So there's this large group comprised of more than half of my batch mates, and they all love going out and drinking. I'm good friends with some of them since they are my batch mates, but I'm not included in the group of friends because I don't go out as frequently as they do. One of my good friends recently thought that they should include me in the group too since, as I said, I'm close with a bunch of them. They said they had to "initiate" me by letting me go out with them to drink and party and stuff, and at first I thought, "Cool, I'm going to be one of them too, I just have to survive a couple of hours being uncomfortable at a party and they'll accept me," but then I realized like right now how ****ty it actually sounded?? I mean what the hell, I'm not going to get stressed in public just so these people will accept me and become my friend, friendships just happen and true friends accept one another from the very beginning, not because they did something uncomfortable that was pleasing/amusing to the other.
I'm not going to accept my friend's offer into the group lmao I don't need to adjust to them to have more friends, I prefer those I can personally know better and accept my introverted "sometimes-I-want-to-go-out-and-sometimes-I-want-to-be-alone" self, and I have no reason to be jealous of not being in the group when their system of expanding the group is ****ty tbh :^)
Also if I want to drink, I'm going to drink for myself and not so that others will accept me lol. Gotta maintain my alcohol intake bc I'm allergic to too much alcohol.