What's Bothering You?

That where I live is soooo slow vaccinating and they don't allow people under 65 to get it before even if they need to go in for work n stuff, like okay make sure elders get their times then. Not all old people has a smart phone or someone who can help them directly....
 
I literally can’t do any job right, I have self-esteem issues, and today has been a crappy day so far. Wanted to cry earlier, but now I don’t even feel like crying. 🙃
 
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Or this better:
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I don’t have a purple star fragment right now anyways but I kinda still want to buy one? Ugh idk.
 
Looking at housing and seeing the rent prices just... makes me so sad and it reminds me that when I do finally get to move out I'll be alone. I need to get out of here and I'll be glad when I can but I already feel so lonely and distanced from people and I'm scared to think I'll have to be physically by myself too. I know I'll have my friends but it feels like something is missing. I'm afraid I'll never have more than that or know what it's like to be loved in That Way and I just can't help but feel like I'm not enough. The pandemic put things on hold but after it's over my friends are gonna have their relationships and jobs and they're gonna move on and I'm terrified. Everything around me is changing but I feel stuck.
 
so for those who don't know, mike rowe (the dude from dirty jobs) has basically said that minimum wage jobs are just "rungs on a ladder" and don't deserve a living wage. so he thinks that minimum wage jobs shouldn't be a full time career therefore you shouldn't get paid a living wage for it. the man who freaking made a show based around showing the actual amount of labor that goes into these jobs said this bs.

i grew up watching this dude's show and coming to appreciate the people who do these jobs for such little pay. i firmly know that there is no such thing as unskilled labor only undervalued skill. and to hear someone who absolutely knows and has seen just how much work the people who do these jobs do and how little they get paid for it and used this to make a freaking tv show out of say that they don't deserve to get paid enough to live infuriates me. you sir are scum.

and what's worse (and i'm kicking myself for not really realizing this) is that mike rowe has never actually had a minimum wage job in his life. he went to school for music and theatre to hosting broadcast television. he goes into the show making it seem like he's a blue collar worker, like he gets these folks plight, but he never has had to work a low wage job a day in his life. so that shows even more of a jerk he is.

plus he's for fossil fuels which is even worse.
 
I gotta get out of here as soon as possible. I will not be content to follow the lead of my parents and stay put for the rest of my life. I have to get away from them, mostly my dad. only he could take my totally awesome day and turn it into a game of guilt. he acts like he's never wrong and when we question him he calls us fools/defiant.
 
This is from my own personal experiences but I feel like all my friends who hyped up university or said there would be more freedom and enjoyment from it than high school kinda lied and overhyped it tbh. Not sure if it's because I have a really hard major or because I don't live on the campus of my uni but it's far from what they describe it as.

Also it's not like I can drop out or anything because I really don't have a choice rn ._. (due to the US Education system capitalizing education and making everything so expensive ugggh)

I know I often just go to TBT and to whine about my issues even though I know I'm in a much better position than some people but it's just I wish I kinda had a bit more control over my life and that I could be more confident in the decisions I make. I just want to feel okay for once and not have to worry about how I was making dumb decisions I made 30 years ago because I was forced to worry about college, debt, and just life in general when I was barely old enough to get a drivers license.
 
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work. my boss is becoming increasingly friendly with me, and now she's swapping around my schedule without any regards to whether i may have plans for my day off or not. i'm tired of consistently being understaffed and expected to out-perform how we've previously been doing. we keep losing staff, and yet our sales keep increasing. the workload is unbearable. my attitude is down the drain. i've never been an angry person, but every time i clock in i feel a deep body rage that lasts the entirety of my shift.

i've been applying to every job i can find in the area the last few days. i'm hoping something comes up. i'd love for the job at this local bakery i applied to to work out. it's a bit of a commute from my house, but anything beats my current workplace.
 
I couldn’t cry all day after what happened and then I helped my family with cleaning up dinner even though they said they could take care of it. And then I just broke down crying. I don’t know why there has to be so much hate, violence, and negativity in the world. 😭
 
My roommate keeps slamming his bedroom door and I can't tell if he is upset, or just unobservant.
The sound of doors slamming triggers my anxiety.
 
I’m starting to get genuinely paranoid about my ex. They knew my Discord, forum accounts, Spotify, and even my address. After they made that angry breakup playlist about me I can’t help but worry. I know I’m already being trash-talked since they did the same with their past exes. Will my replacement do something to me? Will I be threatened or sent something nasty in the mail? The anger I felt for how I was treated is mostly gone, but I’m so scared...
 
Knowing him it's honestly 50/50.
Throw a Snickers at him. That butt.
Edit: sorry that sounded flippant @Firesquids
I hope the tension gets resolved and know that I would confront them on your behalf if I was there...

