What's Bothering You?

[-Lumi-]

Spoiler: Personal rambles

Oh my dad drives me crazy sometimes.

We’re in the middle of a heatwave and he has audacity to ask, “I bet you wish we would’ve moved now, huh?” As if it was my choice to stay in Ontario. He rolled his eyes and said that I was the one who didn't want to move completely glossing over the fact that he’s the one on disability/unable to get a job, that he’s the one who needs a family doctor ASAP and main floor accessible housing wherever we go.

That’s not to shame or belittle him for those things but those are the reasons we stayed. Because he didn’t want to have to try and reapply for disability in a new province and he didn’t know how he’d handle not getting a doctor quickly (he’s on a few medications and we’re not sure how those will be handled upon moving. He also refused to call/make an appointment with his doctor to find out).

I’m just so frustrated. I can’t even go to a different room to get a break from him because it’s over 30 degrees on the main floor so the upstairs is far worse.

I wish rent prices weren’t horrendous so I could just move out.

 

[Psydye]

My Switch has a faulty backlight and I'm not sure how it happened. Either I'm gonna have to get it repaired by someone(not sure who), repair myself(whom I don't trust) or invest in another Switch. *sigh*

 

[moo_nieu]

Noo noo, never say that! You are more important to people than you realize! I totally understand how you feel about medical bills, and hating everything, I really do. I'm so sorry you feel this way. Please feel free to PM me, okay? Call your medical facility's billing department - most, if not all of them have a payment plan option. Totally take advantage of those. Insurance is finicky - it always feels as though it's not worth it until you meet your deductible, but the amount needed to meet it is insane.

Last year, I had a surgery that just the surgery alone cost $125,000 but with all the other appointments associated with it, it was probably $200,000. I paid ZERO out of pocket, because I'd met my deductible already. Crazyyy!

Edit: my concept of time has eluded me. It was 2 years ago lol

wow thats awesome that you were able to get all of that off your bill! i do have some hope my bill can be reduced so im going to call and find out. thanks for the kind words. you and @Dunquixote are right, i need to remember that being kind isnt only for others its for me too and i shouldnt be so cruel to myself

 

[xSuperMario64x]

hell idk maybe I am aromantic who tf knows at this point


also incessantly stressing abt money and I can't stop yay

 

[rianne]

hell idk maybe I am aromantic who tf knows at this point


also incessantly stressing abt money and I can't stop yay

Props to you for sharing the journey of self love, reflection and identity on here because I'm still unsure of my sexuality and I'm nearing my 30s (although it is a lifelong journey, to be fair). <3 I hope you stay relatively patient with yourself as you figure it out. And it's okay to not have a definitive label just yet (or ever). Really. I also hope it doesn't stress you out to the point of affecting your quality of life; I saw the posts where you shared that your family is causing a bit of friction, unintentionally or otherwise. I'm sorry it's like that thus far.

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It's hair wash day. Bleh.

 

[Midoriya]

Nevermind.

 

[Neb]

I’m sick of people making agreements or promises with me and never following through on them. It’s hurtful. If you don’t want to do something or changed your mind say it. Please don’t leave the other person hanging. My ex did this daily and whenever someone else does it all of that leftover trauma comes back.

 

[Soigne]

feeling down and out lately. i'm not sure where to go from here.

 

[VanitasFan26]

Feel like everyday is just the same boring day and having to deal with personal life issues constantly has really made me feel numb. I don't know what to feel anymore.

 

[Dunquixote]

I ended up scrapping the drawing I was trying to work on yesterday. it left a bunch of eraser marks . I’m a bit frustrated that i have some good ideas but my skill level is far from being able to do anything with them. I am definitely not discouraged, I just am having a hard time keeping an idea simple. Like I was considering trying to draw my “oc” but i keep coming up with more interesting ideas and then I try them and welp, . I could just draw AC villagers, but I keep getting ambitious by wanting to draw something else. I do owe a few more friends some drawings though so... hmm...

 

[King koopa]

Today is a wierd day, I found out a girl in my class has a crush on me, but I don't know or like her so I'm not sure what to do

 

[Dunquixote]

I forgot again to look into getting a new phone. It is constantly annoying me how it goes off charge each time I move or type on my phone, yet by the end of the day, I forget. Got to make a point to when my mom comes home from my sister’s this week since when I draw using a reference on it, the vibration or sound of it going off/on charge gets so annoying.

Also bothered that I can’t just leave a tweet up without get anxious about it.

 

[Beanz]

i have to go to school tomorrow because i have to take stupid finals. i am more anxious about showing up to school in person than taking the actual test. don't even get me started on next year, im all ready anxious about going in person full time and idk how im ever going to make friends.

