Ok well I hope this doesn't seem like a desperate need for attention.
I really just need advice, from faceless people who can be as honest as possible.
I'm 17, going to be 18 next month. I feel really weird because I'm going to be an adult; legally. But I don't feel like one. And the people who raised me treat me like a child and it makes me so angry. I tell them to stop talking to me like I'm five years old but they do it on purpose at times. I feel like I'm going to blow up. Also, someone I've known practically all my life, who I consider a best friend, is leaving soon. He's going to college; while I'm not.
It's not that I'm stupid, really, I'm not. But I know it's odd coming from someone who plays a video game about talking animals and little happy villages; but I'm really a bad person. I do many things that can be considered wrong, and that get me into trouble. What makes me really sad, is the fact that everyone around me is drifting away; on the boat called maturity. While I'm staying behind, still going to high school until I'm 19 and most likely working at a low wage job while the people I care so much about are in their new stage in life and forgetting all about the wild weirdo that is me.
My friend, who has the same name as I do, is the only person in the world I can truly say I trust and tell everything to. But lately I've noticed that we're drifting apart and I don't know what to do. I can't blame him though, I've also been spending a lot of time with my partner, but now it's just becoming ridiculous. Where before we could have dinner and then get some Starbucks now all I do is call.
Well where I really need advice has to do with the final days of him being in this small town. See, me and his ex girlfriend have never gotten along. So much that we can't be in the same room together. He spent Halloween with her, Thanksgiving, everything I can think of. And now I'm afraid he's going to invite only her to his graduation party, and when we have to see him off to the airport. If I don't end up going to say goodbye to him I'll be crushed. And I don't know what to do anymore about this...I feel like everything around me is just being turned upside down. I used to be a spoiled brat, getting everything I asked for now I have to get a job, and thinking of moving in with my partner...
Anybody feeling the same, have advice? Sorry for the long read. And if it felt a bit too self loathing. But I need help..
I really just need advice, from faceless people who can be as honest as possible.
I'm 17, going to be 18 next month. I feel really weird because I'm going to be an adult; legally. But I don't feel like one. And the people who raised me treat me like a child and it makes me so angry. I tell them to stop talking to me like I'm five years old but they do it on purpose at times. I feel like I'm going to blow up. Also, someone I've known practically all my life, who I consider a best friend, is leaving soon. He's going to college; while I'm not.
It's not that I'm stupid, really, I'm not. But I know it's odd coming from someone who plays a video game about talking animals and little happy villages; but I'm really a bad person. I do many things that can be considered wrong, and that get me into trouble. What makes me really sad, is the fact that everyone around me is drifting away; on the boat called maturity. While I'm staying behind, still going to high school until I'm 19 and most likely working at a low wage job while the people I care so much about are in their new stage in life and forgetting all about the wild weirdo that is me.
My friend, who has the same name as I do, is the only person in the world I can truly say I trust and tell everything to. But lately I've noticed that we're drifting apart and I don't know what to do. I can't blame him though, I've also been spending a lot of time with my partner, but now it's just becoming ridiculous. Where before we could have dinner and then get some Starbucks now all I do is call.
Well where I really need advice has to do with the final days of him being in this small town. See, me and his ex girlfriend have never gotten along. So much that we can't be in the same room together. He spent Halloween with her, Thanksgiving, everything I can think of. And now I'm afraid he's going to invite only her to his graduation party, and when we have to see him off to the airport. If I don't end up going to say goodbye to him I'll be crushed. And I don't know what to do anymore about this...I feel like everything around me is just being turned upside down. I used to be a spoiled brat, getting everything I asked for now I have to get a job, and thinking of moving in with my partner...
Anybody feeling the same, have advice? Sorry for the long read. And if it felt a bit too self loathing. But I need help..
