What's Bothering You?

[-Apples-]

Spoiler: may come off as whiny

i’m starting to dislike going to college. i just don’t feel like i’m good enough.

Apologies if this sounds whiney btw.

Wish I was able to make friends easier cause I don't have any close friends at all. The only close friend I have is my brother but since he's in college and in a completely different city we don't do stuff together frequently besides just call each other on the phone.

I don’t think you guys are whiny. And if you are, it’s okay to be whiny on this thread since it’s a venting thread. As long as you’re not being toxic, you are free to vent regardless of tone.

Anyways, I feel bad for both of you. College is stressful, and not having any nearby close friends is devastating.

 

[Midoriya]

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[chocovelvetcake]

Spoiler: sorry this may come off as depressing

I feel so broken and stupid for having autism, and I feel like I'm some kind of burden to those who are around me. Sometimes, I wonder what my life would be like if I was "normal" like everyone else.

 

[Midoriya]

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Spoiler: not sure if you're okay with a reply, but thought I would anyway

I also have autism and have lived with it my entire life. You're not broken and stupid for having it, that I can assure you. Nor are you ever a burden to those around you. I wonder the same thing sometimes, but the reality is that that will never be possible because that's not who we are. Maybe in some alternate universe if I didn't have it, I'd end up having less problems. Or maybe I would end up having more because without it I'd actually be a rude and insensitive person? These are thoughts that have kept me up at night a lot in the past.

I've been getting the feeling for awhile now that hate and intolerance doesn't come from any one group of people... it can come from anyone, even people who have are on the spectrums themselves. That's why I've always thought it's important that no matter how bad you may be feeling, to still keep pushing forward, because even though we may have things that limit us, we're the only ones who decide how much those things limit us.

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon. The world is a dark, cruel place, but it doesn't have to be if we don't give up. Sending you much love.

 

[moonbyu]

sorry to sound so whiney but i really hate group work SO MUCHH
WHY WHY WHYYYYYYY i'm too socially inept for this!!

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: Just thinking...

I wish I was closer with my stepmom, but certain factors (like a language barrier) hasn't helped in terms of bonding. She's been in my life for over a decade and has done so much for us, but I don't want her to think it's gone underappreciated.

I try to show that I care, but I still feel like it's not enough. It's obvious that I'm a lot closer with my dad, but I love both my parents. I don't have much family that I'm actually close with besides them and my brothers, but still.

My dad told me one time that my stepmom would've liked it if my brothers and I called her "maman", but refrained from saying anything in fear of making my biological mom jealous. (Which isn't a problem now, to put it lightly...) I don't know.

I hope one day I can talk to my stepmom face-to-face about this, but I'm not ready for that yet.

Unrelated (but it's still bothering me), I'm having a hard time getting myself out of bed and doing things. I've been taking antidepressants for almost two weeks, and I know that the effects take a while to kick in, but I feel like I'm back at the beginning.

 

[KittenNoir]

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[VernalLapin]

I feel cringe and stupid and not in the cool way.

I intended to get up and make dinner, and I’m frozen in place by this feeling.

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Hoooly ****, my brother pisses me off beyond belief. He has such a ****ty attitude and horrible mindset, and I'm sick of his negativity (my parents are, as well). He's still growing, so I hope he'll mellow out in the future. He's kinda been a douche for a while, though.

 

[JellyLu]

I really wish this hurricane would've passed while the sun was still out. Rain is relaxing at night, but coupled with wind so loud I can hear it inside my house.......ugh

 

[azurill]

I really wish this hurricane would've passed while the sun was still out. Rain is relaxing at night, but coupled with wind so loud I can hear it inside my house.......ugh

Same here , hope you are safe. The rain seems to be not as bad here at the moment but the wind is still pretty bad and we’re still in a tornado/flood watch.
We have been without power for a few hours and I don’t see it coming back anytime soon.

 

[JellyLu]

Same here , hope you are safe. The rain seems to be not as bad here at the moment but the wind is still pretty bad and we’re still in a tornado/flood watch.
We have been without power for a few hours and I don’t see it coming back anytime soon.

I'm safe, and I hope you stay safe. Thankfully my power is still on. I hope yours comes back on sooner than you think! We were in a tornado warning but that passed.

 

[azurill]

I'm safe, and I hope you stay safe. Thankfully my power is still on. I hope yours comes back on sooner than you think! We were in a tornado warning but that passed.

I’m glad you are safe. Thanks we are safe too. Not sure when the watches will end since my weather apps are not updating or working right . Probably because of the no power. That’s good that you have power. Hopefully the storm passes quickly and everyone stays safe.

 

[-Daydream-]

My head hurts a little D:

 

[Seastar]

Spoiler: Gross health stuff?

I've been suffering from tonsillolith and right now it's scaring me because I can't tell what's going on. My brain thinks I might choke but that hasn't happened yet. I am still scared, though.
Also, I'm supposed to have a wind advisory go into effect in a few hours because of the hurricane and I really don't need two things to raise my anxiety at the same time.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I suddenly received some closure with a friend that I once fell out with. Not from my friend directly but a third party.

It wasn't exactly good closure. But it was better than nothing at all. (we'll probably never speak again and I fully respect the decision).

Although I now sit with my thoughts. It's very lonely yet bittersweet. When I was depressed I wasn't always the best person to be around. I had been looking to make amends and even hearing "no, we hate you" was better than nothing at all in this case.

I was never able to make new friends despite my attempts. The least I could do was apologize to old ones. The intent was never forgiveness though. I genuinely had some unresolved regrets. I guess I can finally put one of those to bed.

It is lonely though.

 

[amemome]

got laid off so we're in sad mode for the near future

 

[Firesquids]

My neck is so damn tight, I need a better office chair.

 

[Giddy]

why did my alarm wake me later than necessary, woke me up 30 mins before 7am which is the time I need to get out the house. ;_; What a friday man.

 

[Giddy]

Why was it busy today DX I wanted to sit down at work cause I have a long walk to do straight after. Top ot off its also pouring with rain.