Does anyone have depression, anxiety, and is/are medicated for it?

[marzipanmermaid]

Thank you for all the comments; I've been trying to figure out how to respond to everyone or just my own post in general. I know it won't be an overnight fix, but I hope it'll fix something, you know? I keep hearing from both sides of the spectrum about it's effectiveness so I feel even more nervous about trying because what if it's just a waste of time? But I don't like feeling this way. I don't like the constant doubting, racing thoughts, crying, wanting to end it all, nightmares. I keep having this dream where I take a bunch of pills and get into bed with my boyfriend and just go to sleep in the one place where I find peace with the one person I love; I wake up upset that I dreamt that to begin and that I'm still alive... I can't handle much more. It's overwhelming. I've been told I have a slight case of PTSD to go with everything else and I'm not even sure how to go about addressing that. When I think I've come to terms with everything, something new is remembered and I'm sent into this spiral of trying to cope, hating myself, and resisting the urge to self-harm. I haven't really self-harmed in maybe a year or two; I had to promise my boyfriend I'd stop after the bruises on my arms and legs were too much to ignore. The final straw was when I had punched myself so hard and so much that I lost feeling in my arm for a couple of days. I've stopped pulling my hair out, but I've resorted to slapping or hitting myself in the face on occasion.

I'm not sure what to expect from my appointment. My boyfriend's going with me because I'm not sure if I'll go through with it once I get there. I keep thinking I'm getting things under control and then I lose control all over again. I'm really tired. Mentally, emotionally, physically.

I'm desperate, I guess. Desperate for normalcy, control, peace.
I never thought I'd have anything to lose and now that I do, I want to try to fight.
If I lost my anything, I'd guess I'd give in and let this consume me because I don't really have much left.

I feel broken...

 

[Mewmewmewm]

Yeah I take 4 different types of medication every night （≧∇≦）
Don't worry it's nothing to worry about. The only thing I wouldn't recommend is self diagnosing. So many people do that and it annoys the crap out of me (^.^)
just a warning, please don't do this for attention. Honestly I hate being around like people like that. It's pretty rare that I meantion that it to anyone, much less announcing to the whole school or forums. Don't take diseases as just another excuse for attention, take it as just another struggle you have to climb.

 

[marzipanmermaid]

Why would I do this for attention...? I'm 22 years old, not a child in high school trying to be special snowflake. I don't glamorize mental illness, self-harm, or any of that in any way whatsoever, especially when it's in your family and you lost a cousin to suicide.

Not trying to be snippy, but that comment got under my skin. Maybe I'm being too sensitive because I'm having a low tonight. But, who lies about being sick? Who wants to be this sad all the time? Who wants to lay in bed, wanting to sleep, but can't because your brain won't let you? Who wants to hurt themselves to make the hurt inside go away? Who wants to think about killing themselves and how and where and what's going to happen and worry about what your loved ones will think when another person in their life has offed themselves? What the love of their life is going to think and do? Who pretends to be "OMG SO SAD !!!111 " for fun? Sounds like one pathetic individual. Mental illness isn't the new black or a trend or something to cash in on or a "get out of jail free" card.

I'm not using this as an excuse. I'm not some loser looking for attention via mental illness.
I'm just sick of feeling alone and for once I'm trying to reach out, ask questions, and see what others have to say.
Maybe I felt like this was a safer place for me to "announce" everything that's been going on.

Like I said, sorry for being snippy.
But I don't appreciate that comment.
Maybe I took it the wrong way.

 

[Mewmewmewm]

Sorry if I came off the wrong way, I really didn't mean to sound rude or mean any offense to you. I guess I'm just so used to seeing people say
"LOOK I HAVE A MENTAL ILLNESS, LOOK AT MEEEE" and not respect the people who have to deal with it.
But I never meant to imply you were like that at all. I guess I just was in kind of a bad mood when I posted that, so I'm sorry if I offended you. When I was born my dad had depression, so low and behold when he had me it eventually passed on to me too. After cutting myself for so long I decided to seek out help from a doctor and a counsellor, and with the medication and help from my family and friends I got better. However after I finally became a much happier person all my friends were suddenly in the "imma cool kid emo phase". I hated how they would act like cutting was something to be proud of.
I never(or felt like I didn't) imply that you or anyone commenting on this thread like that and I agree with you on what you said. I guess I just kinda suck when I try to express my feelings to other people. I tried to comfort you but I guess I failed.
I'm very sorry for any offense you took to that comment.

