What's Bothering You?

I've had a really short fuse lately...and I've also cut my coffee intake down to once in the morning, because I was actually having some pains in my heart the other week (coffee used to make me cough a lot too). All that seems fine now. But, yeah...the short fuse thing continues to be a problem. And, it's not like it's completely unjustified. I feel like I put up with a lot (especially at work)...but there is only so much that you can let people take advantage of you. I'm trying hard to meditate more (which is something I already do a lot). But, there's gotta be a way to block out more of it than I already do.
 
I can write an essay on the events of the past year (why I've been absent), but just still feeling the effects of it all.

Loose ends, when I'm trying to move on.
 
I am going to scream. My dad is at risk if he catches covid. I quit my job specifically to keep him safe. He’s now eligible to be vaccinated and he’s telling me doesn’t want it?? That it’s poison??? 🙃🙃🙃

Thankfully I worked at a pharmacy a little while back and when I nipped into the pharmacy today I spoke with my old coworker. They’ll call my dad tomorrow to talk with him and I really hope he agrees.

He doesn’t seem to understand that A.) I won’t be vaccinated for a while yet B.) even when I do get vaccinated I think they’ve said people who are vaccinated can still carry/give covid meaning my vaccination won’t protect him.


Aahhh. 🙃
 
My drawing turned out worse colored than it did without being colored; and i messed up while outlining.
 
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i think i've finally broken and went insane- i just spent an hour talking to my stuffed animals.

what is even my life at this point? am i just meant to sit and rot? my friends and families lives all have meaning, what about me?
 
i think i've finally broken and went insane- i just spent an hour talking to my stuffed animals.

what is even my life at this point? am i just meant to sit and rot? my friends and families lives all have meaning, what about me?
You're young and still have your entire life ahead of you. For now all you need is to focus on getting good grades and exploring your hobbies and interests. As you get older you'll have less time for these things, so enjoy it now while you can!
 
I am going to scream. My dad is at risk if he catches covid. I quit my job specifically to keep him safe. He’s now eligible to be vaccinated and he’s telling me doesn’t want it?? That it’s poison??? 🙃🙃🙃

Thankfully I worked at a pharmacy a little while back and when I nipped into the pharmacy today I spoke with my old coworker. They’ll call my dad tomorrow to talk with him and I really hope he agrees.

He doesn’t seem to understand that A.) I won’t be vaccinated for a while yet B.) even when I do get vaccinated I think they’ve said people who are vaccinated can still carry/give covid meaning my vaccination won’t protect him.


Aahhh. 🙃
Hey Lumi, I had this EXACT same scenario play out with my mother. She is definitely high risk as she has COPD, but because she was constantly watching the news and hearing people having bad reactions to the vaccines, she told me she wasn't getting the vaccine.
This back and forth argument went on for about a month.

I was FINALLY able to get her to agree to the Pfizer vaccine, and (I know this part will sound unfair, but it's how things go) because I work in healthcare I was able to get her in promptly.

What I had to do to make this happen was point out A.) that she won't be able to go to family gatherings moving forward because even though all her children/grandchildren would be vaccinated they could still pass the virus on to her. This swayed her a little, but the game changer I brought up was that ALSO moving forward, people are going to have to present their vaccination certificate to go certain places and get into certain facilities. This sealed the deal. Knowing that she wouldn't be able to travel, or join her bowling league again is what sealed the deal.

So my advice to you is to find something your dad loves to do, and pretty much let him know if it involves traveling or visiting certain venues for hobbies/entertainment etc. we will eventually be at a point where he will have to provide proof that he's vaccinated to be admitted.

Best of luck to you...trying to look out for the best interests of a stubborn parent is literally one of the most exhausting things to do lol
 
I think... over this pandemic I’ve just lost sight of the things that are important to me. And I’ve forgotten how to laugh more and how to be serious about things more. Also need to cherish my time with my family members who are still alive and I haven’t been doing that. And to cherish my friends like I haven’t been doing. I need to take some time to figure this out. :(
 
I usually stay off social media just because things tend to upset me really easily. I went on tiktok (bad idea) to watch some cat videos and ended up falling down the rabbit hole. I started looking at the pages of other girls in my town and instantly became jealous about what they were doing- parties, etc. even though theres a pandemic going on and they obviously shouldn’t be doing that sort of stuff, something inside me just wanted to join? idk. theyre very popular (we all know how that goes) and everyone likes them (can’t seem to think of a reason besides that they’re rich and attractive) so obviously me being a girl who kind of doesnt have many friends wanted to join them?

being a virtual student has made me feel like i’m missing out on a lot; idec at this point who i hang out with i just want to have some sort of social interaction :c
 
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I usually stay off social media just because things tend to upset me really easily. I went on tiktok (bad idea) to watch some cat videos and ended up falling down the rabbit hole. I started looking at the pages of other girls in my town and instantly became jealous about what they were doing- parties, etc. even though theres a pandemic going on and they obviously shouldn’t be doing that sort of stuff, something inside me just wanted to join? idk. theyre very popular (we all know how that goes) and everyone likes them (can’t seem to think of a reason besides that they’re rich and attractive) so obviously me being a girl who kind doesnt have many friends wanted to join them?

being a virtual student has made me feel like i’m missing out on a lot; idec at this point who i hang out with i just want to have some sort of social interaction :c
i relate to this so muchhhh omg. i havent hung out w friends in over a year and it hurts soo bad to see my friends hanging out w their friends without a care in the world. especially seeing my best friend hanging out w her friends makes me sad because shes my best friend and ive been dying to hang out w her :c
 
Haven't seen you in a bit.
Ah hey! Long time no see :)
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sick and tired of my job. i have an interview tomorrow that HAS to go well. i can't keep working 55 hours a week where i'm at now. if i get this job that i'm interviewing for tomorrow, i'll try to work part time making coffee here. but nobody listens to or respects anything i have to say, my boss constantly rearranges my schedule with short notice, and i'm constantly asked to cover for other people knowing that they would never do the same for me. i've had enough.
How'd the interview go?? You deserve better than that.
 
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I thought I'd be okay moving to a city with no one I know. I'm pretty good in my own company. But I can't help but feel a bit...alone. it's part of the reason I want to move into a flat with other people, otherwise I'll probably never socialise with others and I don't think that's very healthy lol.

I get anxious walking around the main street and shops in fear that I might find someone from work and they'll question or judge me for being alone. It's a very small city so the chances of running into someone I know is fairly high. My workmates already think I'm incredibly quiet, and that kinda makes me weird.

I'm trying to fit in somewhere and I can't help but feel like an imposter.
 
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