Same here.
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I feel like if I was shown what my life was going to be like and all the troubles and dilemmas I'd face beforehand, then I'd choose not to live. Whilst this world is extraordinary and magnificent, I'm so insignificant. I'm not going to add to the greatness of this world. I'm just going to live a normal/sad life and do some kinda cool things and then die. I don't know. Some people deserve to live for sure, but for me, living isn't worth it.
Although whilst I'm alive, I might as well try and make the most of it. I'm really not going to leave much of an impact, because I'm just one person in a world of seven billion and counting. There's so many other people out there better than me and I'm just... So... Ordinary. I suppose I'll try living a content life whilst I have to live, but not many people have really made me want to stay alive. I would love to be able to visit certain places and to be able to experience certain things and to be able to fulfill some of my dreams, because at least then I could die happily and peacefully.