Ohhh I see, so you'll be starting school later?
I definitely get what you mean. I used to have thoughts like that before, and I honestly still do. I get that it's something you can't help or stop all of a sudden. I'll just say that you shouldn't waste your time on people who use you or insult you. Try chatting with other people (especially if you take any classes), it's always a good thing to get used to talking to others ^^ Helps overcome certain fears, too