I wish I had more time for art and didn't have to choose between drawing and sleep. XD
 
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My neighbour has two dogs and they use our garden and parking spot (where also our mailbox is) every single day as toilet. Our neighbour is 70+ years old and he never walks them and I recently noticed that he doesn't even open the gate to his garden to let them do their business there. Because why should he, it would ruin his "perfect" grass, am I right? Anyways, this is happening every day since more than 2 years now. The dogs even tried to go into our house at least twice, which is extremelly scary, because I have guinea pigs and a rabbit, which they could easily hurt / kill. My boyfriend went once to the neighbour, telling him about it, like 1 year or so ago and the neighbour didn't care at all.. okay then. So.. yesterday my boyfriend finally managed to get ahold of the neighbour and they talked normal, until he mentioned that he has enough of his dog ****ting all the time on his parking spot and garden. It's literally a maze of poop to avoid when we want to leave our house and man, I don't even want to go through the grass anymore. So.. suddenly the neighbours mood completely switched and he just said "Ok, will clean" and left. Later this day he knocked on our door, bf told me to stay inside, which I did. Soo.. the neighbour made a big scene, saying that my bf threatened his dogs (which he never did, we even always pet them, etc. because we don't have anything against them) and that there is not even any poop, so he's lying. Funnily enough, the neighbour literally stepped in one of the little bombs and when my bf mentioned it, he said he doesn't care and that's nothing. My bf ended up pointing out all the poop he could find quickly and the neighbours shovel was FULL. And trust me, he didn't even show the garden part. Anyways, neighbour tries to GRAB my boyfriend to physically hurt him, like wtf? Luckily it's a old man and honestly, he's lucky that my bf stayed calm the whole time or he could've easily ended up with a broken arm or so. Well.. now to the even better part. The neighbour decided to threaten our cats. If he ever sees one of them outside, he will grab it and kill it, like WTF?? Mind you, that all started by friendly telling him to please take care that his dogs stop using our house as a toilet. We kept quiet for YEARS and he freaks out, trying to punch my bf and threatening to kill our cats if he sees them. Well, if I ever see him outside of our house again, to grab any fruits of our trees, I will happily call the police on him. I'm afraid of him now knocking on our door, bf told me to just not open. I want to tell him my opinion so badly for threatening to kill our cats.. his wife saw it all and we are hoping that she is going to talk some sense into him, since she's quite a bit younger than him. If I ever see his dogs in our garden / parking spot again, then I will take pictures are proof and we will find a way to make them stop. At least we were and still are respectful and never tried to hurt anyone or threatened anything. It still makes me so mad that he tried to hurt my bf and the cats.. just because we have enough of his dogs ****.
GO WALK THEM LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE DO.
 
I'm not sure why I even bother answering people's questions in Facebook group's anymore. Someone was confused by something and asked a question to clarify so I answered and they took offence to my answer because they didn't like my reply. So I just deleted my reply and let someone else answer them because I'm tired of some people taking offence to every little thing that doesn't conform to their way of thinking.
 
I’m not a medical student, but I can totally emphasize with that. It really is a tough situation to be in :( No one warns you about what it really means to dedicate years of your life in a high stress course with so much memorization. About the comparing with others, money making, and insecurity, I definitely did that a lot as well.
Talking with a therapist definitely helped so I recommend that! It me build some confidence about myself, and becoming ok with the fact that even though I think others are miles ahead of me, it might not actually be true and not to beat myself over it. And being ok with the fact that I can go at my own pace without stressing about making money or having the perfect career that I think others are having if that helps with my mental health, there’s no set path that we need to follow.
Stay strong 🥺❤ I’d give you a hug if I could
thank you so much for the response! it actually helped me a lot and made me a little less insecure about where i am in life right now. a professor reached out to me a while ago and recommended that i contact the office of student affairs so i can get proper help. i'm going to call tomorrow and hopefully get referred to the right professionals. ❤
 
My old preschool has now had at least four confirmed covid cases. It could be even more since children don’t have to get a covid test if sent home sick they just can’t return until the symptoms have gone.

We have a handful of preschools in my town and none of the others have had a case. When I quit my employer had the nerve to tell me I was being ridiculous and the chances of catching it or bringing it home would be slim to none. That they’d be enforcing strong cleaning routines, prioritizing staff health, and being firm with not allowing sick kids in.

I guess somewhere in there the money became more important though, huh? I’m not surprised they’re cutting corners but it’s still disappointing. And ironic since the two owners loved to go on about how they ran the best centre in my town. Hopefully the children and staff are okay. Why they’re allowing child care centres to remain open after acknowledging it’s too dangerous to keep school open is beyond me.
 
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