Woke up feeling good, now I just wanna get everything over with for tomorrow. Also tired, offended, and stressed. I've had to keep on editing this post more than once because I couldn't tell whether it was going to change or not.
I’m still waking up, so I’m still a little tired. I’m also still feeling a bit sad and stressed from yesterday. I’m trying not to think about it. Right now I’m working on a drawing. I noticed I used the wrong shade of a color for something but I was able to fix it. I’m really happy with how the little add ons to the drawing are turning out. I feel like they kinda look a bit out of place with the center part of the drawing but at the same time I think they still make sense and can work since I’m kinda drawing it like a small collage. I’m excited how this turning out. I was stumped on the coloring and shading of a part in the center; I put the center part aside but eventually I’ll have to come back to it .
Tired and unmotivated, I have so much to do but I can't get myself out of bed. Also annoyed since my family won't leave me alone. Wish I had a day off tomorrow, but alas.
i'm soooo sleepy, had another opening cash office shift today and just want to take a nap
having a cup of coffee and listening to upbeat songs right now trying to stay away - also catching up on some of my manhwas
I’m not feeling that great right now; still feeling stressed and a bit frustrated about some stuff that happened and triggered. I’m happy and grateful for the support from my friends though.
Haven’t been able to sleep yet either. I’m hoping Jewels will let me sleep now lol.
On a more plus side, I think I figured out the main problem for one of my entries. I wish I had figured it out before I submitted it though. I did ask for feedback but didn’t get any suggestions on what could be fixed.
Also, earlier, while working on a drawing, I got some ideas for another drawing or two if I’m not burnt out by the time I’m done with this one. I’m happy I’m starting to get motivated to draw again.
Tired mostly. Long night at work then had my teeth cleaned and now my mouth hurts. I have teeth on each side of the two front ones on top that are crooked so doing anything to them hurts.
Feeling anxious. I have an appointment at 10 tomorrow morning and I'm scared. つ﹏⊂
I just know I'll get overstimulated easily and I don't want to have another autism meltdown surrounded by strangers.
A little anxious and discouraged but nothing terribly new.
Maybe a tad sad, but honestly anxious is the word that sums up feelings best. There is stuff I want to do, but I'm basically waiting on the weather er.. season, to change. Like removing chewed up carpet, paint a room, setting up a yard sale or something to get the clutter out, moving and setting up tanks, moving the garden beds since the trees were cut down, planting stuff which the focus this year is potatoes and bell peppers..
And then I just want things better for other people who are struggling. I get the struggling. Like seriously no joke. I just kinda stopped caring for myself on it so there is less suffering in that because there are simply things outside your control. When a door shuts, it shuts and sometimes the window isn't big enough to fit through. You can still try other doors, but there seems to be a trend of them being locked. (I'd sit in the woods and find peace still if I had too because I am just done in so many levels since about 2018??) But when you care because you just do or you have particular responsibilities, struggling is worse to endure while trying multiple things to see if something works.
But yeah anxious is a great descriptor.
Maybe a tad hungry, but it is like 4 in the morning and I'd rather eat later in the day to make the most of it since I am weird with eating because pain and junk.
Just woke up without a need to finish any homework because I already did ‘em all yesterday. I'm glad I could just do whatever I want for the next thirty-ish minutes, but at the same time I'm apprehensive about what's coming next. On the other hand, I've been playing around with ideas for another collage I might make when I have free time, so that's fun. I think they're selling Dog Man stickers on Amazon, so perhaps I can put them to good use?
Also, I keep thinking about my partner, and I miss talking with them sometimes. I feel bad about how busy we've been lately.
staying home from outpatient today because of a windstorm. sleepy.
kinda scared that i’ll fall into the same pattern as i did on weekdays before starting this program… just kinda doing nothing all day and procrastinating on work + chores and feeling vaguely anxious about it until i feel guilty enough to do stuff.
i want to try changing that, though. it’s just hard. i’m so tired ;__;
A tired since Jewels and my anxiety kept me from sleeping well today; still feeling drained from drama. I’m still anxious about a couple things. I’m tired of my anxiety too. Maybe I should take some time off here and to myself. Breaks never help though and usually makes me feel worse.