Lepidoptera
Senior Member
Where to start off. I still feel something isn't right inside but no one believes me anyway. My own family doesn't believe me(I've stopped telling them about it) To be honest I'm pretty sure its something bad. The one time I needed doctors they let me down. One even pretty much telling me it was in my head.(even though my past records showed I only ever went to the doctors once every two years) I've come to terms that if its cancer I will die. It would be for the best in the end. If something happened to my family I'd be screwed.(has no clue how she would make enough to survive on her own) I'm the product of an over controlling father and over protective mother. Plus my completely screwed up childhood that haunted my memories for a long time. My friend does not even know about it, I just can't bring myself to tell her. Its just one of the reasons why I'm a mental mess. I didn't really understand until I was a little older. I wonder sometimes if that is why I don't get involved in relationships. Then again I don't get attracted to anyone so maybe not. I've put that behind me for the most part.
