I’m feeling a bit depressed & kinda lonely. I just took my medicine so hopefully it kicks in soon. I think tonight my mom is making tacos so I’m excited about that at least and my Among Us session.
I'm exhausted I'm in the middle of moving and I feel like I'm at the worst part. Most of our stuff is packed but the official move isn't until next weekend. So our place is a wreck, almost all our stuff is in boxes, and there's still so much to do before the actual move. I work this whole week leading up to the move because it's more work/stress for me to take a day off than to just work.
I've been awake since around midnight. It is now after 3:30am. It is a work day. I'm going to suffer.
Although the past few hours have been pleasant. After accepting sleep wasn't going to happen I started watching a range of short and interesting documentaries.
I’m not feeling very good. I woke to a dream reminding me of something in college that I don’t want to remember. I was okay after that since I was working on a drawing until now. But now, my head feels a little funny and I’m feeling frustrated - a little with my drawing and no reason aside from that. Also, someone is visiting right now from a family friend’s relative and I kinda heard some of the conversation since my dad talks so loud. I picked up names mentioned and so I assume they were talking about the murder of a someone who we were close to that happened a couple years ago and the court decision; also hear some political talk which I don’t want to hear. I still can’t stand hearing the name of the murderer. I’m feeling really overwhelmed because of this and also still because of wanting to do so much. Been a bit upset and annoyed again about two other things. Nothing I can do though.
it's super humid today and so there's a risk of thunderstorms later on today - don't really like it when it's humid and i'm out since it makes my asthma worse
my cramps are still lingering and popping up despite it being day four!!!! my migraines keep popping in, thankfully it was near the tail end of my shift today
idk i feel lethargic? it sort of feels like i'm just going on auto pilot, i think i'm just super low energy today
I’m feeling tired. I think I did manage to doze off a little with my girls a few hours ago but I still haven’t been able to fall in a deeper sleep. Aside from that and being drained from being so stressed earlier, I’m feeling okay. My dad is at work so it is quiet now and I’m really happy to be home.
So I've had a chronic illness since late December of last year and... I think I've finally overcame the worst of it. It's honestly so crazy how we may be fully functioning, then one thing happens that totally changes your life. I'd really thought that that was my life from there on out, and that really changed how I valued my time with others, and gave me a newfound appreciation for the moments I could spend with them. So anyway, I'm good!
For me right now, anything but great. Not liking how my brain is handling schoolwork. I think it's associating anything school-related with...negativity? Not everything, but still. I don't react well to the environment there, so that might be the reason.
I’m pretty good, I think, just feeling a little social anxiety even though I am sure that I’m okay. A little annoyed at myself because I wanted to work on my character but I spaced out and Idk for how long. I think maybe because I have ideas but am not sure how to draw them. I guess I feel also a little overwhelmed and a small bit of frustration with my ideas; I got a lot going on in my head but I’m drawing a blank when trying to figure out something to draw out.
Also still worried about something I’m waiting for in the mail.
Edit: I’m honestly a bit down right now and a bit tense, maybe a bit aggravated or a little annoyed. I’m not entirely sure. I’m still trying to work on an idea but still am drawing a blank. I’m hoping my mood gets better later.
Feeling bored and unmotivated on a work night, again. I really don't understand why this always happens. A lot of people I talk to keep suggesting that I go to the gym, but nobody understands that I really don't want to at the moment. The places on the internet I typically go to get social interaction have been very quiet as of late, so I've pretty much hit a brick wall mentally. I mean, there are other places to converse at, but I really wouldn't know anyone and the topics might be sensitive or not be of interest to me.
Ugh. Being completely alone and only conversing with people much older than me at work is really dragging me down and making me cranky. At least my music library keeps me company, but come on. I can't make friends if all my old ones stopped talking to me over a year ago and I show up by myself to in-person events looking like a confused fool. I hate to sound desperate, but I want to chat about stuff...