 86-91 age group they let on at the same time for the first jab but still not getting a text. 😡 Like wow sorry my birthday is December 27th and not June 29th or whatever early birb crap.
 
I haven't really been on here besides for some excellent art, but other wise have not. But, its just Because of life in general

I have to get it together, and make it better. But Im stuck inside for many reasons, one, the smoke that won't go away

Its so hot, and hard to sleep at night. Ive had a hard time sleeping in general, because theres so much I want to do but can't

I can't even get a job, or go on dates for another three weeks since I finally got the immunization. But even then I don't know if it will change anything

Im either dragging myself down, or life is.. Its hard to actually have a successful life, when you cant.

Plus I missed the camp event :( It looks like fun.
 
This Canadian election is terrible timing and too many people in British Columbia are dealing with wildfires and won't prioritize voting, which is fair enough considering whole neighbourhoods are burnt.

Also I was cutting an onion and accidently cut the top of my thumb. Holy smokes did it ever hurt. Luckily my man is here to take over chopping the veggies.
 
I am so grumpy.

My wisdom teeth are coming in and they hurt. They make me feel nauseous and dizzy and I absolutely hate it. But I can’t get them removed the way I’m more comfortable with (being put under - I have an anxiety disorder and deal with panic attacks so the though of being awake and aware of them pulling my teeth is terrifying) because of ****ing covid. Because we’re still dealing with it. So surgery rooms can’t be booked because they’re full of ****ing covid patients.

I’m so tired. And in the grand scheme of things what I want is so minor so I feel bad complaining about it. I can’t get my wisdom teeth removed but I know there are people waiting for more serious surgeries and treatments that can’t be seen for the same reason.
 
This Canadian election is terrible timing and too many people in British Columbia are dealing with wildfires and won't prioritize voting, which is fair enough considering whole neighbourhoods are burnt.

Yeah...I can't tell what's going on really. The whole election appears to be all smoke and mirrors. Some say Trudeau is banking on the confusion...so I guess that's either a good or bad thing based on where you stand with him ;)
 
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Yeah...I can't tell what's going on really. The whole election appears to be all smoke and mirrors. Some say Trudeau is banking on the confusion...so I guess that's either a good or bad thing based on where you stand with him ;)
That's what I've been hearing, I guess we will see in a month how that works out. I personally didn't vote for him in either prior election, not that anyone would care much who I voted for lol. He might just get that majority he wants.
 
I'm bothered that I don't have many people I interact with day to day and it has been this way for a while. While I am very grateful for the friends and kind people in my life, I realize so many people out there have so many more friends in their lives to talk to. They could be talking to multiple friends daily.. it is just normal for them but has rarely been normal for me. I wish that was my normal. I wish that I could check in on other people often and have them check in on me.
 
This is more of a me problem, but I’m bothered that I’m currently working afternoons at my new job. I prefer working evenings or nights. It’s just at temporary job before I move to my new city, but yeah, the hours are bothering me. 😰 It’s only two months though, I can do this…
 
i want to stop thinking abt him but it’s so hard omfg it just hit me outta nowhere earlier now i can’t stop thinking about it and now i’m upset
 
My college has a gaming discord so I thought it would be fun to join, but the issue is that my dad freaked out when my brother told him about it (I was asking my brother to join but he ended up telling him instead) because it's a "waste of time"

I try to join something that interests me and where I might be able to talk to others/make friends and he doesn't like it lmao how else does he want me to interact with other people because he's free to offer suggestions (which he hasn't)?? I feel bad because I do want to join in voice chat and stuff (which might also benefit me if it helps me improve my social skills/anxiety?), but so far it seems I'll just need to keep making excuses as to why I can't join vc. I'm hoping my mom might be more understanding and convince my dad since these are people from school rather than random online strangers

they've been letting my younger brother go out with his friends whenever he feels like and let him stay out as long as he wants (~curfew~ is 10pm, dude stays out past 12am), but they've never met his friends that he's always with nor have they ever pried into what he does/where he goes. So I honestly see no problem with me talking to people online especially since I'm 20?? Obviously I'll try meeting people when I have to go to school in-person, but please at least let me stay in the gaming group where I feel less anxious 🙃
 
I'm gonna put it in a spoiler, because it's a bit disgusting and I don't want to make people want to throw up, lol.
So.. this night wasn't fun at all, let me tell you. I woke up like 5 times from midnight to 3:30AM to go pee. The last time I woke up, so about 3:30AM I felt really really dizzy, barely being able to walk and felt a lot like I'm going to throw up. My belly was also hurting, I'm guessing it was preparing for a contraction. Anyways.. I open the door from our bedroom, and our toilet is literally 1 meter away from the bedroom.. my cat Poppy decided to poop exactly in this spot. Now, it wasn't just a poop.. it was pretty damn liquid, but yet a bit solid. Me super dizzy trying to get to the toilet, I don't think about watching the ground. Yup, I walked into cat diarreah, while I was already preparing to throw up. The smell, awful. The feeling on my feet, awful. The sight of just the poop, awful. I somehow managed to clean it up and do my 5th pee of the night without throwing up. That wasn't enough for the night, my body thought. I got my first real contraction this night. I had no idea how painful it's going to be. I knew it would be painful, but that much? Holy moly I am scared now for the upcoming days / weeks. And the worst is, that from next week on my fiancé is going away for 2 weeks to South of France, which is about 8h away from home. He told them so many times to NOT send him away at this time, because I'm due in about 1 month, but y'know.. it can always happen earlier than expected. So.. that scares me even more. I have tons of numbers to drive me to hospital, but I don't want to be there all alone, I don't want to be in pain alone, I'm extremelly scared now. He tried to make them send someone else, but they refuse. He promised me that he will drive back as soon as I call him that I have contractions, but still.. 8 hours is a lot. It's scary, really scary. Also for my cat: We are changing back to the old food now, as it seems they just can't digest the food.. one cat keeps getting diarreah and all of them are puking it out, ugh.
 
Slow day at work, I rly don't like going into town like we do once a week cause they need help with stuff... Can I just get saturday so i can get my jab 2 lol
 
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