January for me this year was...interesting. The first half was very boring, which is how January is in general for me. But after the 3.0 update for ACNH arrived, a switch flipped. Not only was I having fun with the update, but some good things outside of Animal Crossing also happened. On the 20th, I finally had my Social Security appointment. Then on the 29th, I had a doctor's appointment to get me referred to a neurologist. The only thing I am worried about, is it possibly happening on the 9th. I have a dentist appoint on that day, and my grandmother is really adamant and strict when it comes to my dental upkeep, so I am a bit stressed about the 9th. >_<
Also, I cannot explain, but I felt very...weird through the second half of January this year (still kinda do). But it wasn't in a bad way. Usually I just feel like crap, but I actually felt "weird" in a non-bad way.
I am looking forward to getting the 9th out of the way. That way, I won't have to stress about my dentist appointment anymore. I won't get my hopes up TOO high, but I MIGHT finally get my bank account sometime this year if the social security stuff goes smoothly this year. I still need to get my social security card sometime between now and then, though. Hopefully, I can get that done sometime in the Spring.
I have also been doing a lot of outlining lately, for possible future books I intend to publish once I have my bank account and other needed tools. My main dream jobs have changed over the years, but being an author has always been something I considered as a runner-up dream job, even during my florist era--I have just been a lot more sure of it for the past few years (since around 2021). I do not know if I mentioned this, but I have thought a lot about what do do for my debut book. At first I was considering it to be about self-shipping. Then I decided that it is a bit controversial for a debut book. So then, I was considering making my ASD book my debut book. But I decided I wanted to start off with something more personal (mainly because I want to pass it on to my family), so I finally decided to do an autobiography of sorts. I want to lay bare my experiences with NF1. While the physical aspects are pretty mild for me, I feel like it has deeply affected me from a psychological standpoint. While not diagnosed, I heavily related to both Autism and ADHD, and my family members just do not get that my brain is wired differently.
While I really want my family to read my future books (especially my debut), I will try to keep it under wraps for a while. I want to build a reputation for my books, so that I have some reinforcement for when I do have my family members read it. Plus, I kinda had to lie to my dad a while, telling him I "don't" want to be an author anymore. Why? Well, he was starting to have unrealistic expectations of me, harassing me to win a Pulitzer prize. Even after then, he still brings it up. He even had the audacity to tell me he would expect even more, even if I did win a Pulitzer >_<
It was screwing with my sanity and mental health, so I lied, in hopes of getting him off my back. But yeah, unrealistic expectations is definitely a topic I want to eventually cover in one (or even a few) of my books as well. There are many parents out there, like my dad, that expect their children to be as exceptional as possible. Look, I COMPLETELY understand wanting your child to be successful, but the way my dad has gone about it? It will do more harm than good, for both your children and yourself.