watercolorwish
Happy🎃Halloween!
i just had a huge fight with my mom about getting a job. im 16 and wanna make money off my art but it seems so difficult without drawing nsfw or something. i stayed home from school today because i didn't want to deal with classes. i'm so stressed about balancing art, school and sports. and now i have to think about a job. i'm so sad i dont have any idea what to do and what i'm gonna do after high school. im not gonna lie i was thinking about killing myself for a split second this morning after the fight which was weird since i never usually think about that kind of thing but i just feel so lost right now i'm not good at anything but art and even then im not great at it so its hard to do anything right now
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its not even anything at school thats the problem either its mostly just the thought of trying to balance so much stuff thats overwhelming. it makes me not even wanna go to school. i've missed so many days of school this semester i just don't know what to do. i'll probably get kicked from the track team which would be so embarrassing and my grades are terrible so i really don't know how the coaches would react to that. and i still want to make time for art but then i have homework. its so hard to do anything too
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its not even anything at school thats the problem either its mostly just the thought of trying to balance so much stuff thats overwhelming. it makes me not even wanna go to school. i've missed so many days of school this semester i just don't know what to do. i'll probably get kicked from the track team which would be so embarrassing and my grades are terrible so i really don't know how the coaches would react to that. and i still want to make time for art but then i have homework. its so hard to do anything too