 

[EerieCreatures]

My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

Spoiler

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.

I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.

 

[Dunquixote]

I must have had water or something on my hand since now there is some really noticeable brown smears on my drawing. I’m upset since the drawing ended up being good (or at least as good as my limited skill can be) and it took a long time. good news is there were still noticeable smears from the erasing of the scrapped drawing in that area so maybe it doesn’t hurt it much worse :/.

Tomorrow my mom is visiting my sister’s for a few days. Not looking forward to doing the cat’s iv treatments with my dad since he doesn’t wash his hands when he goes to the bathroom.

 

[Foreverfox]

My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

Spoiler

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.

I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.

Even though I don't know you, I wish I could give you a hug. I can't imagine how much this all hurts. Maybe something small and unexpected will bring you a bit of joy tomorrow. I will hope so for you! And my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk to someone.

 

[Plainbluetees]

the lady at Walgreens wasn’t lying when she said I might have minor flu like symptoms after my second shot, but I didn’t expect it to be this bad… it hurts to even lift my arm and I have a massive headache. currently running on 2 Tylenol

 

[EerieCreatures]

Even though I don't know you, I wish I could give you a hug. I can't imagine how much this all hurts. Maybe something small and unexpected will bring you a bit of joy tomorrow. I will hope so for you! And my inbox is always open if you ever need to talk to someone.

Thank you, I really appreciate that a lot actually. I've been okay most of the time but, thinking about my birthday just brought up a lot of pain all of a sudden. That would be nice though, a little surprise, I'll hope for it too. ^^ Thank you again though, your kindness really means a lot to me.

 

[Dunquixote]

My birthday is tomorrow, and it's, kind of 50/50 situation honestly. On the one hand I'm excited, especially because I'll finally get to see the present my best friend made for me. But also, it's, weird. Might get a little heavy, so I'll put the reasons why in a spoiler.

Spoiler

So, earlier this year, my father passed away very suddenly. I didn't know he was sick until I got an email telling me he was dying and didn't have much time left. That was in the morning, and he died that evening. Overall, I think I've been coping with it pretty well. He was never really around, I mostly knew him from the occasional letter and a few calls, though those were mostly for my sister or my mom. Still, it hit me pretty hard yesterday, and today, that he's gone. That this year I won't get a quick phone call to say happy birthday or his trademark send flowers for every occasion. He's just gone.

And it's not just him, either. This is the first year I'm celebrating my birthday without my older sister. She's still alive but, we haven't spoken in months and the few times we have she, treated me kindly of badly. I don't even think she'll remember it is my birthday, at least that's how her behavior towards me for the last times I knew her, leads me to believe. We used to be, close as anything, for most of my life. And now it's all just gone and, I try to deal with it as best I can, but sometimes it still really hurts just, everything. I'll be honest, I don't have a lot of people in my life, even fewer that I'm actually close with. And now I've lost half of the few people who are most important to me in less than a year and it's. Feels really messed up.

I want to be happy on my birthday but, this is all just breaking my heart. and I don't know what to do.

I’m really sorry to hear that. Don’t feel ashamed if you aren’t in good spirits on your birthday or anytime soon. That is a lot what you’re going through. And when it comes to grief, my mom says there is nothing wrong with taking a long time to move on; it’s human nature to have difficulty and she tells me it’s okay for me to still cry and miss my two kitties who passed away over three years ago.

I’m sure your friend will understand if she’s aware of your situation. If you need to talk, my dms are open too. Hang in there.

 

[EerieCreatures]

I’m really sorry to hear that. Don’t feel ashamed if you aren’t in good spirits on your birthday or anytime soon. That is a lot what you’re going through. And when it comes to grief, my mom says there is nothing wrong with taking a long time to move on; it’s human nature to have difficulty and she tells me it’s okay for me to still cry and miss my two kitties who passed away over three years ago.

I’m sure your friend will understand if she’s aware of your situation. If you need to talk, my dms are open too. Hang in there.

Thank you, this is the second time you've said things I needed to hear, when I needed them, and I'm very grateful for that. ❤ I tend to be a bit hard on myself about getting sad, when I feel I'm supposed to be happy. Which doesn't really helps things much, I guess.
And I'm sorry, about your kitties, I have two of my own so I can imagine how difficult it must have been to lose them too.

My friend does know, and she has been really good to me and trying to help me throughout all of this. But I dislike troubling her with unpleasant things like this, especially with her birthday in a few days as well. I really do appreciate the offer to talk, and I will do my best.