why does it feel like once something starts going wrong, everything else in life just goes along with it? i just got my schedule at work for next week and it's literally so bad. i'm back to working 55-60 hours a week, and you know i wouldn't mind it so bad it that were every now and then. but it's every single week AND i'm one of the only employees that this is constantly happening to. i worked 55 hours a week for 4 months straight for a while, and currently i'm going on week 4 of 55+ hours again. i don't get paid much, so the overtime helps me save some up while also helping me pay off some debt. i appreciate it. but there are only like 15 people who work at our store and we're open 24/7? there's just something that has to give. every single one of my coworkers is on the verge of quitting because our location keeps getting busier, people keep quitting, and upper management is utterly useless. our district manager doesn't even know how to run a store.
i've applied to work at a luxury hotel a couple days back, but the manager there is being super unprofessional with me trying to set up a time to talk/interview. i don't even think i'm going to return any of his calls anymore, because only making $2-3 more per hour from where i'm at now isn't worth it.
all of my friends are getting these super nice jobs, most of them like government positions. and here i am making coffee in my early 20s lol. it's really hard to stay happy for them without being bitter that i can't find anything worthwhile in my town. ideally i'd move somewhere with more opportunities, but alas i am plagued with debt and need to focus on getting rid of that first.
then there are the personal relationship issues i'm dealing with on top of all of this. i've been seeing this guy for nearly two years now. we've never defined what we're doing before, everything was just kind of go with the flow. until i asked him point blank what it was that we were doing, because i thought to myself, surely if this were just a physical thing, it would've fizzled out by now. we would've broke things off, stopped talking to one another, and started dating other people. so i brought it up, and we're still in limbo. but what is that? i feel very bad about this. i really like and care about him so much, i really want him in my life in a more serious way than what we are now. and he agrees that things might happen in the future. but why so much doubt? why so much wasted time. i simply do not understand anything. i can't move past it either, because he really does mean a lot to me.
