.....not the best. i've been tired all day, and for a good portion of the day i've felt uncomortable and gross about everything. i want to fix my sleep schedule today by staying up all day until i can go to bed at a reasonable time, but i'm really tired right now and i honestly don't know how long i'll end up sleeping for if i did take a nap. ugh.
i'm having one of those weird moods where i feel really homesick. but i AM at home. uuuuuuhguhgughughughuuggh.
I honestly don't know how I feel. I am happy and energetic, because I had a really nice time today with my friends in rehearsal for our school's musical, but I am also stressed out by the musical because we open in 19 days and we just got off book yesterday, and not everything is choreographed. I also made a pretty big mistake in my solo today and I'm disappointed in myself a little bit. On the other hand, I went out to lunch with the rest of the cast at Panera and had an amazing time, as well as during the rest of the rehearsal. I also have midterms this week which are kind of stressing me out, my family is having financial troubles, and there is someone in my family that has cancer and ugh. I am just ready for everything to be calm. I would prefer to not be staying at school until seven every night, but I have to, and at least I am doing something I enjoy. Oh, and I am not sure I am going to be able to finish my magnet program at my school, because I don't go to that school all 7 periods/classes. Ugh, I am just stressed and I need to calm myself down and not worry as much.
Im feeling sad. I want to write a fanfiction but i dont because I have the fear of people saying that i suck. Im not going to anyways, if I do nobody will read it ever.
Pretty good.
Stressing about homes and the home buying process. Just need to take a deep breath lol.
Not really happy school is back tomorrow but I am looking forward to getting a little further in my academic path. Hoping that I won't struggle this semester with my math course.
Also feeling excited because in Feb. I'll be heading to Oklahoma for a few days. I've only been on a plane once so I'm happy that I get to go for a second time now. Hopefully I don't feel ill though because I'm bad in cars after long trips. Luckily my first plane ride wasn't so bad...it was very short. Coming back I felt a bit bad but I was wedged between two very large men with no arm or leg room. Also had to sit separated from my party since the plane was so full.
I have to see the doctor though for a multitude of things. I'm setting up my Primary Care Doctor though so I think I'll bring things up at my annual wellness check. Just hoping I don't have to spend a ton in medical bills this year. :/
I feel like trash. very hungover. last night I drove to a friends house to leave my car so I could walk with a few friends to a party. I went to the party, proceeded to run the beer pong table for 11 games, lost because my partner knocked over the last cup, left the party decided to walk back to my car to check on it before getting a ride back to my friends place that I've been staying the past few days... So I get to my car at 3am and notice that I have a flat tire.... My friend that was going to drive me home was asleep and I didn't have a phone so I couldn't get a beeper or anything like that. I drunkenly decided that I needed to try to change my tire even though I wasn't about to drive back drunk. I got my jack and tire iron out and proceeded to change my tire in the - degree weather. It turns out that my spare was also flat. Frustrated and anxious, I walked a whole hour in the weather to get back to my friends house. it was such a****ty night. now I'm hungover and worried about it
I made up my mind, and it feels really good, actually. I will miss it maybe, but still.. It's been drifting away from me more and more and not worth it