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I'm a child, so a lot of my opinions and feelings are affected by Tumblr, since I've been using it a lot more lately.
It's not really anyone's fault but mine, but I feel like a lot of negative feelings are caused by Tumblr, or people's impression of it. For example, my gender. I'm genderfluid, as you can see in my user title. My pronouns change with my gender, which changes every few months. It's pretty infrequent, and I've been a girl for a long time, since November. I'm designated female at birth. The longer this goes on, the more I start being terrified that I'm just being a fake special snowflake who wants to be different. But at the same time, I want to stay a girl, or even a boy, just something that isn't non-binary so it'll be easier to describe my gender to people, and easier to feel comfortable and happy with myself.
I'm otherkin too. No, I'm not like the troll blogs on Tumblr that act like plants. Otherkin is basically a spiritual or psychological connection to something fictional or nonhuman. It could also be used as a coping skill involving identity. In my case, it's a spiritual connection. It's just a silly little part of me that makes me feel good. It's not really hurting anyone, as far as I can tell. Some people take it more seriously than I do (though not necessarily troll blog levels), but they're not hurting anyone either. It's just a harmless belief we have.
Tumblr's also a place where I've heard things such as the idea of sapiosexuality being ableist, and white people are racist by default (whether they intend to be or not) and I agree with a lot of those things, but aren't I supposed to accept people no matter what? The main way Tumblr affects me is that I'm absolutely horrified of being a bad person. I'm fourteen years old, I have a lot of time to change and grow, but what if I don't? What if it's like my music taste and I never bother venturing outside of what I like hearing? I want to be a nice person, but the truth is I'm absolutely bitter and hateful about anything I don't agree with (though this doesn't apply to minor things such as opinions on coleslaw). It's really, really hard for me to change my major opinions. It really sucks. I have a lot of feminist and social justice beliefs, and I base a lot of my opinions off of those, but I'm so scared of being morally wrong.
I just needed to rant a little. I know it seems like it has nothing to do with Tumblr, but a lot of my feelings expressed here are based off of that horribly functioning website. Thanks, and sorry if I offended anyone
I'm a child, so a lot of my opinions and feelings are affected by Tumblr, since I've been using it a lot more lately.
It's not really anyone's fault but mine, but I feel like a lot of negative feelings are caused by Tumblr, or people's impression of it. For example, my gender. I'm genderfluid, as you can see in my user title. My pronouns change with my gender, which changes every few months. It's pretty infrequent, and I've been a girl for a long time, since November. I'm designated female at birth. The longer this goes on, the more I start being terrified that I'm just being a fake special snowflake who wants to be different. But at the same time, I want to stay a girl, or even a boy, just something that isn't non-binary so it'll be easier to describe my gender to people, and easier to feel comfortable and happy with myself.
I'm otherkin too. No, I'm not like the troll blogs on Tumblr that act like plants. Otherkin is basically a spiritual or psychological connection to something fictional or nonhuman. It could also be used as a coping skill involving identity. In my case, it's a spiritual connection. It's just a silly little part of me that makes me feel good. It's not really hurting anyone, as far as I can tell. Some people take it more seriously than I do (though not necessarily troll blog levels), but they're not hurting anyone either. It's just a harmless belief we have.
Tumblr's also a place where I've heard things such as the idea of sapiosexuality being ableist, and white people are racist by default (whether they intend to be or not) and I agree with a lot of those things, but aren't I supposed to accept people no matter what? The main way Tumblr affects me is that I'm absolutely horrified of being a bad person. I'm fourteen years old, I have a lot of time to change and grow, but what if I don't? What if it's like my music taste and I never bother venturing outside of what I like hearing? I want to be a nice person, but the truth is I'm absolutely bitter and hateful about anything I don't agree with (though this doesn't apply to minor things such as opinions on coleslaw). It's really, really hard for me to change my major opinions. It really sucks. I have a lot of feminist and social justice beliefs, and I base a lot of my opinions off of those, but I'm so scared of being morally wrong.
I just needed to rant a little. I know it seems like it has nothing to do with Tumblr, but a lot of my feelings expressed here are based off of that horribly functioning website. Thanks, and sorry if I offended anyone
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