What's Bothering You?

once again back to waking up in my absolutely freezing room. I'm even wearing a beanie bc I couldn't sleep with my head being so cold 🥶
there's no reason for the temp to be 37° right now. the high is actually 38 so ig today is gonna be a "wrapped in my heated blanket like a cocoon all day" kinda day 😔

also sad bc I have to wait for the junimo eggs to be back in stock, I want my bby 🥺💙
 
my eyes are really sore, especially the left one. for the last few weeks, the outer corners have hurt slightly when i squeeze my eyes shut and were a little dry. as of a week or so ago, i've also had unusually deep/visible bags that have been either dark red or purple-ish. as of yesterday morning, my eyes have started watering and stinging on top of all this, with the bags and outer corner dryness getting worse. my mom thinks it's hayfever, which i've never had before. i took a tablet this morning and yesterday morning but no improvement so far. wish it would stop.
 
I pulled my bigger heated blanket out of the hall closet bc it's so cold in here, but it smells really stuffy and weird 😩
 
Really not ready to be back at work this week. I feel like I didn't do enough this past weekend that I wanted to do. I'm also just really tired and don't have the energy to deal with whatever today is going to throw at me.

Edit: I just realized... I poured so much mental energy into the TBT Egg Hunt that's probably why I don't feel like I got a break.
 
I just realized something. So a few days ago, I didn't know where to put my sketchbook so I put it in between my mattresses. (I have two of those stacked on top of another.) And the other day my dad's friend had to sleep in my bed because they were staying for the night. (I had to sleep in my brother's room and he made me sleep on the floor...) I sort of forgot I left my sketchbook in my mattresses, and I didn't do a good job of hiding it either. So my dad's friend probably saw it, and worse probably looked through it as well. So far they didn't say anything about it, but now I'm worried about that. 🥲
 
Just found out my mom has covid. My dad stopped wearing a mask before this happened; my dad though can’t admit he’s wrong and he just said he doesn’t understand how for two years we were fine. I’m really upset and scared about all of this even though we’re vaccinated.
 
My head hurts and so do my eyes, I feel dizzy, and I'm super hungry. All I had today was a cup of tea. (Though I currently have two grilled cheeses sitting on a frying pan right now.) I don't wanna go to school tomorrow, and my brother + my dad's friend have been playing Xenoblade Chronicles 2 for the past few days. No bad feelings towards the game, but hearing the same music and sound effects can be tiring, especially since they play all day and at night when I'm trying to sleep.

Edit: I burned the grilled cheese because I put the stove option on high and left the grilled cheese there while I was writing this post. :(
 
I'm feeling kinda worried that I won't have enough eggs by the night to get the Spring Blossom egg. Also, when I submitted 3 puzzle clue guesses, I'm worried they may not be correct. Who knows really, I may just have to let fate decide.
 
there are some friends i have that i will never be able to hug
 
Sorry to hear about your depression hitting you hard @Venti it might not be much consolation, but feel free to hit me up with a message if you need someone to listen.
Neb said:
I finally figured out one of the reasons why I was happier as a kid and why I’m doing better this year.

I was listening to an NPR Life Kit episode on living happily with autism. The guest expert mentioned that many people on the spectrum “mask” their behavior to be treated better by neurotypicals. This in turn makes them exhausted and depressed. As a kid I never masked. People treated me poorly for being different, but I didn’t care. I was simply being myself. Once I became a teenager I did everything to mask myself. People saw right through me and saw my masking as being fake. I ended up being treated even worse. At the start of the year I decided to just be myself and try not to care what others think. My mood has been much better as a result.

I’m so glad I finally know what this term is. It makes my feel validated in my experiences of struggling to fit in. The part that makes me sad is that many of us have to mask our behavior. Otherwise we’re called creepy or weird. I’m doing better at just being myself, but it does make me sad that so many people on the spectrum have to do this to be social.
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Glad you're being yourself and doing what makes you happy. Life is too short to worry about and or try to adhere to some stranger's do's and don'ts list. Especially since there are so strangers out there in this big world that you're going to run into someone or a lot that won't accept someone regardless of what they do.

@Dunquixote
Sorry to hear that! It shouldn't be as bad since you've said you all have had the vaccine. Just take the necessary precautions and you may be able to avoid catching it yourself.

Take care of yourself and be well. I know there are quite a few out there that have that same mindset, but I've known people who've died from the virus and still are suffering from it. Heck my uncle died from it just a few months ago. Just because it's not blasted on the media does not mean it's gone or not serious anymore. But you can't explain that to everyone. So just do your best to take care of yourself. Sometimes that's all you can do.
 
Kind of sucks when you push away everyone close to you in life, and keep doing it over time. I don't know how to live life or what I want out of it.
 
TheDuke55 said:
Sorry to hear about your depression hitting you hard @Venti it might not be much consolation, but feel free to hit me up with a message if you need someone to listen.

Glad you're being yourself and doing what makes you happy. Life is too short to worry about and or try to adhere to some stranger's do's and don'ts list. Especially since there are so strangers out there in this big world that you're going to run into someone or a lot that won't accept someone regardless of what they do.

@Dunquixote
Sorry to hear that! It shouldn't be as bad since you've said you all have had the vaccine. Just take the necessary precautions and you may be able to avoid catching it yourself.

Take care of yourself and be well. I know there are quite a few out there that have that same mindset, but I've known people who've died from the virus and still are suffering from it. Heck my uncle died from it just a few months ago. Just because it's not blasted on the media does not mean it's gone or not serious anymore. But you can't explain that to everyone. So just do your best to take care of yourself. Sometimes that's all you can do.
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Tysm! I’ll do my best, not sure if I can say the same about my dad sadly, but my mom and I have been taking this serious since the beginning. I’m sorry to hear that about your uncle.
 
My partner got me a small bag of takis earlier today, and I've eaten them already. My stomach is screaming in pain right now. I regret all my decisions.
 
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