So my knee surgery is a lot sooner than I thought it would be... it's this Friday in the AM. I know I'm physically prepared for this; I would do anything to be able to walk normally again. But I'm not mentally prepared... they have to go in and replace a piece that broke off the underside of my patella, and they're also fixing the ligaments in my leg too.
I know it's gonna hurt like hell for a week or two afterward, but right now I can't even do a left side leg lift. At all. I can also only bend it a little bit, and put no weight on it.
Oh boy, I can tell the road to recovery is gonna be a long one... I can't put any weight on my leg for like 8 weeks after the surgery. And I'll probably be in physical therapy for a while.
Why can't this just be a really bad dream? Wake me up please!!
Anyway, something weird now... tried calling my job coach because she called really early from the usual number (she's got one work phone iirc and one cell) and I couldn't take it by then bc mom was screaming and I was half-asleep. Tried earlier, said she's be back at 3 pm. Tried around now for her work phone, got to some completely other girl I had no idea of who that is, nor did she or anyone there say I'd talk to her? Tried her cell, got the same thing. wtf. i kinda need to reach her if it was her...
Ugh I can’t sleep again. I’m just gonna have to hang around on my computer and make myself get bored and fall asleep.
Also, to know that I’ve got so much to catch up on school gives me stress already. Lately I’ve been having dreams about school and they were good dreams, but I’m not sure what to get out of them.