you even seeking help is a good sign. my therapist told me this the day after I attempted.
right before I attempted about 5 years back my freshman year of high school, I posted all over FB freaking out and seeking help and people to call, etc. etc.
let me start by sympathizing with you. Im truly sorry you're going through this, I have too. I created a formspring that year which is a website where people can anonymously ask question or in my case, push me to hurt myself. I was cyber bullied there and the whole school knew about really dark things that happened to me in my past due to a selfish ex best friend. I know what it's like.....
I wonder what you're cyber bullied on.... you're such a beautiful soul. I've seen you around, you're wonderful and I'd be delighted to be friends! you have to know that people who bully you behind a screen will never in a million years have the strength to say it to your face. they are pathetic and can't deal with the negativity in THEIR life so they take it out on others which is just so....... PATHETIC! please, feel free to pm me who is doing his and I'll gladly stand up for you as I have no tolerance for bullying. either this, or simply block everyone who crosses paths with you that don't know how to be nice.
please, if this is hurting you too much, please! just take a break from the internet. it's a dog eat dog world in the real world and on here believe it or not... maybe you need a break here and to just take some "you" time. the internet can consume you which makes you vulnerable and allows people to target you. most of all though... easier said than done.. BUT FORGET ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING TO YOU! you need confidence, you need to have an understanding of how absolutely beautiful and amazing you are and how you could potentially change the world one day! you need to not give into whatever people are saying because in the end they're just low-lives who target everyone they see vulnerable and it gets you! you need to change your mindset and start being happy. I did it, and let me tell you, after all I've been through it was the hardest yet most rewarding thing I've ever done. I now kill people with kindness if they ever try to hurt me now or start getting a tone.
I was young when I attempted. now that I'm almost 20, I've completely changed my mindset and attitude. I learned to love myself because in the end, you're all you have. you have been given a beautiful body to walk such a beautiful and mysterious planet and you need to cherish that. not everyone gets to live and experience all life and earth has to offer. you don't have to hurt yourself. you have to love yourself. I wish I could hold you and rub your scars and tell you to stop and to look at it as things you've overcome and things that are now in the past.. that's the way this should be - in the past.... please? we all love you. we care for you. we don't want you to do this. it's not the easy way out, it's not going to solve anything, it's going to hurt everyone you've ever known, and you will regret it. this hits home for me too because I've watched three of my friends throughout high school end it and they wouldn't even tell us the real story, they masked it... they didn't even say goodbye to me. I felt useless and upset.
so many people love you and you don't even realize it.... we need you. your family needs you. the world needs you - the beautiful soul you are. you amaze me and I know you have so much potential. I want you to have the world in your hands because you deserve it. I want you to love yourself and be confident because you are an unexplainably fascinating human being. I want you to make friends who will stay up all night listening to you vent and going out to do fun things because I want others to see how beautiful you are. I want you to tell these "bullies" to stand down and back off before you take action because that's the strong person you are...
now, officials have no tolerance for cyber bullying, I can tell you that. I have a few police officers in my family who have told me the same. you could always have print outs ready to bring them in to them if its this bad. but most of all, I have no tolerance for it and I am so sorry and hurting that you're going through what I did. I cherish you and admire you and want you to over come this...
please pm me and add me if you'd like to talk ever. I am always here for you.
if you don't want to talk to me, I understand. it was hard for me to open up to others too.. especially over the internet, I'd imagine it'd be difficult so please look into counseling sessions - my therapist (saw for 7ish years stopped a few years back) has gotten me rough some dark times..... if not, I do suggest a hotline for you. the number for the national suicide prevention lifeline is as follows; +18002738255, they are open 24hrs & 7 days a week.
again, you're a beautiful soul and you deserve to live and walk this earth and experience all the beautiful things it has to offer. you deserve the entire world and more, love. thank you for being you. you can do this..