So I proooobably shouldn't have gone back to normal activity today...I spent the whole day feeling super sick and I still don't feel good. Luckily it's the weekend.
My anxiety is already way up and I haven't even heard thunder yet. I've gotten into a paranoid state where I will freak out over sounds I mishear (as the tornado siren). I hate dealing with this type of weather...
Scratch that, I just heard thunder while typing this.
I need to eat and take my medicine still, so right now I’m feeling kinda miserable and frustrated. Edit: just took my medicine and I can already feel in kicking in. I’m feeling much better; still frustrated and feeling negative about some stuff but my mood is at least improving.
I like my sister’s dog but I don’t like it when she’s here because it bothers my cats and messes up my routine and stresses me out. I usually am better about it but this week has been the worst and having her here has not helped my stress at all.
On a plus side, she and my niece are going home now.
im doing good right now. have been going to my grandparents all day for the past few days as my aunt came with her baby, and as she lives like 1-2 hours away she comes to stay for about a week at a time before she goes home. always a treat to see my beautiful little cousin, and to top it off my uncle came with his toddler so two bundles of joy in one day! my mood is good right now, but as i have very bad motion sickness the drives to and back have been dreadful. ive been feeling nauseous, have a piercing pain in my head, and my stomach and back hurt. overall not comfy whatsoever. my head has been feeling.. spacey? like i drift off into another world without a thought in my head. its a very odd feeling that i cant explain. but, all in all i am feeling good and am in high spirits!
I've been feeling pretty good lately. I finally feel like my negative thoughts and emotions have stopped consuming me. I've been feeling more energetic and happy, even. Things with my family's gotten better now, too.
I’m feeling extremely stressed, drained and tired and overall like crap. I tried going to bed early but my brain would not shut off; I’m feeling a bit restless too.
I feel really anxious and overwhelmed today. It's about those variables that is delaying my projects which aren't negative, and are actually positive. I just don't want to go into detail about them here. But it contains a lot of details and information and choices and things to consider, and I was trying to work through some of those today. I feel pretty tired from that, and still not done and won't be for a while.
Ugh, I know this post sounds negative but it really isnt, it's just tiring and it's just decisions that have a lasting effect after they are made so care is needed.
I also feel happy that my arm is improving. So I think it was a bad sprang that was having major delayed swelling. The swelling is almost completely gone now, but still bruised and weak with some pain. It still needs support and gives out but it's doing better.
I also feel sad and I can't quite put it into words on how or why. I think it may just be a branch of my anxiety.
I have a really bad head ache. I just woke up and I had a dream that reminded of some people and other things in the past that I didn’t want to remember, so iI’m a bit depressed too. I’m way to stressed to look at anything on here so I’m going to try taking a break at least for today.
I feel a lot of things. However my focus right now is to try to relax. Last night I didnt really sleep. I got some sleep in the morning for a couple of hours. There are just different things on the mind, and I probably drank too much tea yesterday. I did discover this heater fan noise video on YouTube that is super soothing and makes me feel extra warm, so I may try that for a little while. I don't want to fall asleep in my chair again because I don't want to risk hurting my arm more/again if I conk out randomly, but at the same time I really don't think I'm going to get to sleep laying down in a bed. I feel too restless. And besides, when I m in my chair I have my tiny dog with me who helps put me at ease. Maybe one day I can get the bed that I need to help me but for now, I think my chair will have to make do.
I’m feeling a bit better today. Still stressed and troubled by some stuff but I’m feeling more reassured since I talked to someone about it last night.
sick. I am sick. I woke up feeling perfectly fine, and now I have a runny nose, sore throat, headache, and possibly aches and pains.
I'm gonna be super busy for the rest of this week working on a college assignment, and now I get to try to juggle that and everything else AND being sick!!!!
I’m sleepy, I’m probably going to go to bed right after posting this…
I’m happy that tomorrow’s a day off for me, I’m thinking about what I might want to do. I usually just hang out at home on my days off since I live in the middle of nowhere and it’s a bit of a drive to get anywhere interesting, but I think I might be up for some shopping tomorrow since I haven’t been in a while.
I'm happy that I feel a bit more ready to post again... :3
But I also still feel a little off. Every time I go on TBT now, I feel like I shouldn't be here. I know I said it once already, but the forums don't feel the same. Even with the new event later on. I don't know if I'm ever going to participate in it at this point.
I think I'm starting to get used to my Vyvanse, as today I'm significantly less jittery than I have been since starting this stuff. Pretty sure the sertraline is kicking in too, since I feel more at peace today than I have since the start of January.