What's Bothering You?

Someone at work is ill and it’s the person who usually helps me when I have questions. Now I have to ask someone else, and he is the kind of person who thinks everyone is stupid except for him.
 
The ball on my new conch piercing unscrewed somehow and I had to struggle so much to get it back on, it hurts so bad 😭 I definitely irritated the **** out of it
 
I wish that learning languages wasn't so fricking difficult. Lately my dad's been talking about Astérix et Obélix (what I would consider a French staple), and it's definitely something I would enjoy if I actually understood it. Sure, dubs are a thing, and there is most likely an English one, but it won't be the same. Canada is generally a nice place, but I just had to be born in a province that's 85% French. At this rate I'll never be fluent in French, and I always feel so discouraged about it.
I feel ya on this...I'm actively trying to learn 4 different languages and it is just not going anywhere really. I've been working on French for about 4 years now and I still don't feel confident in it at all. I just want to know like 6 languages, that's all! 😅🤭
 
I ALMOST submitted a blank document for my Language Essay 😨😨😱 (This is why its good that I check what I submit before submitting!!)
 
Some boring meeting tomorrow and I have 100% no idea what it is about cause we have like no time going thru that plan lmao. Oh well.
 
Tired of people who need to be caring about things not caring about them, and people who don't need to be caring about things are. Life is lame...
 
it's pretty sad that my trust issues are so terrible that I don't even want my internship supervisor to offer to pay for my gas to get there when they need me. it's just that people have made so many promises to me in the past and they were pretty much all broken. I love remembering the times my dad borrowed money from me promising to pay me back and then he never did. I understand that the people working in this symphony are all nice people and really genuinely want to help, but I have an extremely difficult time trusting basically anyone, because the only person I could really trust completely in my life is my mom (I don't even trust my dad to take care of my dog or cat), so unfortunately the symphony people are gonna have to work pretty hard to gain my full trust.

I know I'm a piece of work, that's prob why most people don't want to put in the effort to get to know me lol.
 
it's pretty sad that my trust issues are so terrible that I don't even want my internship supervisor to offer to pay for my gas to get there when they need me. it's just that people have made so many promises to me in the past and they were pretty much all broken. I love remembering the times my dad borrowed money from me promising to pay me back and then he never did. I understand that the people working in this symphony are all nice people and really genuinely want to help, but I have an extremely difficult time trusting basically anyone, because the only person I could really trust completely in my life is my mom (I don't even trust my dad to take care of my dog or cat), so unfortunately the symphony people are gonna have to work pretty hard to gain my full trust.

I know I'm a piece of work, that's prob why most people don't want to put in the effort to get to know me lol.
As someone who has trust issues, I can understand how you're feeling. I had my promise broken a lot by my ex friends and a few of my family members. Its hard for me to open up to people because I fear that they could break my promise again. Again I know what it feels like because I've suffered so much in my life because of trust issues.
 
10 quizzes + 1 exam + 1 practicals + 4 group discussions all in 5 days hfjddkjdks the eyes shouldnt be this complicated but here we are

anyway i should get up and answer the quizzes so i dont cram them on the last day sigh
 
The ball on my new conch piercing unscrewed somehow and I had to struggle so much to get it back on, it hurts so bad 😭 I definitely irritated the **** out of it
Aaaah I've been there before lol. The ball on my tragus piercing fell off not long after I had it pierced and it was an absolute struggle to get it back on again. I feel your pain 🥲

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I feel like I'm missing out on so much right now. I've missed out on being part of or potentially managing some big projects due to my injury. They'll still be going when I eventually get back to full time work, but it's sad that I've missed the start of everything. My dads getting irrigation installed and I feel like I'm missing out on being involved in that too; I've been learning about water reticulation, Drainage etc. It's literally my specialty and I can't be part of it since my mobility is so limited 🙃
 
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sorry, i am mentally unstable and i wish you would not keep projecting all your issues to me. i want to be there for you but at the same time i cant handle too much because i also have other things going on in my life that i am already finding difficulty juggling on my own. it’s so hard for you to expect me to be your therapist; i am in no way a replacement for an actual professional. im sorry im just really exhausted seeing you around sometimes because you always bring something really heavy to the convo and i cant deal with it all the time

at the same time, i feel bad for those who expect me to “always be there for your friends!!” like Please i can barely be there for myself sometimes. i dont want to be a bad friend, but also understand that things are overwhelming on my end sometimes
 
My legs are swollen and hurting so much I'm just sitting here crying. I don't think I'll be sleeping for a while...
I mean they've hurt for 22 years but still...
 
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