What's Bothering You?

I fell asleep after 2am and woke up around 9am last night, and even though I got 7 hours sleep I feel absolutely zapped of energy 😩🙃
 
i have a little crush on a new guy at work. of course he just started working there after i put my two weeks in. i only get to work one shift with him before my last day, which is disappointing. i wish i had been able to talk to him more
 
All month I've been super stressed and when I come online it doesn't do any good and I had to take a week off from this site and I came back feeling numb but not fully better. My emotions are all over the place and I don't know what to think anymore.
 
I hate when I have work days where I feel like I have to be spoon-fed instructions constantly on what to do next cause I'm stressed, overwhelmed or my brain just decides to not work.

I already know I'm stupid in more ways than one, but I don't need to let others (irl people) know that
lol you're not the only one, this is literally me at work as well 😩 I'm always asking what feels like stupid questions and my workmates/managers must think I'm the big dumb™️. I'm pretty thick at the best of times too, but I want my colleagues to think that I at least have a brain lol
 
find a nice denim jacket: it has puffy arms/baby size or just too large
find a nice leather jacket: fake leather and badly taken care of :D:D:D
 
Ugh, I can't really sleep. Something is bothering me a bit tonight. It's been on my mind for awhile -- perhaps someday I'll say it to them in person about how I feel about it. Just making things clear and being honest. I know they care about me a lot. I mean, they've done so much and truly want me to succeed and has helped me in any way they can, but I need to tell them this one day when we meet again in person. I'm not really a very open person when it comes to personal matters, or at least when I'm not online. I always tend to beat around the bush, and it hurts me in the end. I'll just come clean.
 
Last night i cant even stop vomitting and my stomach really hurts much, i did not eat anything for lunch so maybe thats it i swear i hate sickness so much
 
Can't shake the feeling of being trapped / responsible for everything. Ugh. Can somebody else just take over and make decisions / clean my house?
And my son might be getting sick and is having trouble learning some basic skills and doesn't want to be around me anymore. ☹
And why am I awake at 6am? Because somebody finally got to bed after a gaming spree and is going to leave me alone to do everything AGAIN. EVERY WEEKEND, SAME STRUGGLE. AGHHHHHH.
 
I feel uncomfortable this morning my body aches and my eyes burn from allergies. I know if I get up and get moving I’ll feel so much better, but I’m just laying around feeling unmotivated.
 
This week I have to talk to my psychiatrist and counselor. I like my counselor but my psychiatrist, I hate him. I tried telling him about that friend and the incident from 3 years, 3 years ago and instead of providing anything constructive he said that is not good and yet he has the nerve to still try to force me to talk. and then he takes a a month to do something my mom asked him to do for the company that i’m receiving medicine from. we both know i should get a new psychiatrist but right now is not a good time especially since i’m moving in a year 😡 which i am still 🤬 about.
 
The R button on my switch stopped working. I would repair it but I really don’t want to have to lose my joycon for so long.

I don’t use the R button much other than to teleport in Fe3h. But after running around the monastery for the 5th time trying to get somewhere it gets highly annoying.
 
Why does nothing help my crippling loneliness for more than a few minutes? My past relationship (definitely) didn't help, talking with friends doesn't help, and going outside doesn't help. Trying to make new friends either helps for a day or blows up in my face. This feeling was around before the pandemic, so I can't say it's related to that. The only time I can suppress the feeling is while visiting a city. I wish I knew how to fix this...
 
my health anxiety has been so bad lately i literally cannot take it anymore :lemon: like i feel the slightest bit of weird and i just start freaking out and crying.. i dont know why. i know my parents get annoyed with me saying that i feel sick most of the time and i really dont blame them.. not to mention, i've been to the hospital a bunch of times and they've all given me the same answer.. i'm fine. i feel so alone ajsdbakdbasl i feel liek im foing craxy or something
 
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