This will be my third lost.
The first was my great grandmother, who ironically past away on April's fools day. When I got the call from my mom I thought it was a joke but she was serious and I really didn't know how to take that. I was very close to her and throughout my family, they're all overly protective and she really didn't want to tell me she was sick in the first place or that she was dying from cancer till the last minute.
The second lost was my own mom.
What's so painful about her is that I seen her dead body. Not in a casket but actual cold dead. My two little sister(who I hardly see now) woke me up out of my sleep to tell me she wasn't moving downstairs. We were living in Arizona at the time so no family. My uncle and my aunt had to come and get us. My mom died from stress, made her heart heavy.
Lastly and newly is my Aunt.
I'm sad, blank, and angry.