 

[marzipanmermaid]

It's okay. Like I said, I'm super irritable and edgy because I'm having a horrible night mentally and emotionally. I'm sorry for jumping down your throat like that. I snapped. I'm sorry. Sincerely. I took it the wrong way.

 

[Mewmewmewm]

It's okay. Like I said, I'm super irritable and edgy because I'm having a horrible night mentally and emotionally. I'm sorry for jumping down your throat like that. I snapped. I'm sorry. Sincerely. I took it the wrong way.

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Sorry... Agh even in the reply post I keep sounding like a jerk. Sorry, not the best at typing my thoughts. I wish you good luck on your doctor visit. I may seen scary at first, but it's not all that bad （＾ν＾） Thinking back I'm pretty sure I was trying to cling to my mom as I went in to talk to him.
Good luck *thumbs up*

 

[Neriifur]

I don't take medicine, but I have depression, anxiety, and have been locked up in mental hospitals due to suicide attempts. I've been suffering from that stuff for about 20 years. I know how to control it from mostly taking over my life now. (Not completely, In permenantly ****ed in some areas.) If you have any questions, you can message me. I'm pretty much an open book on this stuff. Not sure if I've talked to you before. I've talked to a few people who are struggling through it.

 

[Saranghae]

Yeah I've got pretty severe depression and a few other things under my belt (that I'd rather not mention here). Some of them I've had for as long as I can remember but I got officially diagnosed around two years ago. I take Prozac and I just increased my dosage a week or two ago (to 40mg) and I've been feeling SO much better, it's so nice and relaxing not being sad and anxious about everything all the time. I'm sorry that you have to go through it and I'm sorry to everyone else who does too Coping skills help a lot!!

 

[marzipanmermaid]

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Sorry... Agh even in the reply post I keep sounding like a jerk. Sorry, not the best at typing my thoughts. I wish you good luck on your doctor visit. I may seen scary at first, but it's not all that bad （＾ν＾） Thinking back I'm pretty sure I was trying to cling to my mom as I went in to talk to him.
Good luck *thumbs up*

I think it'll be okay. I'm taking my boyfriend with me because I just don't like doctor's in general and this whole deal has me so nervous that if he doesn't go, I might just run out of the place, lol. I've never really been on medication, aside from birth control, so I think that's what's kind of intimidating. I keep hearing such horrible things about getting on medicine that it kept me from making an appointment for years. I've been putting this off for awhile... Depression runs in my family, at least on my mum's side. I've watched it hurt her for years, along with every other woman in my family. I hate it.

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I don't take medicine, but I have depression, anxiety, and have been locked up in mental hospitals due to suicide attempts. I've been suffering from that stuff for about 20 years. I know how to control it from mostly taking over my life now. (Not completely, In permenantly ****ed in some areas.) If you have any questions, you can message me. I'm pretty much an open book on this stuff. Not sure if I've talked to you before. I've talked to a few people who are struggling through it.

We have spoke before! Well, I messaged you about PTSD and you were very kind and replied with such a thorough answer and I just couldn't get myself to reply because I didn't know what to even say about my whole situation.

 

[UchiCherry]

I have social anxiety but I don't take anything for it, I've had it pretty much all my life, I don't want to take anything for it, but I don't want the anxiety. I wouldn't feel myself if I recovered from my anxiety, but I still don't want it.

 

[Neriifur]

I think it'll be okay. I'm taking my boyfriend with me because I just don't like doctor's in general and this whole deal has me so nervous that if he doesn't go, I might just run out of the place, lol. I've never really been on medication, aside from birth control, so I think that's what's kind of intimidating. I keep hearing such horrible things about getting on medicine that it kept me from making an appointment for years. I've been putting this off for awhile... Depression runs in my family, at least on my mum's side. I've watched it hurt her for years, along with every other woman in my family. I hate it.

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We have spoke before! Well, I messaged you about PTSD and you were very kind and replied with such a thorough answer and I just couldn't get myself to reply because I didn't know what to even say about my whole situation.

