What's Bothering You?

[moonbyu]

i've not known a moment of comfort or peace this entire time i've been sick and it's beginning to make me a little bit crazy. i've been here crying over it and i feel pathetic

 

[Tude]

Get well soon

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Gordon Ramsay making grilled cheese with Kimchi and hard cheese, in a fireplace. Is he using 2 or 3 cutting boards?

 

[Croconaw]

I just feel like my presence doesn’t make much of a difference here and nobody would care if I were to just not post. I like to think people like me, but I’m not sure.

 

[chocovelvetcake]

Lately, I've been considering giving up on zine making altogether. Ever since I discovered zines you can just look up what a zine is since it's kinda hard for me to explain, I always thought about making some zones of my own. Hell, I even thought about selling my zines to make money as a little side hustle.

The only problem is that I haven't made not one ****ing zine! I've been super busy with work, and I feel like my ideas aren't good enough. Maybe I'm just not cut out to be a zine maker. There's always going to be a zine that's better than mine anyways.

 

[ShawnFuzz]

I am feeling old (partially because I am). I was ahead of my time in the early days of computers and technology. I knew all of the DOS commands on early home computers, when nobody knew any of that.

But now... I can barely figure out how to navigate all of the games/apps and the basic details like connecting with someone else for a live game of AC or Chess, or anything...

It's depressing.

 

[Suguri]

-snip-

Hey I don't make zines but I know that mindset all too well. It kept me from enjoying my hobby of drawing for so long until recently.

I understand you may not have enough time because of your job. But when you do have enough to spare, don't let your insecurities stop you from pursuing your ideas. I'm sure there are people out there who'll truly appreciate whatever you make. There is no such thing as a perfect zine. Or a perfect thing, really. Do what you love, and love what you do. It should be all that matters, after all.

 

[-Raven-]

I kind of just found out something about my psychologist and I shouldn’t have been seeing her for so long at all and if she could just have spoken with me like an adult about it then a lot of pain, both then and in the future could have been avoided. I’m going to be reeling, this is her job and it just reaffirms my distrust in people again.

I was curling up and crying for a while over that. Apparently very real PTSD is just… not enough to have had a clear discussion about where things were going. I don’t feel like I’m good enough for people to respect me.

Also nondescript relationship issues. It should be enough to have each other’s company, I’ve wanted some things for a long time that are not happening because of circumstance and it’s been hurting me a lot. Oh well.

 

[Plainbluetees]

I got the norovirus. Highly unrecommended.

Spoiler: tmi

I've never thrown up this much before

 

[Giddy]

Just slightly irritating, but whenever I try and watch the Pokemon crystal walkthrough ive been watching as I play, so some MAD reason, the video is just blurred every-single-time.
I reload, its fine for a few seconds, then goes back to blurred. All my other youtube videos I am on, are not blurring.
I delete cookies of other sites, I turn my laptop off and on again. STILL BLURRY

Its insane, its not the persons video either because unfortunately I would find out via watching it on my switch instead, I say unfortunately because it means thats probably the only way to watch it now.

 

[VernalLapin]

I have an earache??? Ughhhhh

 

[Psydye]

People who treat the homeless like crap. Really irks me.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: Ugh...

I have a big-ass headache that's bothering me. I get headaches every day anyway, but it's worse than usual. There's nothing more I want to do than sleep it off (especially since I went to bed at 6 AM...), but I'm also trying to fix my sleep schedule so it's only going to worsen that problem. I have to go to the pharmacy to get a renewal for my meds, yet I can't even bring myself to wash the dishes. I'm so tired and my head hurts too much.

I'm also worrying about my future again. I had a talk about it with my parents last night, and I just burst into tears out of pure stress and frustration. No matter what path I choose, I'm going to be stressed and miserable. I don't see the point of life, and I'm scared of growing up. My 18th birthday is less than a month away, but I still feel like a damn kid. I wish I was more sure of myself and didn't stress so easily, especially when the smallest of setbacks could cause me to have a crisis.

 

[SkyKnight03]

My aunt went into an alcoholic rage and screamed so loudly at her daughter she threw up. (her daughter also has autism and doesn't respond well to yelling).

I've been on the receiving end of my aunt's screaming too. (and have been attacked by her physically).

Narcissism + Alcoholism is hell walking on earth.

 

[Croconaw]

Edit: I made a new post.

 

[Dim]

Ordered another marker pad because the one I got wasn't keeping the marker on. This one is bent. The entire pad. I'm getting sick of Amazon.

 

[Croconaw]

Deleted.

 

[Tude]

Spoiler: I’m literally asking to be cancelled lmao

I HATE having to hear my deadname, and I hate asking my grandma not to refer to me as such because ‘I don’t like my name.’ I hate the fact that I’m basically calling my deadname ‘my name’ when I ask her not to call me that. If I tell her it’s NOT name, she’ll get upset, but I guess that’s me just making assumptions. I should give her a chance. Give the woman that refers to Trump as “Mr. President Trump” and tells me his great he is a chance. I hate the fact that I’m also not a fan of Kamala and that I refuse to talk politics because my opinions upset 100% of the population. Seriously, the voting system is ****ed. There are 8 billion people in the world and I’m expected to believe that the same two ****ing political parties win every single time? Absolute crap. I try to stay silent about my opinions because I’m very aware this forum is very liberal and that’s fine, but my views almost always set people off because they aren’t completely left or right. I’m not about to state specific things that I agree or disagree with since I’m not looking for arguments, but it hurts that people who have voted for Trump are such *******s. It sucks that I have to listen to how LGBT people are a disgrace. It sucks that my grandma has no clue that I’m one of the disgraces to America. It sucks that I hate America and the direction in which this country is headed, and it sucks that some people would blame me because I have not voted in favor of the Republican or Democrat party. I have voted in the past, but it was for a third party candidate because I agree and disagree with both sides. I also hope I don’t get flack for this post because, yes, I do have some conservative view points, and I will not discuss this further. I just think everyone’s opinion needs to be heard and nobody should be silenced because they are a minority. I refuse to be seen as a bad person because of this. My candidate will never win, but at least I’m voting my conscience.

I may be willing to discuss maturely in PM my conservative view points which are very few, mainly related to labor unions. I’m open to discuss and maybe that could help me understand, but for now, I do not support. Do not reply publicly about this point please.

I hate that I have to stay silent as long as my grandma is around. I hate that I have to bottle up stress each time she calls me the name it says on my ID. I feel like I should tell her, but I also don’t feel like getting slapped. I hate her, the ****ed up voting system, and I hate America.

It's all good! I don't support Rump or Copmala, either. I don't hate America, though. Women and LGBT+ people still get stoned to death in other countries. Things aren't perfect in America but it really could be so much worse.

That doesn't mean we should settle. We should always strive to change things that aren't right. Real change doesn't come from elections. It comes from the actions we take in our everyday lives because no politician cares about anyone but themselves.

Stand up for the person being picked on, volunteer in a food pantry, etc. Just be kind and always call out injustice. Politics won't help you: your fellow human will.

 

[VernalLapin]

The symptom of the day is crappy congestion headaches.

 

[JellyLu]

My dog has a cough. Working in the vet field, I know a cough can be due to a lot of things. However, considering his age and the fact I can easily rule out heartworms or viruses he can get from other dogs.... signs are starting to look like early-stage heart failure. I'm really hoping that's not the case. I plan to bring him to work soon. Diagnostics without meds alone is $400 with my employee discount Whatever it takes to make my baby better....