This year a guy who asked me out the year before left my high school. I still see him at track meets and it's so awkward between us. I feel like I need to see him and I look forward to going to meets because of him, but at the same time I don't know if he wants to see me and it makes me want to run and hide. When he asked me out I told him that I wasn't ready for a relationship like that, even though I did want to date him and had had a crush on him for a while before. I'm scared that he hates me and thinks that I never liked him to begin with. I know it's selfish of me to think this, but sometimes I believe I'm the reason he left. Of course, that can't be right, he doesn't think of me all the time and it's egotistical of me to think that. Tomorrow I have a track meet and I want to say something, but I don't know what to do.