Oh okay, I thought so xD I couldn't directly remember your name, but I thought it looked familiar. It's okay, it can be difficult figuring out how to explain these things or even knowing what to say at times. I didn't figure out what was causing all my triggers until later years, but eh I found out. Just remember you're never alone and it will get better eventually Of course you don't have to believe me, I never believed anyone when they told me that when I was younger. There's some things that still get to me, but overall I'm a happy person to be perfectly honest.

 

[RhinoK]

Anxiety or Depression?

Well I've never been clinically diagnosed
But I'm not in the best of mental health

 

[sn0wxyuki]

I have minor depression myself and currently under some therapy. Doctor asked me to be more cheerful and live in the present more than the past (I often recall back the bad memories and it throw me deep down to depress) but my parent noticed nothing about it, they don't care if I am depress or sad, they just think I am bad temper. I am not happy at all, at home. Doctor advice for me don't really work much if I still at home, I can't be happy here, I don't. Often suicidal thought came to me and I just wish I can die right now, or some fatal illness happen on me, I won't be sad, I don't care if I have 3 month cause that will be my most enjoyable days til the end.

But since I went for the therapy every weeks I don't feel so depress lately, at lease someone (the doctor) is there to listen to me, give me advice I need and I felt so much better right now, still a little down but is better much.

 

[Isabella]

was diagnosed with both but i refused to take any medication, the side effects aren't worth it and you're basically being given this false hope of fake happiness relying on a pill and it'd be hard to ever come off it if you use it for too long, i think in extreme cases sure it's fine to medicate someone with it. but it can be managed without these expensive anti depressants. it also just depends on the person and how they are able to cope with it, and if the medication will even work. i'm doing better compared to last year, it doesn't completely go away for a while but trust me it gets a lot better if you try to find other means to deal with it. i wish you luck with it either way and i hope you get better

 

[Omfa]

I refuse to talk to a doctor about it, but I'm pretty sure I've had it for a long time. It keeps getting worse and worse. I can be up at nights crying, only because I think I'm a failure. I know I should probably check up on this, but I just don't want to. I'd rather kill myself than let people around me know(even though I'm pretty sure my dad is getting an idea of it). I know Internet test are bull****, but I took three test just to see what they'd say. And, the result was, well... just take a look at it for yourself: http://imgur.com/a/iMr3J
Either way, I've heard of people that were in the same situation as me, that it'll get better. I might feel a little better once summer comes. That's kind of what I'm hoping for. I know I'm not going to kill myself, anyway(So please, do not pay any regard to the tests. They're exaggerating.). Either way, I felt like I needed to share it, so thanks.

 

[Gizmodo]

I have Depression & Anxiety stemming from another main cause.. so i don't have them fully, they are just caused by what i'm going through
I have to have psychiatrist appointments once a month, to be approved of treatment

 

[Momonoki]

I take medicine because of my aniexity and OCD problems, and they do help! Just stay calm and be around people you are comfortable with, do things you are comfortable with <3

 

[gingerbread]

Yes. I suffer from anxiety attacks, I feel weak because of it. I'm used to being.. more stronger than this, and i'm also afraid people only see the bad parts.

I'm working through it though. I have bad days and good days.

i'm somewhat thinking medication may help though - I don't want to feel like this any longer ><

 

[ThomasNLD]

I take medication for avoidant personality disorder and borderline.
I feel medication is a very difficult subject. When done right, it can really make a lifechanging difference.
But when done wrong, it can ruin your life even more.

My only advice is to keep talking with your psychiatrist about what the medication is doing for/with/against you.
When you give up on your doctor, you give up on yourself. So always stay in communication with him/her, when it really isn`t working out, ask for someone else.

 

[Pipsqueak]

Medication is not always so bad. There was some trial and error for me (and probably most people?), but it was really worth it when I found the one that helped me. I had to get off the meds eventually, but I don't regret taking them, even with the side effects. It was certainly better than dealing with the anxiety on my own.

I think it's REALLY important that you trust/agree with your doctor. Ask them about the side effects, and if you're not sure about trying it, ask about an alternative. Not all doctors will understand exactly what you're struggling with, and they might just hand you their favorite go-to medication. It's okay to shop around.