What's Bothering You?

i always have an urge to play acnh but i always end up getting bored of it after a few hours so 😭 i’m stuck in like a never ending loop. also for some reason i feel pressure to make my island look ā€œaestheticā€ and like terraforming just turns me off from the game so much. i wanna get back into playing acnh regularly but idk i can’t :(

also my throat has been hurting for several weeks???? and it’s the only symptom i’ve been having so it kinda sucks :/ i’m going to the doctor on wednesday so i might talk to him about it if it doesn’t get better by then😣
 
why can't i get over people i lose i get so easily attached and im gullible and im sick of people i used to be friends with still talking about me behind my back and convincing everyone to hate me

every time i finally feel okay and normal and like i can do something socially and make friends and be a normal person i somehow screw it up and now she hates me. i tried so hard this time to keep my mouth shut and i did
how did i hurt her i dont understand
I feel you, Iā€˜m in a similar situation.
 
I’m worried the issue with the fuses in my apartment is actually more complicated than I think and it’s not simple to fix. Someone is coming to look at it tomorrow while I’m working and I’m just concerned it’s not easily fixable? I hope it is. I want to play my XBOX.
 
I spent the past two hours agonising over a three-sentence email. Finally hit submit. I feel so pathetic right now.

And the stomachache that woke me up 12hrs ago still persists. šŸ˜”
 
right hand isn't doing too well today. I started having a carpal tunnel flare-up yesterday that still hasn't gone away, so I'm forced to wear a brace on my hand to keep my wrist immobile, not to mention ofc my psoriasis is back and it's not too bad on my left hand but it's pretty bad on my right, it itches a lot and I have to try so hard not to touch it cause that'll just make it worse.

I have things I want to do today and I actually have the energy/motivation for once, but my right hand is almost totally incapacitated and it's making it really hard to do stuff šŸ˜”
 
I spent the past two hours agonising over a three-sentence email. Finally hit submit. I feel so pathetic right now.

And the stomachache that woke me up 12hrs ago still persists. šŸ˜”
I don't know if you still have it, but I had a terrible stomachache a few months ago, give or take. It was brutal and one of the worst ones I've ever had. Felt like something was trying to burst out of me. Like one of those aliens. When I got off of work, I plugged in a heating pad and placed it over my stomach. It took a while, but the heat and pressure did alleviate it some.

Hopefully you already feel better or will soon! And if not, try giving a heating pad a go.
 
I really want to put a semi permanent bright/pastel colour through my hair since I have a blondeish balayage at the moment...but I'm also scared of the judgment I'll face at work 😩 the boys would take the piss out of me lol
 
My eyes were watering earlier, I guess because of the weather, and being around smokers… well my friend thought I was crying I guess? She asked me if I was okay. I’m glad she was concerned.

Another thing: She told me she let her 17 year old friend give her a tattoo. It doesn’t look bad at all, just she was super proud of it but it’s very concerning. Also, she hasn’t even been at work for the past week or so because she had pneumonia and she was outside smoking a cigarette when I saw her today. She said she should probably quit. Well, I agree with that.

She’s a nice girl. She’s 19. I just don’t know about her decisions. She’s on bipolar meds as it is and going to therapy. Not to mention, her boyfriend is kind of a dick and she keeps justifying his behavior.
 
This is really minor, but it’s still frustrating.

I went to a used game store and picked up Shin Megami Tensei: Digital Devil Saga. Of the 14 times I tried to boot the game it only worked twice. The scratches were deep, so that wasn’t surprising. Today I returned the game in exchange of Final Fantasy 8. I go home and it freezes an hour in. My PS2 runs every other game I own perfectly fine. Only these two scratched games had issues. People really need to take better care of their game discs. This is ridiculous…
 
An (ex?-)friend seemed really distanced yesterday. Last Friday I said something she didn’t like, but it wasn’t necessarily wrong. I still apologized. She behaves awkwardly. I don’t know what to think or do.
 
I’m having trouble falling asleep; stayed up too late again. I heard my dad screaming at my kittens and it really upset me; it isn’t anything new since he’d scream at my late kitty when she almost tripped him when she begged. still my dad’s inability to handle his anxiety and refusal to get it treated and his temper bothers me so much. I hate how my mom all these years would just say ā€œjust deal with itā€ or he won’t listen which is true, but, over 30 years of him going ballistic because I ask a question or when i show anxiety, really makes me uncomfortable (to put it lightly), or when i have trouble saying stuff since it takes me forever to put my thoughts in words or to process a question. yet he claims he knows i have mental disabilities. yeah sure… I’d move if i wasn’t dependent on my family and had a job but no one wants to hire me and i can’t function at all; can’t get myself to do even things i want to do like my games. my kittens deserve better; they’re kittens and they are going to be mischievous, but no reason to go ballistic because they are getting in your closet. my dad is so scary when he gets mad. part of the reason i’ve become pretty much a shut in my own house is because I can’t deal with him. I always liked being in my room and having privacy but i’d still interact a little with family; I can interact with my mom but i can’t deal with him and his temper.

edit: they ended up knocking over a plant and breaking the pot. still no need to take out his anxiety on the kittens :(. his yelling is scary. i mean i get being scared about them possibly getting cut, but seriously need to do something about that temper and anxiety. kittens don’t know better.

also panicking about something. i messaged some mods on discord about something and been worrying about a bunch of stuff. i just sent a message to one individual mod, and also am kinda freaking out. i like her and the mods that talk to us a lot; just afraid of annoying them.
 
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Messed up the line art layer on an artwork I'm in a hurry to finish. I don't have the time to go over everything again.

Why did I decide to make this be the one piece where I don't make it in to pixel art. I could've fixed this so easily if I was working with pixels.
 
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